I suck

I think you need to turn this thing on its head and see what you have been doing positively.

1) you have started recording your food intake, which means you have accepted you should do something about your weight. Thats the hardest part.

2) By logging your food calories you are now more aware of exactly what you are consuming - and ok so you are not quite as low calorie wise as you should be - I dare say you are eating alot less than you were before you became so mindful about logging food. So you are probably eating less and that will have an impact on the scales.

3) you are taking exercise - which means you are doing something more than your normal daily activity.

Don't be disheartened - these are all really positive steps and you should be proud - little changes all add up and make BIG differences.

Now you just need to make small changes to the types of foods you eat, reduce portion sizes, choose lower calorie options and increase your veg and fruit intake so that it satisfies your appetite a bit more. Also make sure you are drinking your fluids.

Some great first steps in your first week well done!!

If you can't stop creating overages, then burn more to create the deficit. Otherwise, you already know what the better alternatives are. No one but yourself is going to make you eat what you want to eat. Processed food was designed to make you want them more. You're already holding yourself accountable for the food you take in, that's a start, at the very least. If you don't like seeing red numbers, there are obvious changes you know that need to be made.

That said, my switch over to eating healthier alternatives was pretty much immediate. I have a wide palate for flavors and food, so it wasn't a big deal. That and almost dying from diabetes kind of set the tone for my diet. To each their own. I wish you much success on your journey.

First of all stop beating yourself up about it. Continue to log and make the effort and with time it will get easier. I've convinced my wife and it slowly has gotten better for her. Start controlling your portions better and you will find it easier to continue. Example: looking at your diary your meals are too high on the calorie end try to reduce them at first by making small changeable to portions like only half a slice of cheese or 1 cream rather than 2 in your coffee. Only half the bagel but the whole sandwich just like an open faced sandwich. You prob won't even taste the difference. The real challenge comes into play when changing the types of food your eating. Lose the bagel if you can have more eggs. Lose the starch carbs at dinner ( potatoes ) and have more broccoli. Bottom line increase the foods that are high in bulk like broccoli and other vegetables and low in calories 200 calories of broccoli is a lot more food than 200 calories of potatoes. This will also help you feel much more satisfied with the meal. Try to stay away from anything like potatoes or bread or rice after lunch and stick with the veggies. Hope this helps. Request me if you would like and I will drop a line from time to time with some pointers.

Fitness is a lifestyle not a quick fix. enjoy

You have a good baseline now to see where you are and what you are eating! Now pick something to change and work from there. My suggestion would be to drop the almost 500 calorie coffee! That one coffee a day is enough to gain one pound of fat a week and so eliminating it is enough to lose 1 pound of fat a week! Also try adding a fruit or veggie to every meal. They help fill you up with no fat and only a few calories. Small changes can really add up over time so instead of overwhelming your self with lots of changes try something this week and then add another next week and so on. Before you know it you will be eating better painlessly and the weight will be coming off!

It is very difficult to retrain your brain - you are right! The first thing I would do, if i were you is cut out the 460 calories in Tim Horton's coffee drink in the mornings! That using up so many of your calories! Then slowly start to cut back on processed foods - i honestly believe that the processed food can be addictive. it takes time - hang in there!

Yeah, you totally don't suck. This is just the first step to the rest of your (healthy) life. My diary's not the GREATEST, but it's public if you want to look at it. My goal is 1500 cals and I've stayed within those boundaries. Feel free to add me as a friend if you'd like!

It takes time! This is a LIFETIME change, not a temporary thing.

Be kinder to yourself. It makes me sad to see you so down on yourself for not changing your habits overnight. That's not a reasonable expectation for ANYBODY. Beating up on yourself isn't helpful.

Set reachable goals. So you're not eating within your calories - YET. Make smaller changes to start with - don't go to the bagel shop EVERY day for a week. Only go on Monday and Thursday, for example.

Go shopping and stock up on healthy stuff- fruits, veggies, etc. If you're like me and hate to cook, lean cuisine dinners (though high in sodium) are YUMMY. And EASY.

Am I completely "reformed," do I always eat healthy and think of my body first before deciding what to eat and whether or not to exercise on a given day? Nope. I love food. It tastes good and should be a pleasurable experience, and I am flat out ADDICTED to chocolate with no plans to change that in any way, shape or form. But I'm getting better OVER TIME about portion sizes and frequency of treats, and that's what's making a big difference for me.

It takes practice. And failing on occasion, and trying again. And again. AND AGAIN. Because you're so freaking worth it!

Do you eat till you're full? If so, eat half of that amount and you will still feel full and it will last just as long. Drink a glass of water along with meals and it will also help.

I looked at your diar and You should really skip the Timmys... i know it's tough. lol. I got one of those Tassimo coffee makers that makes one cup. LOVE it. and i jjust put half and half and its never over 100 cals.

Second, you should replace a lot of whay you eat with a 'healthy' version. Like the italian sausages.... i started buying Tailgate brand turkey italian sausage.... cut back on canned foods like the soups that are LOADED with soduin and make it your self.

And finally, plan your meals ahead of time and enter it all at the start of the day.... Then when you see you are going over you can adjust ect.

Good luck, you can do it!