Burnt out. Don’t care. Need to care...

I have had some disordered eating in the past. Not significant, but enough that it was a problem. I now aim to workout 5-6 days per week and do Les Mills classes. I love love love these classes and miss it when I can't go. Nothing beats the feeling after a shower when you have really sweat. I strongly recommend finding an exercise that you enjoy because the best exercise is one that you will stick to (I know, cliché).

Because of my past tendencies I have chosen to not count calories. This does not mean that I am not cognizant of the calories in certain foods and that I don't try to make better choices. So I make better choices, but also still eat burgers, fries, hotdogs, etc. I just make sure that I only have 1 burger, not 2 and have a small amount of fries not a mountain of them. I am essentially learning portion control as I go along. I have been at this for about 18 weeks and have lost 16 pounds so it's working. I eat 3 square meals and then a snack at 9 pm. I will keep doing this as long as I keep losing. If I stop losing, I will re-evaluate and tweak some more. I have 35 more pounds to lose and really feel good about this. I am not starving and do get hungry before meals but that is normal hunger (it is okay to be hungry!!). I also do things like making sure I have a carb and a protein at each meal, with vegg at lunch and dinner.

The above is a marked change from how I used to approach dieting in the past. I had all or nothing thinking that led to methods that were not sustainable. I was also always impatient when dieting which fueled extreme restrictions and extreme excercise. I finally feel like I have a handle on this and believe 100% that I will reach my goal of 130lbs (I am currently 163, down from 195 at my highest).

Best of luck on your journey and I hope you find something that works for you.