JUST FOR TODAY -- One Day at a Time .... Daily commitment thread for 2019

Tuesday 9 July

Log accurately
Stay in the green
5 fruit and veg
Fitbit excercise goals
Jan challenge
Feb challenge
Mar challenge
Apr challenge
May challenge
Jun challenge
Jul challenge

It's a very wet start to the day so I'm not sure that I will be getting out to do my walking today!

A day when I’m left to my own devices, unusual.
Jft tues

Mould making
Stay under
Log everything
Drink water x3
Bike ride
Guitar practice
Check back in

I’m overwhelmed with unfinished tasks atm, need to concentrate !

JFT Monday
1. Log all food 👍
2. Workout at home 👍
3. Drink 150oz water👍
4. Meditate 👍

JFT Tuesday
1. Log all food
2. Gym
3. Drink 150oz water
4. Meditate
5. One healthy snack after dinner

Good morning all! Going to keep this quick today.

Yesterday 7/8:

1. Give Rukia her pill 😁
2. Stay within calorie goal😁
3. Finish work at 5:15😞
4. Workout after work😁
5. Pay car insurance😁

JFT 7/9:

1. Give Rukia her pill 😁
2. Stay within calorie goal
3. Finish work at 5:15
4. Call Aunt Jeanny

nlmackey98 wrote: »

JFT Monday

- Up at 4:00 to go to the gym Forgot to set my alarm woke up at 5:00 - too late to go.
- Work by 8:00 7:30
- Check email
- Work on Calibration alerts
- Take letter to the lawyer at lunch Blahhhh
- Still working on Cal Alerts I thought I would never finish these, but I did
- Check in with MFP One of my favorite things!
- Home by 5:00
- Take eldest for Sports physical for school Yes, he heard a slight lag on the valve for the aorta when it was opening, but said it was fine. Still creeps me out as a parent. Hubby has the same problem with his mitral valve, but its a like more pronounced.
- Go for a walk or a ride Late start, did a 6 mile walk and tried to push my limits. Best mile 14:41, avg 15:14. That includes a first mile at 16+. It is not a flat route. I got a good work out.
- Bible Reading I started to, but hubby asked if I wanted to watch a TV program with him. Then it was midnight!
- Dinner Salmon & peas, I skipped the rice.
- Gratitude journal (been skipping this lately) Same reason I skipped my Bible reading
- Bed by 10:30 Ummm No.

Yesterday was a weird day. All day I was trying to decide if I should go on a club bike ride. All day I was anxious, but riding used to bring me such joy and peace. I want that back. That evening I called a friend to see if he was going and he was. I told him I'd meet him there.

Greg taught me to road ride. He saw me get really, really good. He saw me quit riding all together. He saw me try to come back. He saw me have severe panic attacks. He has seen it all, and he has never judged me. Still there will be a lot of people there, many of whom I've ridden with in the past. They have expectations of me.

It's always hard for me to go back knowing I can't hang with my guys, but I can't. One problem is that they want me to ride with them, and they harass me until I say, "I'll hang on as long as I can, then I'll drop back with the next group of riders." When I do this I'm tanked by the time I fall back with the people I should have been riding with all along. Then I struggle, maybe dropping back again. I can't be sucked into that again.

Then there are the hills... Let's just say that my power to weight, or power to *kitten*, ratio isn't what it needs to be, and I know it. Before I even start to climb I panic, like bad embarrassingly so. Gasping and tears. It's like I've forgotten how to use my gears and I freak out before I even make a turn of the pedals.

I have ridden today's route many times, and never failed to make the climbs. Even when I first started riding and was in worse shape than I am now, I made the climb (slowly but without having to walk or falling over).

So what am I afraid of? Ruining my reputation as a bada$$? I think that was busted last year.

Bruising my ego? Maybe, I hate to appear weak, but I think it was broken last year.

On a more positive note, I knew I had been putting on weight over the past few months. I had figured I was up to 145ish. I figured it was time to assess the damage so that I can mitigate it. I drug out the scale and was pleasantly surprised. I am up, but only to 136. Like @aubyshortcake says on short people 6 pounds really shows.

I guess today is just my day for facing my fears head on. Wish me luck!


JFT Tuesday

Work by 8:00 8:30
Bust through emails and start VN testing Dear Lord it's going to be a busy, but boring day
Lunch <400 cal and on plan
Fill our S-15 forms for new chemicals (yawn)
Leave work by 4:00
Cleanup bike a bit and oil the chain
Put on not so flattering Spandex and head to Marietta
Try not to freak out in the parking lot while getting ready to ride
Talk to people light heartedly about where I've been when they inevitable ask
Rock my ride! I think it's only 25 or 30 miles
Attend the post ride dinner and drinks but not drink (ugh)
Home by 10:00
Bible reading
Gratitude journal
Call it a night by 11:30

Positive Thought: Challenging your idea of "normal" is how you grow. Go out and incorporate something new into your day.

@nlmackey98 . I get why you're worrying about the bike ride, I really do. But I just want to say, you are awesome for going...ONLY 25/30 miles! Ten minutes on a stationary bike in my house is enough for me lol, you are seriously fit to do that distance.

Don't let them harass you. YOU know best what you can do, so just smile and do it at your own pace.
I'm cheering you on from Scotland

Oh, and 136lbs is my dream weight, I'll get there one day!

JFT Monday
1. Don't finish coffee if you dont want to! ✔
2. water water water ✔
3. Log all food ✔
4. Cook dinner at home ✔
5. Bed by 10 ✔
6. Water garden ✔
7. Empty dishwasher 👎
8. Put away air mattress ✔

JFT Tuesday
1. Don't finish coffee if you dont want to!
2. water water water
3. Log all food
4. Cook dinner at home
5. Bed by 10
6. Water garden
7. Empty dishwasher
8. Load of laundry

ZizzyBumble wrote: »

Tuesday 9 July

Log accurately
Stay in the green but only just!
5 fruit and veg
Fitbit excercise goals
Jan challenge
Feb challenge
Mar challenge it didn't rain all day so I was happy to get out
Apr challenge
May challenge
Jun challenge
Jul challenge

It's a very wet start to the day so I'm not sure that I will be getting out to do my walking today!

I am in awe of the physical achievements of some of you, especially @nimackey1998 and @faerbert. When I feel like being lazy, I think about your determination and get going!

JFT 2019 Today was so wet. And tomorrow will be the same. At least I will get some extended walking at the mall.
Goals for Tue 09/07
FOOD:

• Weigh/Post in JGM10Ds 😁
• Prelog food, balance macros/micros 😁
• follow through 😁
• Hydration 😁

EXERCISE:

• 6000+ steps 😁
• 15 mins strength 😏 only 10 done
• 10 mins flexibility 😁

OTHER:

• Meditation 😌
• work on tidying hobbies room 😊 Did dining room instead, and made another pillowcase.
• Make birthday card for DGS ->->->
• Post in UAC/Post Sole Mates Evening Reminder 😁
• Read/Comment in Women Over 50 thread 😁

Goals for Wed 10/07
FOOD:

• Weigh/Post in JGM10Ds
• Prelog food, balance macros/micros
• follow through
• Hydration

EXERCISE:

• 6000+ steps
• 10 mins strength
• 10 mins flexibility

OTHER:

• Meditation
• go grocery shopping
• pay credit card bills
• ->->-> Make birthday card for DGS
• Post in UAC/Post Sole Mates Evening Reminder
• Read/Comment in Women Over 50 thread
  

Wow, I was in a terrible mood yesterday. I just felt black and angry. I think this mood was probably caused or at least amplified by PMT. But it was exacerbated by the circumstances of being utterly bored by my job (so ready to get out), annoyed by irritating colleagues, and mad at my boyfriend for not booking the camping weekend we are supposed to be going on in three days.

I was tempted to turn to food for comfort and have a binge but I managed to resist, even when food was brought right to me on the trolley on the train home. I am quite pleased with myself for that. I was less successful at resisting alcohol when I got home but I'm less bothered about that. We shared a nice bottle of wine and overall it wasn't that many calories (still pretty much neutral for the week, although I've lost the calories I'd banked). We also had a nice time sharing the wine together (somewhat preferable to binging on chocolate on the way home!) And ended up making progress on our camping holiday.

I was thinking about emotional eating yesterday, or in my case emotional drinking. I listened to a Half Size Me podcast the other day on this and she recommends looking at what emotion you're feeling when you want to eat/drink, and working out what you were feeling and what you needed in that moment that you substituted food for. She also recommends building fun and joy into your life (like, activity wise) to avoid attempting to get this through food.

This resonated with me yesterday as I realized that what I was feeling was just utter boredom and numbness (after work). I wanted to feel something, anything. Preferably joy, but anything would do - I also enjoyed putting on some depressing music and reveling in the sadness. (I also, in a way, enjoyed building up a head of steam at my boyfriend).

I think I often feel like this after work, or by the time I get home (a long commute doesn't help) and this is where the urge to drink comes from - to make me feel like I'm having fun. Somehow I need to build other joyful/fun activities into my day to avoid this. Difficult when you spend nearly 14 hours getting ready for work/at work/ commuting though.... Hopefully getting a new job (whenever that happens) will help.... Not having massive PMT may help too


Anyway, yesterday's commitments:

- Log everything I eat
- Stick to food plan Stuck to food plan but not alcohol plan - had half a bottle of wine! Oops
- Be in the green Due to wine
- 3+ bottles water Got distracted by wine
- No alcohol As above

- No eating whilst standing
- Savour every bite
- Talk back to sabotaging thoughts Yes, I resisted a chocolate biscuit (or plural) when willpower was low in the office, I resisted buying something from the trolley on the train, and I resisted buying snacks on the way home despite being tempted to binge
- Give myself credit!
- Stay positive No mood was a shocker

- 45 minute lunch break only 30
- Read response cards x2
- Meditate
- Duolingo
- Read some stuff for interview In too bad a mood to do this

- Finish work by 6.30pm
- Pack running stuff
- Plan mini break Not officially booked yet, waiting for owner to come back to me, but hopefully have found somewhere for nice camping weekend
- Do something nice for boyfriend Spent several hours' quality time together, unheard of for a weeknight.... The wine probably helped with this, distracted me from to-do list/phone....
- Gratitude journal
- Lights off by 11 Probably around half past


Today's commitments:

- Log everything I eat
- Stick to food plan
- Be in the green
- 4 bottles water
- No alcohol
- Run to work

- No eating whilst standing
- Savour every bite
- Talk back to sabotaging thoughts
- Give myself credit!
- Stay positive

- 45 minute lunch break
- Read response cards x2
- Meditate
- Read some stuff for interview
- Duolingo

- Finish work by 6.30pm
- Talk to boyfriend in French
- Do something nice for boyfriend
- Sort out camping weekend (site? list?)
- Gratitude journal
- Lights off by 11


Weekly calorie balance: 40 in red

Words for 2019: Mindful Moderation

Wednesday 10 July

Log accurately
Stay in the green
5 fruit and veg
Fitbit excercise goals
Jan challenge
Feb challenge
Mar challenge
Apr challenge
May challenge
Jun challenge
Jul challenge

It's another wet and windy day so I will be trying to pick a good time to get out for a walk. B and B guests are arriving early and I have housework to do. No guests this morning to my treat to myself was a long lie in.

JFT Tuesday
1. Log all food 👍
2. Gym👍
3. Drink 150oz water👍
4. Meditate 👍
5. One healthy snack after dinner👍

JFT Wednesday
1. Log all food
2. Drink 150oz water
3. Gym or workout at home
4. Meditate
5. One healthy snack after dinner

nlmackey98 wrote: »

JFT Tuesday

Work by 8:00 8:30
Bust through emails and start VN testing Dear Lord it's going to be a busy, but boring day
Lunch <400 cal and on plan
Fill our S-15 forms for new chemicals (yawn) As boring as I thought and turned a bit controversial, but I think I've cleaned that up.
Leave work by 4:00 Lost track of time, but happened to catch a glimpse of my watch at 4:00 on the dot and just left.
Cleanup bike a bit and oil the chain She was all bright and shiny by the time I got to the ride
Put on not so flattering Spandex and head to Marietta There is nothing flattering or pretty about bike kit.
Try not to freak out in the parking lot while getting ready to ride My friend Greg mentioned that I was shaking, but at least I threw up at home rather than there.
Talk to people light heartedly about where I've been when they inevitable ask There were a lot of welcome back kind of things and a few questions about which ride I was doing. It was nice that they wanted me around.
Rock my ride! I think it's only 25 or 30 miles Took the easy route and it was only 20 miles.
Attend the post ride dinner and drinks but not drink (ugh) I had one celebratory drink for making it through the ride. I'm ok with that.
Home by 10:00 Literally on the dot
Bible reading Just didn't happen
Gratitude journal Just didn't happen
Call it a night by 11:30 snoozing in and out on the couch while trying to watch TV with hubby.

Yesterday's ride was really good. Greg took good care of me and didn't put me up to (or let people talk me into) challenges I may not be ready for. We were with the slow group, but it allowed time to get comfortable on my bike, enjoy the scenery and chat a little on the way out. On the way back, he told me to go as fast as I wanted (or could go). I stayed at 20 - 22 mph for about 3 miles then I had to slow down. It felt so good to have the wind in my face. I felt like myself for just a little while. I didn't realize how fast I was going until Greg told me. I was pleased, but I wish I could have held it longer. About halfway back we stopped and waited for the group to catch up and rode back slow. Honestly, it's just good to know that I can still hit those speeds. I can build from there.

After, as always it was dinner and drinks. I was not on plan as I had boneless wings and a beer, but it was ok. My calories for the day were still in the green thanks to the calories from the ride.

I miss so much about riding. The speed. The challenge. The people. The independence (I used to go out and ride by myself for hours). The confidence it brought, not to mention the body it helped shape.

Unfortunately, my mind keeps going to the things I couldn't or didn't do yesterday. It's like I can't let myself be happy. Damn it that is stupid! I really need to find a way to get past the negativity, fear and anxiety. Yesterday definitely helped, but I still have a ways to go.

JFT Wednesday

- Work by 8:30 I've given up on 8:00
- Prepare for auditor training. This should be the last session for my two trainees for this section.
- Prepare for afternoon calibrations
- Lunch <400 cal
- Verification / Calibration. If verification works 1 hr, if I have to recalibrate 4 hrs.
- Counseling Session with Mike. Maybe he knows why I can't just enjoy a step in the right direction. I used to ride with Mike so it's easy to talk to him about this.
- Either church or a nice walk this evening. Sierra has a friend staying over so I'm not sure what the plan is.
- Dinner <800 cal
- Bible reading. Gotta get back on board with this. It really calmed my mind.
- Gratitude journal. Gotta get back on board with this. It made me focus on the positive rather than dwell on the negative.
- No alcohol
- Bed by 11:00

Positive Thought: It is up to you to let yourself be happy. Don't let you steal your joy.

Wow, miss a few days on JFT and I'm 88 posts behind. I'll have to catch up later. Hope all of you are doing well! I've been busy, had some family gatherings / travel, and too much eating for weight loss but oh well. For now...

JFT 7/10 W
1) Walked dog before work (v humid & v warm for early a.m.) 3.38 mi 59:52 = happy dog & happy drippy me
2) Move hourly / stairs breaks / 5 somethings
3) Prelog planned meals & snacks / NO snacks after supper / net calories zero / 14c water (lots of sodium in my system right now)
4) Continue progress on GA-S(R) to meet July deadline / make vet appt for dog (shots)
5) Evening: city band concert / meal plan & grocery list / other?
6) UNPLUG 9:00 (this seriously impacted my sleep last night ) / FLOSS / retainers / set/verify 5:40 alarm (walk dog before work R) / BED & TV OFF 10:20

nlmackey98 wrote: »

@aubyshortcake Thanks for the vote of confidence

@toaljasa Welcome back to the bandwagon. There is always a seat for you and you are surrounded by cheerleaders. We've missed you.

@bookmeister86 It's hard to make good choices when our minds are black and angry. You made excellent choices, especially under the heavy circumstances. Yay you!

@MaryRobinson, @Bex, @HEGoddard0928 @Snowflake1968 I know life is busy, but I want you to know I miss your presence and input. Love y'all!

Awhhh ive been feeling s bit weird last few days, i just cant focus my brain on anything!
Even thinking doing the dishes makes my brain go on timd out lol!