So I posted on Valentines that I got into my goal dress, but was too embarrassed to take my coat off. You all were awesome and encouraged me to try again. So here we go. Thank you for your encouragement! Ignore the shoes. Those are my “fixing to stand four hours behind the front desk at the opening party” shoes.
You look beautiful! If I saw you I would think you were a lean and fit lady who was quite happy and content with herself! I hope the happy part is true now more than last go round, because you look great.
P.S. I can't see your shoes!
Oh I'm so happy you tried again! Looks gorgeous on you!!
Got home from another month in China and my wife said I didn't look sick this time. Same weight as when I got back from a 58 day trip back in December. But that time she was concerned because I looked sick.
So I guess I did slightly better at taking care of myself despite the conditions.
So what are you doing in China? Sounds interesting!
For me I have always had big legs and crossing them while sitting was a bit like imitating a contortionist. I realised recently that I can sit with my legs crossed comfortably.
My NSV: I've reached my 500th day with no soda/carbonated beverages (they make me feel too anxious and too hungry and seem to trigger junk food binges). I log the "no soda" on an app called Strides, which helps track habit changes that you want to make.
I keep describing other people as "she's about my size" and then my friends/family say, "NO, I know who you are talking about and she's got easily 40 lb on you". I don't ever say this looking for a compliment or anything like that, but I feel so flattered because these women I think are about my size look good to me! Like maybe I wear 10-12 and they're in 12-14, sure, but I feel so psyched to even be in the same ballpark!
I went to the neurologist 2 weeks ago. The nurse doesn't weigh you there but just asks, she said your chart says you're 215 but you look smaller. I was so happy to say, I was 177.5 on the scale this morning. That felt good, why did I just eat a sugar cookie when someone in the office offered it?
This morning was hard! There was no way I was going to go close to hitting my pb on the 5k jog (remains the almost 38 minutes, my very first 5k.) I had the go slows getting out the door. I could have easily went back to bed and skipped it this morning, but I knew I couldn't make up for it tonight as I have firies training and would be really late by the time we finished training and I went for my jog. I contemplated going back to bed for an hour and just riding this afternoon, but with me finishing at 4 and firies training starting at 5:30, I figured it would be a rush and I wouldn't get a very productive training session in on Shakaya. So I splashed my face with some cold water and Diva (my cattle dog b!tch) and I toddled off on our 5k jog. I was surprised to see that I completed the 5k in less than 43 minutes. I expected to be much longer since I felt like I was going a bit slower. I got a stitch about halfway so had to slow down until that subsided.
My training session on Shakaya went well this morning and I'm glad I pushed myself when I really wanted to go back to bed.
I have accomplished a few more NSVs along the last weeks, and I'm thrilled to share them!
I have finally put aside two pairs of jeans that were huge on me now. It's one thing to enjoy the looseness of the clothes, but eventually it gets to the point where they just look ridiculous on me. No need for that.
Belt notches are progressing nicely.
I'm no longer obese, just overweight. And working my way down!
I can finally notice a difference when I see myself in the mirror.
It's been a lonely journey (aside from this community), but worth every minute!
I have accomplished a few more NSVs along the last weeks, and I'm thrilled to share them!
I have finally put aside two pairs of jeans that were huge on me now. It's one thing to enjoy the looseness of the clothes, but eventually it gets to the point where they just look ridiculous on me. No need for that.
Belt notches are progressing nicely.
I'm no longer obese, just overweight. And working my way down!
I can finally notice a difference when I see myself in the mirror.
It's been a lonely journey (aside from this community), but worth every minute!
I hear you on the mirror thing. One day on this health journey I walked by the mirror and stopped and told my husband, who happened to be in the room, "hey, I can see me again". I finally could see myself as I remembered me to be in my reflection. The mirror view is so powerful!
I went to inspect an new gym The guy was really helpful and nice. He explained that on intake they do some tests and measure etc. One of the thing they measure is body fat; His comment, "but I don't think that will be a discussion point in your case" felt good.
Also you could see him think - how can I push this woman further - she is fit already. Hey I am joining the gym and ask for help because I am plateauing
If I would have laid in bed after the alarm this morning I'm sure I could have talked myself out of going to the gym, instead I jumped right up and hit the gym for a good workout!
This is a biggie for me: learning to incorporate former binge foods into my healthier eating plan without all the bells and whistles going off in my head!
Yesterday I made a lemon loaf, except I split the recipe into two loaves. I froze one for a friend (honest!) and kept the other for me to dole out one slice a day as a treat. No way would I have done that before getting into a healthier mindset as the whole loaf would've been too tempting.
One more sign I'm progressing with this: I had a craving for pasta the other night. I think I can count on one hand the times I've eaten a "normal" serving size of pasta in my life. It's typically an enormous bowl, along with garlic bread and Italian sausages. And lots of Parmesan cheese, of course. You'd think I was training for the Olympics if you saw what I could easily wolf down. So in the past few years I've shied away from making pasta at home, afraid of the dreaded triggers. Not anymore. I'm still having the pasta, the not-so-healthy jarred sauce (until I can get off my butt and make my own!) and the Italian sausage, just no bread. And I added tons of mushrooms, spinach & extra tomatoes in the sauce. It's amazing how emotionally good it feels to eat one portion and be satisfied mentally and physically, when pasta used to represent a means of quieting anxiety/filling an emotional ache.
Please know that if I can get over these hurdles, you can too.
Hubs noticed the ever elusive "thigh gap" while I was doing evening stretches last night. Before it became a thing, it never occured to me that I would have one. When it was a thing, it never bothered me I didn't have one. I just thought my body wasn't designed that way. The really cool thing though? I haven't blew out the thighs in my jeans in a long while.
I’m breaking the rules and posting an SV, but I’m so excited about it I had to post it somewhere! This morning when I weighed in i hit the 150s for the first time in 4 years!
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Oh I'm so happy you tried again! Looks gorgeous on you!!
So what are you doing in China? Sounds interesting!
This is inspiring! Great work!
Thank you!
My training session on Shakaya went well this morning and I'm glad I pushed myself when I really wanted to go back to bed.
It's been a lonely journey (aside from this community), but worth every minute!
I hear you on the mirror thing. One day on this health journey I walked by the mirror and stopped and told my husband, who happened to be in the room, "hey, I can see me again". I finally could see myself as I remembered me to be in my reflection. The mirror view is so powerful!
Also you could see him think - how can I push this woman further - she is fit already. Hey I am joining the gym and ask for help because I am plateauing
Nice! Brownies are difficult to turn down. Tomorrow at work there is free pizza. I love pizza. I will need to stay out of the staff lounge
Yesterday I made a lemon loaf, except I split the recipe into two loaves. I froze one for a friend (honest!) and kept the other for me to dole out one slice a day as a treat. No way would I have done that before getting into a healthier mindset as the whole loaf would've been too tempting.
One more sign I'm progressing with this: I had a craving for pasta the other night. I think I can count on one hand the times I've eaten a "normal" serving size of pasta in my life. It's typically an enormous bowl, along with garlic bread and Italian sausages. And lots of Parmesan cheese, of course. You'd think I was training for the Olympics if you saw what I could easily wolf down. So in the past few years I've shied away from making pasta at home, afraid of the dreaded triggers. Not anymore. I'm still having the pasta, the not-so-healthy jarred sauce (until I can get off my butt and make my own!) and the Italian sausage, just no bread. And I added tons of mushrooms, spinach & extra tomatoes in the sauce. It's amazing how emotionally good it feels to eat one portion and be satisfied mentally and physically, when pasta used to represent a means of quieting anxiety/filling an emotional ache.
Please know that if I can get over these hurdles, you can too.