Need to Lose 100 LBS -Robins Thread !

Sorry for my grumpy rant earlier-- just frustrated. But I went to the gym to blow off some steam. I feel much better now though I'm still in a fight with my scale.

@moody-- great tip! I would've never thought to check the dollar store for gym equipment.

@niki-- I know what you mean. I decided to cut back the calories and raise my protein, but there's still gelato in my freezer! I will not touch it unless my protein is at 100 grams AND it fits into my short-term 1200 net calorie goal. Otherwise, it will sit there.

@MrsFarrow -- I tore my meniscus a couple of years ago. Like you, I didn't need surgery, just some PT. I was so worried I would have to stop running, but since it didn't aggravate the injury or cause my any pain while running, my physical therapist said I could continue a light running schedule. Since "light" is how I would classify my running, it worked out perfectly. LOL! If you haven't already done so, I would highly recommend you go to a running specialty store and get fitted for shoes before you start running again. It's so easy to re-injure if you aren't in the proper running shoes.

Hope everyone is having a good day!

General Goals:
1. Edge flowerbeds
2. Make doctor/dentist appointments
3. Take winter coat to cleaners
4. Find someone to repair shed

Fitness Goals for the month of July:
Visit gym or run outside minimum of 12 times 4/12
Run at least 6/30 miles

You vs Year Challenge:
211 k done/ 789 k to go

Exercise Goals:
Sun-- walk gunner DONE
Mon-- walk gunner DONE
Tues-- walk gunner DONE + work out DONE
Wed-- walk gunner + work out
Thurs-- walk gunner + work out
Fri-- walk gunner before leaving for lake house
Sat-- at lake house

Tuesday goals: don't let life drive me to eat. I know that shoving food in my mouth doesn't make me feel better. I've gotten on track, surprisingly it was from the state fair. We went and I didn't over eat, one corn dog and some of my husbands beer. It was too hot for anything else besides icecream and I just didn't want to waste the calories on something that the kids would eat must if anyways.

A clarification regarding our contractor. He had been giving us a soft bid of 150K and promising that he could do the job for that amount but when it came time for the hard numbers and the contract that is when his hard bid came in at 225K and didn't include anything beyond the paint on the walls. Flooring, tile, the whole kitchen ect we had to buy and he would install. I am SO done with him!!!

Well I guess I won't have to stress about how I'm going to eat healthy without a kitchen this fall.

Tuesday Goal: Survive this move, up and down a flight of stairs. That's been our workout this week!

Okay second time typing this. It somehow disappeared last time...

☺ I did not do good yesterday at all! Well, correction, I did good all day, but then lost my resolve at night. I usually go to bed a bit hungry and tell myself to feel proud because that means I am doing this right. Last night I gave in to the beast and had a pb and j sandwich and a bowl of chocolate chip cookie dough ice cream! Does anybody else picture their hunger as a literal beast trapped inside them? No? Just me? Okay then! Haha... (in case you are curious it's kind of a black panther/dragon mix. It has wings and a spike tail that it whips around while pacing when I'm hungry. I argue with it a lot and it sometimes growls at me.)

Well today I will do better! It's a new day! If I learn from yesterday, it will at least just be a lesson. Today I am going for a walk even if I don't have somewhere specific to go. A walk around the lake is still better than an hour on the couch!

@cjbrummet I'm so sorry about your cousin! I also understand the boredom on the treadmill/stationary bike. I've been listening to audio books while I peddle on mine to help fend off the boredom longer. Almost done with Tom Sawyer now, lol!

@badnoodle Wow! I think you did good! Any exercise is good exercise, so long as you don't get hurt, in my book! Go you! Don't feel bad about cycling instead of walking/jogging!

@jlolsen516 Any exercise is better than no exercise! That was my excuse for walking 50 minutes trying to catch pokemon instead of being bored on the stationary bike this morning, LOL!

Wednesday - Wishes (what do you wish? It can be weight related or not, can be realistic or not)

What I really wish is that I could resist the cravings for all things sweet. I can be good all day, but once that first taste of sweet stuff hits my taste buds, my resolve feels like it got hit by a wrecking ball! I also wish I had more confidence. I see so many people out and exercising without a thought in the world, whereas I have taken pains to pick routes where I won't see many people because I'm so embarrassed over how I look.

Anyone want a laugh? Check out my post on dieting and feeling mean. Gosh, all this healthy eating and exercise makes me want to punch someone. I haven't gotten to that "runners high".

@badnoodle - Zucchini bread, zucchini pasta (get a veggeti maker), baked or roasted zucchini, use it in salads, soups, sandwiches. Make stir-fry. Give to friends. Freeze it. Can it, pickle it. Especially the freeze, can or pickle, you will be glad you did come winter.

AFM, I have not been doing well, DH is driving me batty. I love him to death and I know he's ill and can't care for himself in all things (tho I wish he would try to do more for himself) but I get so tired of being ON all the time, and his needs always coming before mine. Being a caregiver is so tiring, and so unappreciated. He says he appreciates what I do but he can't understand why I get cranky at 3:30 am when I've been up since 1 pm taking care of him and still trying to go to work at least part of the day. I start doing for him as soon as I get up and I'm always late for work, I'm so far behind on advanced sick leave and advanced annual leave that it will take years to get back to -0-; then as soon as I get home at 1 am I'm cooking dinner and doing stuff for him. If I'm lucky it's 4 am before I get to bed. I get so stressed out but if I react to him when he's rude or cranky, all it does is get me more grief or get him hyped up, then I have to deal with him until I can get him calmed down again. Medicare and the VA will only authorize a total of 8 hours home health per week and we don't qualify for state aid, so I'm doing everything myself. He doesn't want someone there all day so he won't consider Hospice yet (we only have 650 sq feet, so the caregiver has no option but to be sitting with him, and he doesn't like someone hovering over him - unless it's me, then I'm not allowed to step more than 10 feet from him!). Our son comes on Tuesdays for a few hours, but that's not much help for me because DH has him working around the house, not caring for him.

Sorry to vent, but right now I just feel like crying. I eat when I'm bored or upset, so I've gained back 12 lbs, and I'm not getting the exercise I need either. I'm depressed and angry.

Tracy
TX

@GOINSTD12 Hang in there and make some time for yourself. As a nurse I know that I would not be able to take care of a family member full time and still go to work, so kudos to you for doing it as best you can. There is no easy solution so don't let anyone tell you that you should do this or that, or that they know better. Don't feel guilty if you end up having to put him in a nursing home.

@mzfrizz15 My grown children are playing this game. Even at work several of the younger nurses are talking pokemon after giving report. Apparently they caught a rare one right here in the hospital...lol I just feel old.

@badnoodle they say you burn the same number calories if you walk a mile at a brisk pace as you do if you run a mile the only difference is that you are done faster if you run.

Wednesday wish
I wish I could magically have the energy to do everything that I want to do. After working Tuesday night I encouraged (forced) myself to go work out. I dealt with a few thing around the house, then finally went to bed a little after noon. I ended up sleeping until around 2 am. I woke up for about an hour in the middle but couldn't stay awake. I think I am getting to old for working night shift. I might need to start looking for a day shift job.

Thursday truth
I had some of my son's birthday cake yesterday. We celebrated his birthday and he wanted "drunk nachos" which is tortilla chips smothered with pulled pork, bbq sauce and melted cheese sauce. I only ate the pulled pork with sauce, but I couldn't resist a piece of the cake afterwards. I did say no to the ice cream though (for full disclosure, it wasn't blue bell homemade vanilla and I figured it wasn't worth the cheat. If it had been blue bell it would have been a different story....lol)

@mzfrizz15 -- I know what you mean about sweets. If I'm going to have them, I try to wait until late in the day.

@cj-- So sorry to hear about your cousin. Regarding your son's bday celebration, I think you made a great choice just eating the pork with some sauce, and eating the cake was a good call as well. There's no point in denying yourself a treat on a special occasion. As long as your day to day nutrition is solid, those moments won't make a difference.

@jl-- cleaning is definitely hard work. I love those productive calorie burn!! I loved your description of your hunger--I've never had that image, but I probably will from now on. LOL

@tracy (goins)-- I'm so sorry about your predicament, and I can't imagine being in your shoes. As much as it may upset your DH, you may need to make some choices he won't like for your own sake. Whatever you decide to do, I agree with cj, you shouldn't feel guilty about it.

@badnoodel-- Yum, I love zucchini! I love mine roasted or grilled, but tracy had some other great suggestions for your surplus.

@kelley-- thanks, I thought about calories perhaps being too low, but I've never GAINED weight from that problem. Usually, I just stall out and the scale won't budge if I'm not getting enough fuel. I ate about 1200 net the past two days and the scale has already come down a couple of pounds. Today will be my last reset day, then tomorrow I'll go back up to 1400 net continuing with the higher protein. Time will tell.

@niki-- hope you got that AC unit installed.

@trinati-- sorry to hear about your contractor woes. My DH and I have pondered putting an addition on our house, but stories like yours have led us to the determination that it would just be easier to move into a bigger house.

AFM-- Yesterday was a busy day of yard work. I mowed the back yard and the cleared all the grass by the fence. I do this by hand b/c I have no idea how to use the string trimmer. LOL I also did some weeding-- our yard is infested with clover. I know it's good for the bees and pollination, but it gives Gunner itchy eyes that he rubs until they bleed, so I have to try to keep it scaled back.

Wednesday Wish:
Tomorrow we are going to the lake house my sister rents in MI. My parents and other sister and her family are also coming on Saturday. What my parents don't know is that we've invited some other family to join us Saturday for a surprise 50th anniversary party. My wish is that all goes as planned and they are truly surprised.

General Goals:
1. Edge flowerbeds
2. Make doctor appointments
3. Take winter coat to cleaners

Fitness Goals for the month of July:
Visit gym or run outside minimum of 12 times 4/12
Run at least 6/30 miles

You vs Year Challenge:
211 k done/ 789 k to go

Exercise Goals:
Sun-- walk gunner DONE
Mon-- walk gunner DONE
Tues-- walk gunner DONE + work out DONE
Wed-- walk gunner DONE + work out (yard work) DONE
Thurs-- walk gunner + work out
Fri-- walk gunner before leaving for lake house
Sat-- at lake house

I've been on MFP for awhile but I can't seem to get started. I need all the motivation and support that I can get. I really want to succeed!

Does anybody else struggle with their calories and feeling like they WANT more food? I drink water all day, and I try to have healthy snacks throughout the day but I have the worst time at night when I'm our of calories.

@jlolsen-- I am definitely a night person, so I always put off eating until as late as possible in the morning. That way, I have calories for later in the evening.

Spent the day yesterday in front of the computer updating files. Reminds me how that last job I had before retirement was probably the best fit for my talents and interests ... always have been a spreadsheet junkie, going back to the days of double-entry bookkeeping into huge journal pages that were laboriously tabulated and the results transferred with pencil/pen into ledgers. However, while I was at that, I did cook all my meals and refreshed a sourdough starter, although I didn't use the discard from it like I had been planning to.

This morning I read a blog by motivater/trainer James Clear where he spoke about goals and multitasking. Haven't finished reading that one yet cause my coffee mug is now empty. One thing I did read that struck a cord with me was that he spoke of research which pointed to this in regards to goal setting:

" ... developing a specific plan for when, where, and how you will stick to a new habit will dramatically increase the odds that you will actually follow through, but only if you focus on a single goal."

This leads me back to when I was more successfull at this weight loss/control goal I have ... and that was to only set 1 goal and work that. And it also fits right in with my simplified goal of just sticking to the calorie limit within 100 calories more/less ... doing what it takes to bring that to fruition ending with how much goes on my plate and where it is consumed but starting with a concept I have yet to master in my free-wheeling, nilly-dilly way ... Meal Planning!

Hi everyone, hope you have a great weekend - Friday Fitness - just completed 1.21 miles walking, feeling pretty good even though I know it took a lot longer than back when I was walking 3 or 4 times a week. Doesn't matter, the point is I did it and I just need to keep doing it. I need to start concentrating more on myself, or I'm just going to break down like a neglected machine!
Well, glad to see everyone, and thanks for your kind words the other day when I was feeling so beat up.
Tracy
TX