hi everyone i am new here. i am now around 175lb and 5ft1. 5 yrs ago i went from a size 16 to a size 0 and had major issues with food. i would eat around 800-1000cals a day and burn around 800 every day 7 days a week. i thought i had to burn everything i ate in order to lose weight. iw as obsessed i knew the calories in every single food and i used to wake counting calories it drove me insane and i was really unhealthy. i seen an ED specialist and was told my pulse rate was so low i was at major risk of a heart attack. i then gained the weight over 4 yrs and i'm now a size 14 pushing a 16
i am miserable and dying to not just shift the weight but BECOME HEALTHY. which i have never cared about before so i am hoping i will choose a different path this time. i normally only want to lose weight. the difference being is i now have a 10 month old baby girl who i want to be healthy for. i am only 21 and i feel ill every single day. i eat no fruit or veg and live on ****. literally ****. i am a sugar addict and have obsessive tendancies. my only pleasure in life is eating while watching tv. it stems from my childhood when iwas really unhappy i'd watch movies with a huge picnic of food. that is what i now do every single night to make me feel happy. i feel i am depressed and miserable if i can't binge infront of the tv.
sorry for this huge post and not making a lot of sense but basically i wanted some advice on how to overcome the emotional tv binging and where to start? according to MFP my bmr is 1422 so how many calories do i eat? what if i exercise? and how can i not become obsessed over calorie counting again?
thank you so much and please excuse my grammar lol