support for Binge Eating Disorder

Congrats to Mrs B, you're doing great...but what about everybody else. How are you guys all doing? I hope that no one is ashamed to share their stories if you had a binge, I think if we can open up to each other, we can learn a lot from each person's individual experiences. I personally would love to read how the rest of you are doing.

Me? Doing okay. Still battling the night time cravings pretty much every day. I love love love it when I don't even have to face temptation, but most days are not that easy. Last night I had my diary all filled out and then all of a sudden right before bed I start craving the devil sugar. I so should have just gone to bed, but I foolishly tried to tame the beast with a little chocolate. Unfortunately that seemed to have made it worse and then 3 squares of chocolate and a few spoonfuls of fat free cool whip later, I felt "better" and went to bed. I feel crappy about the extra meaningless calories I ate, but I am not going to be upset with myself because it was not nearly as bad as it has been in my past. I have to remind myself where I started from. And where I started from is a scary place. But way back then I wasn't logging my food and instead of 150-200 meaningless calories, I'd probably stuff my face with like 800-1000 calories w/o blinking an eye, maybe more. Some days definitely more. With my history, I am not striving for perfection. I want to improve my awareness and learn from how I feel at those times and I will continue to log whatever I eat, even if I'm not proud of it. The fat free cool whip must go though too, no reddi whip, no cool whip, no fluffy sugary stuff anymore for my fridge. I will still continue to buy smaller amounts of chocolate and occasional low sugar ice cream, but I know I don't really even crave cool whip, I just like it because it is sweet and light, and I try to justify it since it is so low in calories, but eating spoonful after spoonful is not good and it is too many grams of sugar. The other problem with cool whip and me is that it gives me a "full" sensation after I eat a whole bunch and that is not a sensation I want to attribute to bed time anymore (see my profile for more info on this). So cool whip is out! Nutritionally, and psychologically it is not good for me. One battle at a time, one battle at a time...

Thank you for sharing also Tbfree. I applaud you for your success today saying no to those delicious little bars. You did the absolute right thing and so glad you signed into MFP when it hit. Good luck with dinner and when you're sitting in your hotel room tonight, think of your MFPeeps. I'll be thinking of you! Take good care sweetie!

P.S. Stay far away from the vending machines at the hotel

Hey wanderinglight!

Nice job with the not binging keep it up! Keep your self busy that's what I do it really works. And remember you are worth it never forget that and you own it to yourself to take care of you!

Good luck!

hey everyone, just want to make my presence known :-) i had to pieces of cheese bread last night, i didnt feel guilty and beat ymself up about it for once! i didnt cry or hate myself. it was still bad to eat it but im glad that i didnt get depressed.

gonna work it off tonight!
ill check back in late,r on my way out the door to work "yay":noway:

Hi everyone. I've been doing really well the past few days. I have avoided the chocolates, the ice creams, the cool whips, all of it. I think that will be a better approach than trying to just have a little because that sends me into a yearning craving state of mind that is frankly really annoying and when it happens I just want it to go away. But I've noticed these past 3 days that if I don't even indulge a little at night I feel almost normal...almost. AND that I can go a whole day w/o eating any of those bad things. That in itself is a revelation. I will pay more and more attention to my actual cravings and not eat "just a little" just because I want it.

Hi Hope--To keep my body away from sweets, I severely limit what I will even bring into the house. As of right now, I've got some plain chocolate squares, fat free cool whip (which I will not be buying any more of), and some sugar free whitman's chocolates that have been sitting in the pantry for a few months because they're not great, more like emergency chocolate. I finished the no sugar added ice cream last week or the week b4 and have not bought anymore of that yet. I'll probably wait for it to go on sale. I decided it was not something I needed to keep in the house all the time and if I really want ice cream I'll go to McD's for a 49 cent cone. I am not willing to give up the stash of chocolate though. It is better for me to have it, than try to fill the craving with something else. If it gets to be a problem sometimes I'll throw the chocolate up on the way top shelf that I need a stepladder to get anything off of.

To keep my mind off it, there is nothing that I can do as a reaction, once the craving hits, it's go time. At first I try to ignore it, but sometimes it can be so overwhelming that it interferes with my train of thought and when I can't shake it off, I do indulge. I try very hard to keep it to a minimum and I eat very very slowly, so it doesn't even feel uncontrolled. So since I usually can't make the craving go away once it's hit, it has to be what I do beforehand to prevent the craving from even coming on. And as I've mentioned before over the past 6 months this has gotten easier and easier. I never thought a day would go by w/o me feeling an overwhelming urge to eat sugar. But with proper nutrition and following all my "rules", I really don't crave sugar that much (maybe 3-4X per week or less). It's when I have some that I can't seem to stop. But if I don't even have any "naughty" foods at all and just stick to my fuel foods, I'm usually safe. The way the nutrition coach has me eating is how I want to eat now forever because it is WORKING. Yes I'm losing weight and that is great, but I've been dealing with this eating disorder for too long now and I love that it seems to be getting better and better. This has been a problem for me for too long and I thought it was hopeless, but it isn't hopeless at all, I just didn't have the right tools and educations about food, but I do now. And I FEEL good. Healthy feels good. I like it a lot! Never in my whole life have I had a period of time where I only ate healthy foods and I really feel totally different.

bump!

Good for you Mrs B!

Hi Love, welcome to the board. What has been helpful to me so far is nourishing my body with all the good foods that are full of fiber & protein throughout the day and then by the time the night comes around I'm not craving food because I'm already satisfied. My problem seems to be at night too and I've noticed that on the days that I don't have even a little sugar at night I'm better.

Ah last night was bad and I can't seem to stop all this!! Its stinks

Support for BED .... sign me up! I've been reading everyones responds and its nice to know I'm not the only one dealing with this.
I started bingeing right after I got married. My husband sarted getting on my case about everything I put in my mouth. All the guys he knew told him that once he married me I would get fat. Even though I was skinny and happy with where my body was at the time I let him get to me. I felt like I couldn't eat anything around him so I started eating when he wasn't around.This led to eating as much as I could as fast as I could just on the weekends then slowly every other day of the week. I started exerciseing more to make up for it until all I was doing was eating and working out. I compleatly exusted myself.

I ended up gaining 15 pounds in 4 years until just before we dicided to geat peragnet. I lost 5lbs in 4 weeks. Then gained 50lbs during my peragnancy.

So now here I am eight weeks post pardom dealing with this all over again!

Well guys I have not binged in over a month but I binged tonight! I feel crappy after doing it but one lesson learned I have to let myself have a little sugar a day of bam I will binge. I have not been giving myself treats at all bad idea. Time to strat all over again. Damn I was over a month without binging. start again I quess. I hope others are having better luck.

Melissa

Hey!

Tks! I know we can do it one day at a time! Stress is a huge factor I'm trying to keep myself really busy so I'm not turning to food. Good luck to you as well!

RECOVERY MEDITATIONS
One Day at a Time
September 7, 2010

~ HONESTY ~

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"If it is not right do not do it;
if it is not true do not say it."

Marcus Aurelius

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Honesty of all sorts is important, but
honesty with ourselves is
foundational. With everything that was
in me, I resisted the notion that I had
an eating disorder. Everybody else had a
problem with my eating, not me. But when
I finally faced the painful truth, I
began the journey to freedom, from not
merely overeating, but from all the
underlying bondage that had caused me to
stuff my feelings.

What power comes from honesty! I used to
be afraid of truth, but truth is becoming my friend.

ONE DAY AT A TIME . . .

Today I will not let myself hide
from truth simply to be comfortable;
I will use truth as a tool for freedom

Hey!

Tks so much for the post. It is so true being honest to myself and others have really helped me with this. Talking it out with someone trying to solve the problem or getting to the bottom of it. I'm really looking forward to going to this program for addicting behaivers I think it will help me alot. The past 3 days have been hell for me. Stress is getting to me and I keep turning to food. I think one of the problems is I'm not eating a well balaned diet so I'm using the Canada's food guide to get everything in to see if that helps. Because I was not eating everything I should and not eating dairy and to much fruit and vegs. And not enough good grains. So we will see. I also gave up gum on Saturday I think that was other problem instead of chewing gum I was eating to much food mostly sugar. So I put gum back in to see if that helps I'm just going to not go overboard. I can do this it is just trying to find a balance in my food.

Melissa