Needing to vent.. disappointed in myself.

There is a book I read a while back called Willpower. It's the science behind it - the chemistry and physiology that makes it last longer for some over others. Obviously if you have the ability to maintain a longer willpower that results in a better discipline which affects emotional motivation and of course successful output. Once one begins to change the chemistry of the energy source - reduce fats and sugars, amend calorie intake and expenditure that tax on your system will challenge your willpower 'fuel'. Don't forget that the other life challenges you face are already chipping away at your willpower reserves.

You sound very hard on yourself OP. Understand that you may be working at full capacity right now. Eating yourself out of house and home by the end of the day is a tell tale sign that your willpower has completely depleted and in order to rebuild it you require the food intake. The science of willpower is extremely interesting and unfortunately overlooked too often by people trying to make a life change and feeling they are missing the mark.

You may have to reduce the demand on your system. Change your caloric reduction to more midest change levels. Exercise not so much in an athletic manner but simply in a movement manner.

Cold turkey actions may be a set up for failure and disappointment. Small goals, even really small goals might save your willpower to succeed another day.

I feel you. That's why I'm in OA (it's kind of a last resort and I'm not religious/spiritual by any means but it's helping. there are people in the groups that know how broken and hopeless I've felt and that helps me not feel so alone in my struggles).

I do the same thing go so well all day and then I go see my bf after work and he keeps wanting to go out for tea of get take away and on top of that junk food.

when I met him I was 60kgs now I'm 67kgs can't blame him he's not forcing food down my throat.

I surprise myself how much I can eat.

In 1 night I had KFC (zinger burger, 2 wicked wings, popcorn chicken, chips and potato and gravy plus a drink) after all that I had ice cream and a 170g packet of salt and vinegar chips and then some chocolate.

I still can't believe I ate all that, I did feel sick by the end of the night but it doesn't turn me off from eating junk food another night which it should. I had stomach pains all the next day and didn't eat until 3pm.

Weighed myself to scare myself back into being healthy

If you're finding yourself grabbing whatever's around (veggies, fruit, chips, ice cream, lunch meat, whatever), it does sound like the planning piece isn't totally there, and I totally agree that that will make a real difference. No judgement, it's all a learning process.

Drop the deficit down to -0.5/lb a week, and consider planning your meals this way: eat more protein (at least 6-8 oz/meal, of meat, if you eat it), fat, and fiber (at least 22 grams a day). If you like beans and legumes, they are a really filling source of fiber (& they have protein, too). Have things you love that don't meet those criteria so you don't feel deprived, but fit them around that kind of plan.

Some people just have good appetites. The only way I can net 1600 is if I burn 300 off 1900 gross, and if I plan my meals so that I'm full. I've still lost over 50 pounds. There's no race you have to win, steady losing is fine.

I totally hear you! Part of my problem, and maybe yours, is eating out of HABIT. It was always my habit to start snacking as soon as I got home. I would meander into the kitchen, get some crackers or chips, and munch munch munch all night long.

It has taken some time for me to develop a new habit of immediately going to exercise. Now when I get home, I immediately change into my work out clothes and grab my iPod. My habit is not to grab food anymore, it is to go to the gym and workout. After working out, I'm gross and need a shower, and after a shower I always have a sit down regular meal, not just snacks out of the cupboards. Now being active is my habit over sitting down and munching right from the box.

Maybe trying a new habit would work for you. If for example you find you always eat popcorn while watching TV, try a different habit. You could sub in gum or a glass of water. Or get physical, and walk in place or do crunches during commercials. If you find you always crave something sweet at 8 pm, try eating some grapes or a piece of dark chocolate instead of ice cream or cookies. These small habit changes can make a big difference!

Glad to see others are battling too. I just wanted to go get some Snickers ice cream and throw in a few cookies. Did I give in? No, I opted for a 1/2 cup frozen blueberries and a cup of water ..it satisfied the crave today. ....ONE day at a time, you can do it!!