Have you ever been a victim of Child abuse?????

rheddmobile wrote: »

Yes, I was abused as a child. It does stay with you. Listen to what everyone is saying about professional help, but also know that you are not alone and you can talk to me if you need someone to talk to who has been there.

paxvobiscum1996 wrote: »

I'm devastated that you had to endure such horrible experiences because of other people's pain and ugliness. I am so grateful that you want to turn the pain into healing and stop the cycle.
I was a victim of everything described above. I have a deep aversion to hate and anger. To me it's a debilitating illness that kills from the inside worse than cancer. The only way to combat that darkness is with the light.

I want you to find the freedom of knowing this abuse was never because of you. You weren't abused because you were bad, ugly, annoying, stupid, unloved, unwanted, pretty, smart, loved too much, or because God allowed it, etc.... You were abused by the hands of someone who chose to feed the hate in their infected soul and starve the love out of their life. They lost the opportunity and experience of having a beautiful life with you. That's a deep tragedy in and of itself.
We have to pray that you can forgive that person (or even people) in your life that have done this to you and to themselves~ they are dead in their souls.

You have a strong life inside of you that is ready to start healing. One of the first steps in beginning your healing is with surrendering to forgiveness. I know that this is scary because you will feel vulnerable again. Do not be afraid because you are safe now. You DO NOT have to go back there. You will NEVER need to go back.
If you do find yourself there in your dreams at night (you know what I mean) try to wake yourself up and start thanking and praising God that you are out of it. Giving gratitude stops the cycle of despair. Basically you could picture it like this... you have an old house that you want to clean out so you are opening up the doors, windows and curtains to start letting the light, sunshine and nice breeze waft through so you can have peace and joy back into your life~the life that God intended for you to have.
Use your painful experiences as passion to fuel the forgiveness, love, strength and courage to move forward in your path to sanctity, peace and joy. Remember that their are others that are going through what you WENT through that need your healing actions, thoughts, words and prayers.
You don't have to spend the rest of your life dealing with this. I promise you. You were Created to love and be loved.
You mentioned PTSD, I'm many years out of the actual trauma but when I was still recovering, once I felt the heart start racing (because the adrenaline "breaker had been tripped) and my mind start going, I would take a second and breath in through my nose really deeply and think, "breathing in I calm my body" and as I would exhale I would think, "all glory to God". Then my body reprogrammed itself and this method that I used immediately calmed my "flight" response off. It was great when I figured it out. Find your calming words. Find what fits you and rest assured that there is an answer. You are not alone. Believe it or not, God was with us and is with us. I know that for some people that is VERY hard to hear because they think if God was there how could He let that happen (or at least for me that's what I had to reconcile) my answer is this;
Human Beings have free will, as you know and we use it to harm or heal. Sometimes we are subjected to the harming and sometimes to the healing. I know that I never want to contribute to the harming but always to the healing. I want to bring you along with me:)
All my thoughts and prayers are with you and yours!
Pax Vobiscum!
Romans 15:13

yoherbs421 wrote: »

I too know the feeling of hiding with said heartbeat. You need to talk with someone in person about this. You can pretty much ask anybody who to talk to for help. Help is always there, non-judgmental, waiting for you to reach out. Please don't keep it bottled up. Please do talk with someone.

CynthiasChoice wrote: »

I can't even begin to tell you how sorry I am that this happened to you. You are valuable and your recovery needs to start now, not later.

There are non-profit organizations you can turn to if money is the issue stopping you from talking with a counselor. Catholic Charities comes to mind, and I'm sure there are many others. Family and friends often do not have the patience to bear with you as you struggle through this. You don't say how old you are, but if you're still in school, a school counselor could help you find someone to talk to. Your family doctor might also be surprisingly helpful. Even someplace like Planned Parenthood has professional counselors who would know how to direct you in finding the right person to talk to.

It's so important right now for you to find the right guidance. Your family and friends may mean well, but your reliance on them is making you feel worse. When they reject your concerns and your pain, they make you feel abandoned all over again.

While you're looking for a counselor, something that might help immediately is meditation. I find the "Calm" app useful for guided meditation. Changing your thought patterns will be crucial in your recovery, and meditation is a great place to start learning how to do that. If you're a believer, reciting Psalm 23 can make you feel more at peace, and there are a many hymns that you might learn to sing. It Is Well With My Soul is a good one to start with. Singing has healed many wounds in my life.

I wish you peace and a purposeful life.

jodiwhite78 wrote: »

I was born into an abusive family. The earliest memory I have as a 3 year old girl? My mom and brother are sitting on the couch holding on to each other and they're crying. They're scared. I'm pacing back and forth in front of them confused. Too young to understand what's going on. My "father", if you want to call him that is yelling. He's very angry and he's punching holes into the wall. That's my very first memory. That was my environment during my most important years of brain development. And because of that I went on to abusive relationships for more than 1/2 my life. I'm 39 years old now and I'm still suffering. Depression, anxiety, bad coping mechanisms, I battle them daily. I'm on anti depressants because when I don't take them I become suicidal. What helps me is to surround myself with healthy minded people. I've had to cut ties with people I love because they were abusive to me. Once I started surrounding myself with healthy people things started to get better. Very slowly. Like 10 years slowly. And I still have my bad days. But now I have more good than bad. I'm so sorry your in pain. I wish I could give you a hug and tell you it will all be okay. It will be okay. Each and everyday it'll get better. But the pain never goes away...you just learn how to deal with it and how to love yourself.
The first step is to admit that you need help. Whether it's medication, counseling or both. Second step, get the help. Let me tell you it took everything I had to get help. But know that you are worth it. Life doesn't have to be like this for you. God bless