Okay MFP…So I told myself that at my 1 year MFP anniversary that I would force myself to post in the success story forum about my journey even if I had lost only a single pound or not any at all. I told myself this at the beginning of my journey last year and I don’t know if this was just a motivational tool for myself or not. (Because come on… I think I’d be really upset to post in here if I had actually gained weight instead of lost it…) I really do not feel like I have the ‘privilege’ to post in this forum nor do I feel like I am a success, but what I can say is that I do feel like I have progressed and strive to do better. So this weight loss journey has been a lot harder than I could ever possibly imagine. Everyone tells you it’s simple, eat less work out more and you will lose weight, but everyone forgets to tell you about Birthday Cakes, Stressful ‘grab & go lunches’, friends late night taco bell runs, and those days when you want to just curl up in your room in the fetal position after work because you are just so damn tired that you don’t want to go to the gym…Yeah those days….I’ve had a few of them. I’ve actually had a lot of exhausting days lately so I am hoping with posting my 1 year anniversary that it will help motivate me to get my **** together and move forward in my physical fitness journey.
So in the past year since I have started MFP here is what has happened:
1. I lost 41 pounds.
2. I cried at least 20 times telling myself I wanted to give up because it was easier to just be fat. (You literally will not understand this until your trainer has you running on the treadmill with a 35 pound weight asking you if you are going to let yourself gain this weight back).
3. I got into at least 12 fights with my best friend because I told her that I wanted to give up, that I wanted to just do it myself, that I just wanted to be left alone, and every single fight she was there to pick up the pieces and tell me that she was not going to let me give up because of how far I’ve come.
4. I’ve went on a really strict diet only to just binge eat in the end and then to overcome the fact that the only way to stay on this slow and steady wagon is to eat in moderation, and eat healthier.
5. I’ve learned how amazing it is to not lose weight, but lift heavy, gain muscle, and lose body fat.
6. I’ve learned to not let everyone else’s weight loss goals influence myself.
7. A sad thing that I realized is that since I’ve lost weight, people are nicer to me, they actually will hold the door for me now, and people that didn’t acknowledge me before actually do now…. What the heck people…
The hardest thing for me is the fact of coming to terms with that I didn’t gain this weight overnight and no it’s not going to be easy to lose it and I shouldn’t expect to lose it overnight.
**Seriously couldn’t have done it without my support system: MFP, My best friend Leah.**
Here are my body stats::
5'0", Shoe Size 8 1/2, Pear Shaped
SW: 236lbs | Pants: 18 Shirt: 2x/3x (9/26/13) BF: +40%
CW: 189.8lbs | Pants: 14 Shirt: XL/L (9/23/14) BF: 30%
Waist: 30. | Hips: 42 | Thighs: 23.5 | Calf: 14.75
Forearm: 8 | Bicep: 10 | Neck: 11
Body Fat: 30%
Enough of my rambling here are some pictures for you MFPers!
I still have a long ways to go, but I feel like my emotional progress has come a long ways.