I'm dying, 18,000 cal binge, final tommorow? :(

You're pretty hard on yourself. First your describing yourself as fat but according to your ticket you are around 125 pounds? You don't have a weight issue - you have an esteem issue. You list 20 ounces of fried chicken - to be honest I think there is an exaggeration in your calories as much as there is in you being "fat". You need to pull out a scale and truly measure what you are eating - calm down and start working on your esteem and above that eat sensibly. Your weight is fine. When you are 40 years old you will look back on pictures of where you are now and say "oh my god look how skinny I was" - we all do - you just need to focus on where you are and get advice off your doctor or a professional of how much you should weight. If your height is around 5"6', your weight at 125 and your 20 then your bmi is around 20% which is well in the normal range. There is nothing wrong with you the way you are.

This is by far the worst binge I have ever ever ever had. It's clicked. I'm bingeing because I'm fat and want to get away from studying. I'm not going to do this ever again. But I feel hopeless right now about everything. The weight gain, the possible failed exams, looking like I'm pregnant tommorow...

I've been in the same state of mind several times. I guess for students it's just way too easy to rely on food to ease the stress, especially because we're so young and somehow we still need to figure out so many things.
Being "fat" or unfit has always been one of my first trigger to start binging... which is contradictory, since binging wouldn't have helped me at all in getting healthier! But that's just how things work when you're prone to binging. Everyone can have different reasons and triggers.
I know it seems like you've ****ed everything up but it's not a tragedy, for real. If there's something I've learnt is that nothing was ever built in a day, so nothing can be destroyed in a day either. If you recognize you're binging even if that's not good for you, you're already at a great point. I know it's hard to just stop, but when I wanted to stop I kept telling myself that no matter how "hungry" I was, it wasn't worth it. Food tastes so good, especially if you allow yourself to eat everything you want, but it's just not worth the excessive guilt and sadness afterwards. And not even the stomach ache!
When you're just a step away from opening the fridge and binging, think about that. Ask yourself, "do I really want to hurt myself so much? Do I really want to be through all the mess I go through after a binge?"
I know it's hard to separate a reasonable hunger from binge cravings. If you're hungry, then eat. Fasting doesn't help, it just drags you even in deeper on the bottom of a vicious cycle. Don't fall into the temptation of restricting or binging again just because happened once. Try to detach yourself from what happened, do something that can keep you occupied, try to even forget about the binge if you can. If you've still got some particulary triggering food, give it to your family to eat it, so that you can't see it anymore. I've found that the only things that stopped me from binging were thinking about the subsequent sadness and keeping my trigger foods away.
This doesn't mean that you have to avoid such foods forever. But they probably carry some bad memories for you at the moment, so I think it's better to focus on eating something new, so that you can discover new tastes and really enjoy every single bite.
Right after obtaining some self-control again, the following step is trying to find new ways to deal with your stress. This might be anything that works for you. I try to keep myself occupied by studying and exercising so that I won't think about food. It still works even now that I don't feel like binging often anymore.
It's not easy but you've also got to try to take a good care of yourself. Try to forgive yourself for what you've done and whatever you may do in future. You're human, you can make mistakes, you don't have to punish yourself because of it. I've failed bilions of exams personally and I still keep trying. No matter how slow I work, I still work. No matter how fat can I look, I still do my best for my body. That's what really matters!
Don't focus on what happened today, or whichever your guilt is, focus on tomorrow and what you're going to do to make your life better. And if it doesn't get better at once, try again. There isn't any goal to reach, life lies in the process itself.

Wow um, what impels you to eat so much? And a good thing to note is

- People cannot be supportive of you if you are not of yourself. People cannot motivate another person, completely.
- A jar of chocolate...seriously? What even tells you to do that?
- Eating all those veggies and fruits along with horrible food does nothing for your body, except maybe trick yourself into thinking you did good.

I'd really think about what you want in life, I'm a week into a vegetarian lfiestyle and thoguh it's hard, the most I intake a day is 1200-1300 calories. My recommended is 1900. Low carbs, low everything.

It's hard but think about what you want in life ~ I wanna be healthy and fit, I wanna be able to do things without my knees hurting.

Oh look! Another strong first post (not srs)

OP, ignore the posts like above and do what the successful people suggest: eat within your macros, take care of yourself and rock that test.

Is there any medical care (I don't know where you live) that can help you? Eating disorders are a lifelong problem. Are you in counseling?

Good God! You haave way too much time on your hands. Get busy with friends and family and why are those things at your reach in the first place?

I would guess food is at her disposal because she's an adult human in a first-world country.
I think you should probably re-think that whole, "I'm a Christian" thing based on this post, ma'am.

FYI: Jesus associated with people who made much worse choices.

Good God! You haave way too much time on your hands. Get busy with friends and family and why are those things at your reach in the first place?

Nasty. U obviously are perfect and never have food issues. Then why r u here??? I don't usually write a negative post to anyone but this really bothered me as I can be busy as ever and then for no reason, go on a binge. Yea, it is better when busy but I am not perfect.

and please, to everyone who wants to judge the amount of food she ate: DON'T.

Don't try to compare this behaviour to what you are used from YOURSELF. So simply DON'T DO IT. This is really hurtful to read!
It is not her fault and she surely did not WISH to eat so many kcal. This is what a binge is, when you are totally out of control.
This is very disordered eating and you are absolutely not helping by making comments like "oh wow that's really a lot"

of course it is. And she ate it, so she KNOWS already. She is desperate about help. Don't pour salt in her wound.
And please, don't give "advice" half- heartedly if you know nothing about this topic.
Your "advice" like 'maybe fast because fasting can be very helpful and you don't need any more kcal after such a day anyway' can be very, very hurtful, stressing and counterproductive.

It does NOT MATTER how big her binge was and comments like "I wouldn't force myself to eat tomorrow" just indicate "wow you really shouldn't eat tomorrow just think of what you ate today"

Stop it.

It is NECESSARY to eat normally again. It is NECESSARY and even though fasting CAN be helpful for HEALTHY people, it is an IRRESPONSIBLE advice in a case like this.
So PLEASE. If you don't have actual KNOWLEDGE about this topic, leave. Otherwise, you will do more harm than you realize.

As I sat and read this thread...I thought the same thing...if you don't understand...you just need to be quiet.

I don't understand so I was glad to see some of you come along that did.

I can't believe sometimes that people will "give advice" and "judge" when it is quite obvious that the issues go far beyond just not sticking to a diet.

I will repeat what you have said...please people...quit judging...quit giving "diet advice"...to someone whose problems go far beyond your own. Let these people who understand offer sound advice based on experience. The rest of us just need to offer support.

To the OP...

You have had some very kind offers of help from some who have been where you are...please consider taking the hands of those that have reached out to you.

I wish you luck...I wish you the strength to fight...I hope that you will allow others to walk along beside you as travel this path to healing.

That is a lot of food. I'm impressed. How can you afford it?! My housekeeping would be horrendous if I ate that much.
Seems you're in a vicious circle.Suggest you get out of it 'cos this isn't good.

Does anyone realize this girl is in the 120's on the scale? That's not fat no matter how tall you are.

Keep your head up girlie. Everyone has bad days. I've had a cpl bad weeks myself. Get through the finals and start fresh. Good luck!

Does anyone realize this girl is in the 120's on the scale? That's not fat no matter how tall you are.

Keep your head up girlie. Everyone has bad days. I've had a cpl bad weeks myself. Get through the finals and start fresh. Good luck!

Skinny girls always want to be skinnier. It's a rule.

Does anyone realize this girl is in the 120's on the scale? That's not fat no matter how tall you are.

Keep your head up girlie. Everyone has bad days. I've had a cpl bad weeks myself. Get through the finals and start fresh. Good luck!

Skinny girls always want to be skinnier. It's a rule.

The ticker might not be accurate by quickly looking at her other posts.
Anyway, it doesn't really matter if someone is actually fat or not, binges are equally dangerous. Just like it's not reasonable to focus on how many calories she had - that's not the point.

That is a lot of food. I'm impressed. How can you afford it?! My housekeeping would be horrendous if I ate that much.

Irrelevant

Seems you're in a vicious circle.Suggest you get out of it 'cos this isn't good.

She obviously knows that - hence the post

Some people that have posted might not have an eating disorder but they certainly have a "lack of compassion disorder".

Starving the next day won't help.

Eating a day of crappy food won't do much either, just the same way as eating salads for one day doesn't make you healthy. Weight changes require consistency and time, so forget all about it and eat normally tomorrow.

Oh and seek out some therapy or self help for Binge Eating Disorder

Wow um, what impels you to eat so much? And a good thing to note is

- People cannot be supportive of you if you are not of yourself. People cannot motivate another person, completely.
- A jar of chocolate...seriously? What even tells you to do that?
- Eating all those veggies and fruits along with horrible food does nothing for your body, except maybe trick yourself into thinking you did good.

I'd really think about what you want in life, I'm a week into a vegetarian lfiestyle and thoguh it's hard, the most I intake a day is 1200-1300 calories. My recommended is 1900. Low carbs, low everything.

It's hard but think about what you want in life ~ I wanna be healthy and fit, I wanna be able to do things without my knees hurting.

If I was you, my aim would to be less of a prick. #justsaying

Totally agree. So unhelpful and judgemental. Binge eating disorder is a mental illness! If you can't be compassionate then don't post.