Back again for another try

Im on the same boat too (this is a big a$z boat) .
I lost almost 20 pounds like two years ago, with exercise, eating clean and counting cals (which is the best way for me to lose weight). And somehow I lost track of everything and started to gain weight( 30 pounds), I don't even know how I let myself go this far, Im at my heaviest weight ever, nothing fits, its soo depressing. So I decided enough is enough. So let the weightless begin...again