I'm on day 4 and would like to make a friend to encourage and be accountable to one another!

Finally back girls - Welcome to ALL who have come and I agree Valentina we can ALL meet our goals and this is what I know I need since I can't open a support group (yet) - Hi Desiree and I know what you're feeling right now because I was at one point 296 and then to go to 152 and now up in the 180's feels awful BUT I refuse to NOT be honest and keep talking because as I said before (I've not told you guys this but do NOT freak ok? I'm really nice and do not bible bash - but I'm also a minister) and I KNOW as I was saying the battle IS in the mind and I refuse to let that devil put emotions and horrific self-beating words in my mind period! my battle besides food is the scale and I've listened to others with that thought and I hear everyone and take it all into consideration but I'm still going to try and stick to 2 times a week because it does play with "my mind" and yesterday after a week was the only day I was able to NOT go on it but my "days" in my mind right now are Sunday and Wed and I'm back up 1 lb which is why I am sharing because I KNOW we flucuate even though I know I ate around my 1,000 daily mark so I'm just staying real and telling myself instead I'm doing GREAT AND on top of that, my goal is still only a 3-4 lbs weight loss per month and that starts March so these few days are a nice running start (and that makes me feel good) because honestly I've been stuck in this little condo almost 3 yrs with surgeries, almost flat on my back and my best friend died and had to deal with her crazy sister and court for 1.5 yrs during my surgeries, so naturally I fell and used food but honestly, I do NOT care what comes my way, I'm NOT going back! There's a song that says I'm not going back to the way it use to be! Amen Love you guys and hope you all continue to share - (I don't have much family either so who says this little computer I got may not give me that blessing - what won't the Lord do!) I just simply believe - I'll be back in a while! Hugs to all

I'm trying to figure this out still as well, LOL - I sent you a little e-mail on here and now I'll see if I can figure out how to friend you - let me know if you see anything~ I'm trying

omg, I'm laughing at myself trying for the life me to figure out what SW, LW and CW mean, LOL I'm thinking you started at 237, went down to 132 and now at 154? omg, I'm old, hahahahaha

oh sweetheart I'm here for you 150%%%%% ok? I'm having my surgery for foot on March 14th, and I will be praying before YOU go in and cover mine as well ok? Your writing not only touched my heart, but I felt so sad when you said you felt ashamed - please TRY not to because you know what? ALL of us are simply human beings who have gained, lost, gained and lost probably thousands of times and even if others can't relate with having to lose what I or you or someone else may feel is a lot, we're all "feeling" the same about our bodies and those numbers on that silly scale but I'm going to continue to share on my thread (which is why I made it, LOL) and I figure those with "like minds" will continue to share and together we're making our own little family! It's so funny not having much in the way of "family" how I am choosing to find other avenues to get those needs met and this is the third place - The first was (don't laugh) but T-mobile (yep, my phone service kids at all the call centers across this country and honestly they've been here for me and I call when I've been down, I've called them during holidays and even after my bff passed away and those kids constantly uplift me, and are just there with a listening ear!) then there's my Kroger's YEP! I can finally walk for now again (had first foot done in June and couldn't walk until November) but when I go, they ALL know me and I get hugs throughout that store and I'm there usually from 2 up to 4 hours, hahaha - cause we laugh, etc., (again, they're the family I don't have) and it makes their time working go by, hahahaha - and now the Lord led me to this site and it's blessing me and I want to be here for you too! Feel free to write whatever's on your mind or in your heart and I don't care if you want to write many times in a day ok? I look at it like this - no one has to come and read and they can start their own too - this is helping ME and I'm being helped when you guys write on here - so all I can say is THANK YOU! I'm proud of you - I think having a team like that to help you is wonderful and NO ONE knows what's in your best interest like your doctors, nutritionists, etc that you have - I think you're actually more blessed than we are having support like that! I hope this is yet another avenue for you! I'm here! and I do NOT plan on leaving - and we can prepare for our surgeries next week - yikes - but we can do that too! I'll be flat on my back for 6 weeks and then I get therapy at home to attempt to touch the floor again (it's a LONG haul) but I KNOW I can do that too! I send much love and such a big hug to you sweetheart - I love ya, Yana

Just need to share because tomorrow is my "weighing" day again and I actually am nervous (not sure why) but I know the first grace week is over and I am trying to tell myself even if I do NOT lose a pound it's ok! I know how much it plays on my mind, yet I also NEED to get on there because when I don't, then I also just assume I'm doing fine and I may not be - ok that's all I had to say! I'll post for sure tomorrow how I FEEL more than being sad or excited over the results - I think when I looked last time I was 183 which bummed me OUT when I had gone to 182, and again, I also KNOW we fluctuate and being "older" doesn't help - but I'll be just fine! I have you guys to share with (thank you) -

Well I'm proud of myself because I did enough self talk before I got on that scale and literally saying it will NOT matter if I lose, am the same or even gain because I'm living for today AND I'm NOT stopping AND I only have many many days ahead of myself, so why put a stop on even one moment of time by looking down at a number on a scale! I am working on myself to release this bondage because honestly I know I'm not alone on the depth of what I just said - it's literally been a bondage as much as turning to food for every emotion under the sun - so with all that said, the scale did not go up nor down, 183 it still shall be and I'm ok with it! I will have a GREAT day, my food is really under control and I LOVE sharing no matter if it's read by anyone or not to be honest - I love sharing and miss having groups and this has made me realize how much I miss them so after my surgery and I can walk again I will open a new christian one in my town to uplift others with food issues! I like giving myself a mini goal and that's mine. Anyone else have one? I'd love to hear what they are!