Need serious help

Well, my advice is start little at a time. What i did at the beginning of my journey was look up reciepes for subsituting food, for example if i wanted a pizza i would make a cauliflour crust and use just plain pizza sauce and non-fat cheese. It gave it the same texture as a pizza but less calories, less carbs and i didnt feel guilty eating it. And once i got into the hang of things thats when i slowly started adding in my favourite foods in moderation like this weekend that just past i had 2 dairy milk chocolate bars over the course of sat & sun night, but kept it realitively clean during the day. Just adding in 1 of your favourite foods (or 2) once or twice a week is not going to make a big deal and that way you wont get that craving and binge eat when it happens. And when i go out to restaurants i usually keep my day time meals or whatever low-carb and low fat so when i eat out again i wont feel guilty because you never know what the food is actually cooked in nor the portion size really. I lost 42 lbs doing my eating this way not saying it will be the same for you but eating strictly clean does get boring after a while

Try to go for low calorie dense foods like vegetables. Try to incorporate vegetables in to all or most of your meals. This will help keep you full for a longer period of time. Eat whatever vegetables you like. It's really hard to gain weight when majority of your diet is vegetables. For example my breakfast is usually 2 eggs, 1 potato (homemade hash brown), and 2-3 cups of green beans, broccoli, and carrots. That's about 400 calories. That holds me off until dinner. For dinner it varies. An example of my dinner is 1 vegetarian enchilada which consists of eggplant, mushrooms, spinach, onions, zucchini, olives, and beef crumbles (vegetarian beef), and a little bit of mozzarella. I'll also have green beans, broccoli and carrots on the side. I'm stuffed after eating that. That is also approximately 400 calories and about 600 with avocado and a little bit of sour cream. I know people advocate eating at least 1200 calories on here, but when you eat high volume (low calorie dense foods) compared to low volume (high calorie dense foods) you won't be hungry and it actually becomes harder to eat a lot of calories. This also leaves room for if you choose to have a slice of pizza and not worry about gaining weight. I also find that if I chew gum, I'm less likely to reach for a snack out of boredom.