being stuffed but eating only 800 calories

With all the various restrictions you've listed, you're going to have a very hard time getting the nutrients and calories you need. You're probably going to have to make some concessions somewhere.

Let's recap, since they're all scattered:

PCOS
Gluten intolerant
Lactose intolerant
Vegan
Very mindful of Omega-6 fats
Not much money to spend on food

The gluten, lactose, and PCOS pretty much by default cut out a large number of inexpensive veg*n nutrient dense foods (since soy is/should be off the table due to the high level of phytoestrogens, and beans are questionable, due to their high starch content, both issues can exacerbate PCOS).

The money situation, of course, isn't really something you can change easily. Ideally, you could reallocate funds to food, but that only works for so long.

That leaves two things that are choices -- being vegan and being mindful of Omega-6. Now, both of them, especially in isolation, are good things to be mindful of, but I'm not entirely convinced that they're not a side effect of your ED (the money thing may be, too, at least to some extent, but I have no insight into your financial decisions). Every person I know that has had an ED have stated that you never really "get over it." You deal with it the tendencies the rest of your life. Keeping from succumbing to it requires conscious and semi-conscious choices every day.

The reason I say this is because of the reasons you've given, vs your current situation.

You state that you believe that you can get all nutrients without resorting to killing animals. Yet, there are a few things wrong with that --

a. you have several compounding issues that will make doing so more difficult than it already is, and already putting a number of not-easy restrictions on you (and I understand first-hand, I have PCOS and am gluten intolerant as well)
b. you're not getting the nutrients you need (including raw calories)
c. you don't have the money you yourself said needs invested in order to do it properly
d. you're relying on "boxed processed" stuff from a store to fill in the gaps, particularly for EFAs and certain vitamins, something you just accused non-vegans of doing (which, by the way, there is a middle ground between someone who hunts and someone who buys crap from a big-box supermarket without a care for where it came from or the process by which it got to that point)
e. you're almost overly mindful of Omega-6s, to the point of turning down one of the few calorie and nutrient-dense foods that still work with all of your other restrictions, despite having a presumably healthy diet that's very likely low in fat in general, and low in Omega-6 already (side note - it's not so much the raw number of Omega-6 fats that 's the problem, it's the disproportion with Omega-3s)

Now, where you make the concessions is going to depend entirely on you, but right now, your immediate health can't really handle all of the restrictions you have. Maybe at some point, you'll be able to achieve all of your goals, but at the moment, having them all is doing more harm than good.

I also second the recommendation for probiotics that people have mentioned. There are both soy and coconut yogurts on the market, you can also make your own fermented foods, including kombucha, sodas, water kefir, sauerkraut, and more.

Has anyone had a long term eating disorder (if just eating 800-1100 calories qualifies) and want to eat more but your body just feels full when you eat more?

I'm trying to eat more and did for a few days eating 1400 a day and I feel bloated when I eat. I can't use the 'I'm full' as a gauge because I'm finding it really hard to eat 1400 nevermind the 1800-2000 I should be eating. Do you eat fat just to get the calories you need?

I have pcos and fibro so the advice may be different for me in terms of metabolism.

i'm sorry about your struggles, but it seems like to every suggestion, something else pops up - btw, i'm vegan; btw, i'm lactose intolerant; btw, i don't like the texture of avocados; btw, i don't like the texture of yogurt; btw, gluten intolerant, etc. etc. etc.

it just seems like you aren't really looking for a fix. what it seems like to me is that you are looking for someone to validate you eating 800 calories a day. i'll be honest, i felt great eating 500 - 1000 calories a day. i lost weight. i had energy to go to the gym and i was never hungry. i didn't see anything wrong with it and when i heard other people doing the same thing, it validated me. i've changed my way of thinking, but i've been there and to me, it seems like you are fishing for someone to say it's ok.

Are you trying to lose or gain? I'm confused?

Are you trying to lose or gain? I'm confused?

In my first post I did mention that I am trying to eat more so I thought gaining weight group would have the experience that people could relate to. I am trying to loose weight but the simple formula of calories in and out don't work for me because my metabolism is not running as fast as it should. Part of the recovery process my doctor has told me to eat more roughly 1000 more than I'm used to.

PCOS is making my weight issues harder to deal with but I do know my thyroid and symptoms of diabetes is not present based on doctors examination.

I'd love to see a nutritionals but I’m not able to pay to see one, so I'm doing the best I can online; my only resource.

I was loosing at 800 calories (sometimes dropping to 400 calories with all the exercise I was doing) I did drop weight (muscle and fat) but I hit a wall when I hit 33% of body fat at 191 as well as my fatigue symptoms made live unlivable having PCOS and fibro is not simple to deal with.

if you are not losing weight on 800 calories a day (not that you should be trying to) you should speak to your medical doctor immediately and discuss what underlying medical conditions may possibly be at work.

I don't have a doctor that I can just drop in (free clinics aren't that good). But but the two I've seen that have been competent/not overloaded with other patients, told me everything else checks fine other than the PCOS and fibro (mind you it is based on a cursory glance). I have unanswered questions about my metabolism but I've told it's exceedingly rare. I have a lot of other medical and emotional issues but I won't share them here.

I've been told explicitly to eat more and I'm trying to comply, I hope that answers the question.