Emotionally fed up about loosing weight

Okay... first, you've come to the right place for help and support. I don't see the pity party you're claiming to throw, so that's good!

What do you think your doctor could/should do for you? This all has to come from within you. You see the need, and that's where it starts.

Put your numbers into mfp. Start with no weight loss goal, but logging every last thing you eat and drink. After you're comfortable with that, start dropping the calories by setting a weekly loss goal. If -2 per week is too much change, try -1.5 or -1. Don't do "fad" diets or artificially restrictive ones. ANYTHING can work in a daily calorie allotment.

Who says what you are and aren't supposed to eat? I love green beans, and will happily eat them with salt, pepper, and a touch of garlic powder. A cup of beans is only 40 calories. That's not an unreasonable amount of calories for something filling and healthy.

Cauliflower rice. Cheap and pasta alternative. I cook meals in my house for what i like and need if others dont like it they can starve or cokn themselves. So many times i see women put men n everyine first. I say do wat u need to n they will come with you. Or starve. Men go the easy route n will end up eating what u cook anyway.

I love your honesty. I am not out to hurt you. But I want you know I had to come to this realization myself. Stop talking about what you can't have or do! Start talking about the foods you like and can have. Start finding exercises you like and will stick to. If you like dance and walking but get bored easily. Do dance one day and a walk the next and then dance etc. stop limiting yourself. It is tough. I used hypothyroidism for 12 yrs for an excuse to keep my extra weight. Then one day I said enough. So what if I can't eat certain foods because my body and hypothyroidism don't tolerate them anymore. There are tons of foods I can have and tons of food I love.

I have social anxiety , but I refuse to let it stop me from going for a walk. Perhaps walk a neighbors dog or your own. I find walking with my husky helps. It will give you something to focus on other than what others are thinking. By the way, most people may see you walking or jogging, but they could careless. So what if you walk slow. So didn't I at first. You aren't out to impress anyone but you. So please stop worry about others and their opinion. Just worry about how awesome you feel when the workout is done. The end of the day comes and you didn't go over calories.

Go to Pinterest and get some low carb recipes. Drink plenty of water. You can do this. Trust me , if I can anyone can.

I was pretty mad at myself too. I was also doing a lot of self-pity. I'll tell you, I started feeling much better when I stopped making excuses and took responsibility 100% for my situation and for my being over weight.

No one made me eat. That was all me.

No one forced me to be bored. Me.

No one made me stay in the house and watch TV. I did that.

I had many fits and starts. Some days I just said, "To heck with it, eat all the ice cream."

The bottom line is I only need 1600 calories a day if I want to be at a healthy weight. It took me a while (months!) to figure out how to eat by logging all my food and learning from my food diary. I made small changes where I could. It doesn't happen over night, but I did lose my weight and I've kept it off for nine years.

If I were you, I'd spend a lot of time reading the "Success Stories" on this site. If one person can do it, anyone can.

PCOS does improve with lower carb intake, but I think you just need to focus on weight loss for now. It won't matter what your carbs are because your hormone levels are probably high due to excess fat. Since MFP gave you a goal of 1700 -1900 calories why not just start at 1800? Just pick a number and you will lose if you remember to log everything and log correctly. Weigh your food in grams or oz. Don't use cups/spoons/guesstimates/eyeballing. Limit/Avoid processed foods. Higher protein foods should be a priority (chicken, fish/seafood, eggs, lean beef, lean pork, Greek yogurt, Cottage cheese, beans) - these are not expensive. Carbs should come in the form of fruits (berries are best), vegetables & Whole grains (brown rice, quinoa, barley). Healthy food is not expensive, but it does require you to prepare it.
As far as exercise - do what you can. Just start slowly and continue to increase as you can tolerate it. There are plenty of free online sources as well (fitnessblender.com). I don't belong to a gym because I know I won't go, but I can workout at home.
Many people have been in your shoes and have been successful. You have vented your excuses and now is the time to let it go and move on. Best of luck to you!

This will sound harsh, and I'm sorry for that, but here it is:

This is YOUR responsibility and I see nothing but a lot of excuses in your post.

Weight loss is simply eating less food than you need to maintain your weight. So I would start there if I were you. At your weight you could be eating just about 2100 calories a day and you'd lose about 1.1 pound a week. No need for exercise. You just curb the eating.

I get it. You feel hopeless. Because what you're doing is a losing cycle. You eat too much because you're depressed. And then you feel depressed because you're overweight. And you're overweight because you eat too much.

At some point in that cycle you need to put a halt to it. So curb the eating. You can eat whatever is in the house, just LESS OF IT. And log it all. Every day.

You know what feels really good is some success. I think if you saw some success you'd see how much power you really do have over yourself.

the good news is: you have a treadmill!!!! you can walk, super slowly, for super short time periods while you watch tv. do it for 1 minute. you can do anything for a minute! do it for a commercial break. maybe one break per show at first, and gradually increase the pace and duration. do it in your pj's even if you want. the point is, you've got a great tool at your disposal for the "move more" component.

for the "eat less" part of the equation, just start by logging your food. if the 2 pound loss per week was too aggressive drop it down to 1 or 1.5. if you can, invest in a food scale ($10-$15). if not, then there are other tools you can use to modify your portions. but log as accurately as you can.

also, regarding the PCOS, i have it too but i do very poorly on low carbs. headaches, mood swings, hunger, all of it. you can lose weight with PCOS without doing low carb, it's going to be slower probably. but all you really need to do is make sure you're in a caloric deficit and it will work for you.

You honestly can eat what you want. As long as you stay within your calorie/macro goals you're golden. There lies the rub though (catch 22). If you eat broccoli smothered with cheese the calories are higher, hence you can eat less, hence you're hungry later. But, what's stopping you from pulling a portion out for yourself before you put cheese on it? My family hates cauliflower for the most part, again unless it's smothered in cheese. Same with broccoli. I simply pull out a 100g portion for myself and fix it differently for me and they get what they want and so do I. When it comes to meats (I grill a LOT) I can simply choose the leaner cuts for myself or simply trim mine different, then if I'm using a bun, I choose to buy myself multigrain or lower calorie buns and either A) don't tell them it's different, or buy them something different. Heck, that way mine last longer and I have to buy them less often. I guess my point is, if you find what they are eating to be too tempting, just remember you can eat 2x as much by not preparing it in a high calorie or unhealthy way. Over time you can nudge the rest of the family in the right direction but don't make it a priority. You are the priority.

Next, exercise. Most people hate it, until they embrace it. When I was over 300 lbs I could not run, I could not do a push up, I could not even do a sit up due to back injuries (some of that due to being overweight). So I walked. Slowly at first, faster later, and kept adding distance. Since I burned calories, it increased the calories I could eat daily, which made it easier to sustain myself while losing weight.

The point of losing weight and being more healthy should be adopting a new lifestyle that you can maintain long term, not just during your 'diet' phase. Don't look at it like you should eat 1200 calories a day and lose weight without effort, then once the diet is done you can go back to eating what you want. If you do that, you'll be back here unhappy in a year. Instead, adopt a new healthy lifestyle which includes regular exercise, and eating better. Get used to it because it's the way you'll want to live your life from now on. In the process, your body can and will lose weight along the way, and adjust to the new calorie intake and exercise regimen.

You can do it. Just put your mind to it. If your family won't eat what you prepare, tell them to learn to prepare it themselves lol.. if they get hungry enough they'll be less picky. I was lucky, my kids were raised when I began this journey, but even now at family bbq's I eat different things than they do. I pass on the macaroni salad and eat steamed, grilled, or baked veggies instead along with my lean meats. They can have their hotdogs and fatty hamburgers, I'll eat a lean hamburger or lean piece of meat along side them. They are happy, and I'm happy.