binge eating pen pal??

NoIdea101NoIdea wrote: »

estherssweater wrote: »

Does anyone commenting on here have an eating disorder? If not, maybe this is why you're showing concern in this way:c I do really understand and appreciate all that you're saying. BUT I can tell you only have an idea of what an eating disorder is like. God, I'm going to be like this forever. I'm sorry I wish I could eat normal like you guys instead of either restricting or binging, hurting myself. I don't know anymore.I'm just so so tired. Sorry and thank you.

I used to suffer from anorexia; too scared to eat more than 700 calories a day, (and so would usually eat between 300 and 500) would regularly become faint, pass out, so weak I couldn't go to work or even get out of bed some days, lost my period, grew hair where there shouldn't be hair, brittle nails, had to wear gloves even in the summer because I was so cold. Used to frequent all the pro-ana sites too.

My best friend was also anorexic. We would get together, drink wine and talk about our illness. At the time we had this 'us against the world' attitude-no-one understood what we were going through, and it was this that bonded us even more strongly. We thought that we were supporting each other, as we understood what each other was going through.

Nope. In hindsight, and it took us until the point we decided to move in together that we realized we were actually just fuelling each other's illness. We weren't looking for support, we were looking for validation that the way we were living was Ok. And it wasn't. I recovered just over a year ago, and in that year I gained two stone, which was a bit too much, which is why I am here; to learn how to do this the healthy way.

Honestly, if you are serious about recovering and learning how to lose weight the healthy way, this is the best place to be. In my experience, I thought that talking to people with the same or similar disorders as me would help, but it just dragged me down further. Even now, I still have 'bad days' where I convince myself that the only way I will lose weight is to not eat anything, start starving myself. But it is the people here, the people who are happy, fit, the people who will advise, share recipes and push themselves to their physical limits that really inspire me to be a better person (a person who eats!).

Speaking from experience, my advice would be not to seek out a disordered penpal; go speak to someone before you waste too much of your life to this illness, and draw inspiration from those men and women here who lift heavy, run fast and eat healthy, because God Damn, most of them look a hell of a lot better (and happier!) than I did when I was all skin and bone and grossly out of proportion!

yaliiii_x wrote: »

hi me plz ?(: