I Stopped a Binge Right in its Tracks

Congrats that you have self control .... and for the friend .... y don't you call her, say sorry and be friends one more time .... she might not accept your apology first ... but she will .... having good friends is a blessing (sorry in advance if you think i m interfering with your personal matter)

I just wrote my very first blog last week about this exact thing. I can imagine all those emotions you were feeling, and it's a huge deal when you can beat them at their own game. I'm sorry you lost a good friend, that's never easy, but you have to be pretty damn proud of yourself for overcoming those feelings and doing something that would only make you feel worse.

Decent post. At first I was like "Where is she going with this?" and then I understood. Way to dig to the root! Keep up the good work.

Well done for dealing with such strong emotions. I can empathise with those feelings so much and can damage my diet with emotional eating/ binging. Posts like this, and it is such a brave one, are so helpful in helping me to unravel things in my life that I am not comfortable with .Thank you with all my heart for posting this, as well thank you to those who have also put their issues to the forum,

This touches me deeply not so much because of the dietary control you exercised (although that's mighty impressive for sure!) but I am dumbfounded and blown away by your willingness to accept responsibility for your behavior toward your friend. I disagree with anyone who would tell you that you did nothing wrong --- you did, and you know it and you admit it. You had every right to avoid whatever circumstance you wish, it's the way that you did it, with carelessness and dishonesty that made it wrong. There's a difference. It's rarely that we hurt each other with our end intention, but usually HOW we assert that intention that is destructive to relationships. I have so much admiration for you and your ability to see that and to own it, especially publicly.

It's all too easy for us to justify our mean and careless behavior with righteous indignation about preserving our rights, but the truth is we do owe each other honesty and kindness, compassion and warmth. Your realization is soooo rare. I have been on both ends of such exchanges, and I have to say that both are excruciatingly painful when you have these realizations, so I want to offer you solace for the pain you are experiencing of your own. Although the outcome was good (realization, growth, positive behaviors toward eating), it has to be PAINFUL to process that post and then to write it out and to post it. You deserve a second chance and I hope that you will consider (without regard for outcome) writing your friend a heartfelt letter taking ownership of what happened and putting your heart on the line. Risk everything. And whether she accepts it or not, you will find incredible healing and comfort for having done so. We do unspeakable things to each other to protect our vulnerabilities, but when we offer those vulnerabilities up as gifts to each other, the benefits can be just as profound as the damage done by protecting them.

If I were her, I would feel lucky to count you as a friend ... *HUG*