32% Body Fat I Feel Discouraged

Weight lifting!!!!!!!!

So if I understand correctly, your plan was to go from 38% body fat to 19% body fat roughly in one year? At your height and weight I could be wrong but I would think you are in healthy weight range? But want to be lower for body fat? What exercise plan separate from weight loss plan have you followed in the last year? And losing 84 pounds in less than two years that is great!

19% body fat is fairly low for a woman i thought and i suspect you have to be very slim and also lifting in order to reach that?
Im only 115lbs and id say im like 25% body fat so i suspect you are being very hard on yourself.

You’ve done really well. If I crunch the numbers right, you’ve lost 84 lbs but only lost 2 lbs of lean mass. Very good.

Research weight training. Start experimenting and figure out how deep you want to get into it. Weight training can be an entire lifestyle. You count macros? Think you want to try to count macros? High level weight training needs spot on nutrition.

Keep your expectations in check. Recomp is a rather slow process. While you can control what you eat and how you train, you don’t control your body chemistry. There’s a lot of debate as to how much you can influence it. Beware the supplement sales. Lots of people trying to sell stuff.

Your post points out the problem with time driven goals. Despite your excellent work, and progress, you are still kicking yourself. Body builders work for years to get the results they want.

Focus on the specifics of your training and see what you can do in a year. It’s an experiment. You won’t know unless you try.

Edit: One more thought. The Mayo Clinic website notes that a problem area in weight loss is coping when discouraged.
Repeating myself, you’ve achieved impressive results. Just my opinion, but I think your expectations have been out of whack. Regardless, don’t let your brain wreck you. Press ahead to stage 2.

Have hope. Weight training has been extensively studied. Try to find research aimed at women in your age group. Weight training works. You will build muscle and get stronger. Weight training also helps with bone mass. Keep going.

You've lost 6% bf (on the assumption these numbers are something approaching accurate). That's far from barely anything.

Don't feel discouraged. We all got to start somewhere. A positive attitude is a must on this journey. No success is completed without it. Write down points that will help motivate you. Like things you see yourself doing or wearing once you meet your weight loss goal.