Kicking *kitten* In Our Twenties - April Challenge!!

Hey folks. Quick catch up post... I'm feeling insanely aggravated, exhausted and just plain cranky right now. Low on sleep would be the understatement of the century. Worked 9pm-3am, slept 3:30am-7:30am, and will be up again until at least 3:30am tonight. Tried to nap post-race but woke up after about 45 mins and just gave up on it... I'm such a bad napper! Even when I'm thoroughly exhausted. It just doesn't work for me at all.

Doesn't help that my job is so frustrating and trying some nights. Last night we had a fight nearly break out RIGHT at my bar (where I was standing) when a grown man lifted his glass to break it on another man's face. Thankfully the situation was diffused. Then later in the night a very intoxicated man came in and I refused him service - but since it's a neighbourhood bar and everyones a "regular" they all think they are entitled to get whatever they want (I hear the whole "I know the owner" shpeel a thousand times a night) - and he decided to take it upon himself to go BANANAS and threaten to a) get me fired and then b) come back tonight to "deal with me"... Such f*cking nonsense. I'm so tired of putting up with people who think that hardship is a valid excuse for violence towards complete strangers. Everyone's got a damn chip on their shoulder at that place, just waiting for a fight. As if life is about nothing more than just going through the motions, having bad *kitten* happen to you, and then eventually dying unhappy and alone. That's how they all seem to be living their lives. It's not a wonder they've got drinking problems, I guess... Such a toxic environment. OK /rant. I'm sorry about that. Just needed to get it off my chest.

It's hard not to be able to talk to anyone about these things... But naturally I really don't feel comfortable telling my family or Tyler, because I know they already worry about my safety at work and I don't need to give them anything else to worry about. I would have vented a bit with Tyler today except he was moving some of his stuff and decided it was necessary to coral his entire family up from Niagara (1 1/4 hour drive) to help him with it, even though they are renting a truck next weekend. His poor planning is definitely a source of frustration for me in this regard. It's such a waste of time for his family and ended up being a huge waste of time for me as well today. Ended up moving some boxes and very little else, so having 5 people in the fray was just excessive. I know he's all stressed out about it but I couldn't help feel super aggravated being pulled away from other activities (I was enjoying a coffee + book at my fave cafe when I got his frantic text today) only to drive over and see how that there was actually NOTHING for me to help with. And then I couldn't even spend time with him because his family wanted them all to leave for dinner. Argh! :explode: What a day!

OK, well that's enough complaining. Onto the good stuff.

Had my 5K race today and while I didn't PR, my time/pace was really quite good. The course was somewhat hilly, with a total climb of 149 feet, but I managed to neg split my miles and run my last mile under 9:00, which is super speedy for me! Final chip time was 28:39 for an average pace of 9:13 and an avg speed of 6.51mph. I'm pretty happy with that for sure :bigsmile: My foot was feeling tender but I iced it and took some more advil so we should be good to go. I definitely felt very fortunate I didn't try to run the 10miler under-trainer, though. During the 5K I definitely struggled with some feelings of doubt and knew that I would have really had a tough time pushing through on the 10miler. It'll take me some time yet to get back up to distances like that... Back to basics! Just have to give my foot some more time to heal, I think...

Food today has been so-so. I made a sweet Channa Masala, courtesy of OSG's (altered recipe) and my new Arvinda's spice mixtures. Was yummy but I could have eaten WAY more than I did. Then I noshed on way too many Mini Wheats on my way over to Tyler's because I figured I've have no time for dinner and I was a) hungry and b) emotional. Carb ATTACK. Oh well. Could have been worse. Going to reel it in for the rest of the day and make the best of it. Not logging all weekend so I may as well get off to a good start.

K I better get my act together before work. Hope you folks have a great weekend. Not sure if I'll be lurking or what, but I'll try to post when I can. Again, sorry about all the ranting. And thanks for reading. Much love, ladies.

I have to get to bed since it's 3:15am and I have to be up early for Easter brunch with Ty's family - I just wanted to say how much I the support here and appreciate all of you SO much! Thank you for all your messages and for your updates, which I adore reading. It's such a great network of fab ladies (and gent) and I really do value you all so much. Wish I could be contributing more - Just really, really swamped with life right now.

So happy that my work "week" is over finally. One week left. Can't come soon enough! :ohwell:

Will catch up as soon as I can with each of you. Keep up the hard work everyone. I promise you all - It totally pays off!! :bigsmile:

Much love and happy festivities this weekend!!