let's hope I can find a good motivator this time around

I was on about a year ago looking for people to be friends and in turn motivate one another for weight loss and no one responded. QQ me right, whatever.
Anyways im hoping that I can repost and hope to find some good motivating buddies.

My name is Becky, I am 33 years old, will be 34 next month. I started my weight loss back in 2006 in which I weighed 225 lbs.
I hated myself and am still battling through the depression that I had with it. I have been big all my life. I have type2 uncontrolled unmedicated diabetes. I also have unmedicated high blood pressure and high cholestrol. When I first started my weight loss journey I worked out at a gym, managed to lose 25 lbs, but got discouraged with that as the place I went, it was not okay to be big, it was ran by skinny people and all that came there was skinny people, and they made me feel very unwelcome there. But I continued on the healthier way of eating and eventually got down to 175 lbs. Then I came to a stand still. I couldn't lose weight, no matter what I did.
My health then took a turn for the worse. I was diagnosed with a severe gastric ulcer which caused me to lose 30 lbs. I was down to 145 lbs and I was loving it. I mean yeah it wasn't the best way to lose weight but the lbs were off. with the diet changes and still not having very much of an apetite I got all the way down to 125 lbs. Then down to 120. I was so happy. So many people tried to bring me down, still calling me names because I still had all this loose skin from the rapid weight loss, that no body really believed me that I weighed 120 lbs.
But I felt great, I didn't let peoples words bother me, or so I thought.
I kept the weight off for over 2 years. I was happy, or so I thought.
Then it was like I became invisible to my husband. He no longer made comments to me, and our relationship started changing for the worse, my depression got really bad. I hadn't gained any of the weight back, so I couldn't understand what was going on.
One day I just decided to stop getting dressed. that I would just wear my bed clothes all day. Would he notice me then. I thought he would, but no.
So then I started eating my depression away. I wasnt caring how much I ate or what I ate. I was giving into my cravings of chocolate and I couldnt stop eating. I didnt want to stop eating. I just wanted the pain to go away. Did that make him start noticing me again, no. In fact when I told him I gained weight, he said he didn't notice. and that stung bad. and then I got really mad at myself cause I was starting to get so big I couldnt fit into any of my cute clothes anymore.
So i am trying to make the change again. I am trying to get back in shape. But I can't do it alone. I need someone anyone, to just give me purpose.

Hi, my name is Becky, and yes I am depressed and yes I do have dependant personality disorder and other issues. I am a married mother of 2 autisitic children and I need a friend.
So if I haven't scared you off by now with all of my depression talking. would you be my friend?

Im sorry