The High Wears Off

Pamela_Sue · September 2019

If you are interested, the challenge group I belong to is now open for registration for October. I belong to the team Shrinking Assets. Just another tool in the tool box, and I need all the tools I can get.

https://community.myfitnesspal.com/en/discussion/10765939/fat2-fit-weight-loss-challenge-october-registration/p1?new=1

SuziQ113 · September 2019

Terytha wrote: »

I'm at the doctor every couple weeks and have been all year. I have multiple doctors even. And a standing order for blood tests.

There's nothing wrong with me. Well. Nothing new. There's all the problems the doctors have caused, because doctors are useless and only make my life worse. Nothing good ever comes from talking to one.

But my bloodwork is normal. My xrays were normal. Everything is normal.

I go again next Friday but I'm sure I can predict the results.

I am so sorry! Same with my co-worker. She was having stomach issues and going to same doctor with same BS. We suggested an internist and lo-and-behold he said probably gall bladder and after ultrasound it was a bingo.

Try and not be so hard on yourself. You are doing great and are moving in the right direction. You set a goal and you are achieving it.

Some things I have learned over the years.

Make small, achievable goals. Do not look at total weight to be lost - cut that down to 5-10 pound chunks.
Make a small change in diet or exercise per week/month. My latest one is when I am washing dishes or folding laundry I will march in place. It's not a lot of exercise, but every step counts.
Reward yourself. This could be something simple like trying a new vegetable or buying a new color of lipstick.
Be kind to yourself.
Do not worry about what others think, notice, etc.. My closest co-workers are now saying they hate me when they see my outfits are starting to fit better (jokingly, but.....). My latest thing on that is it's not me - it's them.
When you are having a bad moment think to yourself, am I really going to remember this day/minute/situation 5 years from now? 10? More than likely not (unless it's life changing). I can honestly say I cannot tell you about the day-to-day things that bothered me 20 years ago. But, I can recite the exact moment I knew my husband died.

I hope you find some balance.

Terytha · September 2019

I booked an hour in a sensory deprivation tank tomorrow. Reading back on this post I realized I need a break from physical reality and from my body for a bit.

I'll check back after.

Thank you everyone for your support and kindness. I

all of you.

jo_nz · September 2019

I have been finding it to be a bit of a drag lately too. Just frustrated at how slow it is, I guess

I dont have any magical tips but thought I would just put in what I am working at to help me get through...other small goals and challenges.

Right now, this includes:
- finishing my studies (one week left to complete 3 assignments, and submit my portfolios)
- doing a couple of challenges on here (a weight one and a steps per day one)
- trying to workout regularly (kids are home for school holidays now, so it's a bit hard, but have been doing well up until now)
- getting to bed early/ getting enough sleep
- walking the dog every day if possible

cosmichvoyager · September 2019

Float tank sounds like a great idea. I hope it was restorative for you.

Terytha · September 2019

The float tank was good. I learned some things.

I'm still not very excited about anything but I'm more at peace with it all.

SuziQ113 · September 2019

@Terytha
I am glad the float tank was a good experience for you. Hang in there!

cmriverside · September 2019

I know this is super hard for you but thank you for the reminder of how hard it was and how awful I felt when I was obese.

Just know that it's worth it. Keep going. I'll think about you and send up a little prayer when I want those cookies today. I've been in Maintenance for some years now and sometimes I just want to say, "No more! I can't do this!!!!"

I can and you can.

CSARdiver · September 2019

I think many feel the same largely due to a crisis of purpose. Why I see so many self help gurus springing up everywhere. Life is so incredibly complex and despite things being far better than ever before we are now aware of everything, so we perceive this from a very skewed lens.

Everyone is going to have a different motivator, but I find the people most fulfilled find something larger than themselves.

saraonly9913 · September 2019

Might want to also use the search option for threads on NSV's (non-scale victories). Maybe they can help you see the bigger picture of how far you've come and renewed motivation to keep plugging along, hopefully with renewed vigor and confidence.

magnusthenerd · October 2019

Terytha wrote: »

I'm tired and burned out from work sucking and being sickly. The more weight I lose, the more goes wrong with my health.

I feel like going on a diet break would just add another layer of unhappiness on this depression sandwich.

Besides, I'd rather go on break at Christmas.

Chances are that it won't add a layer of unhappiness though. If there's no deadline to lose weight, there's very little reason to avoid a diet break when feeling burnt out. It is very likely to undo the burn-out. Even doing one now doesn't mean you couldn't do one at Christmas.

Also, if you value keeping the weight off, a break is good practice. It is easier than it would seem to screw up on maintenance, so getting use to eating more in a maintenance way can prepare for that.

Terytha · October 2019

magnusthenerd wrote: »

Terytha wrote: »

I'm tired and burned out from work sucking and being sickly. The more weight I lose, the more goes wrong with my health.

I feel like going on a diet break would just add another layer of unhappiness on this depression sandwich.

Besides, I'd rather go on break at Christmas.

Chances are that it won't add a layer of unhappiness though. If there's no deadline to lose weight, there's very little reason to avoid a diet break when feeling burnt out. It is very likely to undo the burn-out. Even doing one now doesn't mean you couldn't do one at Christmas.

Also, if you value keeping the weight off, a break is good practice. It is easier than it would seem to screw up on maintenance, so getting use to eating more in a maintenance way can prepare for that.

There's a sort of deadline. In a literal way. I frequently feel as though if I don't lose weight I will simply die of all my health problems, having never found a doctor who would actually look at me instead of telling me to lose weight.

I don't have it in me anymore to face the world at my size without at least the progress to remind me that it won't be like this forever.

LeiLaura · October 2019

Terytha wrote: »

magnusthenerd wrote: »

Terytha wrote: »

I'm tired and burned out from work sucking and being sickly. The more weight I lose, the more goes wrong with my health.

I feel like going on a diet break would just add another layer of unhappiness on this depression sandwich.

Besides, I'd rather go on break at Christmas.

Chances are that it won't add a layer of unhappiness though. If there's no deadline to lose weight, there's very little reason to avoid a diet break when feeling burnt out. It is very likely to undo the burn-out. Even doing one now doesn't mean you couldn't do one at Christmas.

Also, if you value keeping the weight off, a break is good practice. It is easier than it would seem to screw up on maintenance, so getting use to eating more in a maintenance way can prepare for that.

There's a sort of deadline. In a literal way. I frequently feel as though if I don't lose weight I will simply die of all my health problems, having never found a doctor who would actually look at me instead of telling me to lose weight.

I don't have it in me anymore to face the world at my size without at least the progress to remind me that it won't be like this forever.

I'm so sorry you're feeling like this. For what it's worth, I empathise. I finally (separately) got diagnosed with endometriosis and underactive thyroid after multiple years of not being taken seriously by doctors. Depression is a **** (I still battle it daily), but you know your body best. It's NOT all in your head. I say that to reassure you, not frighten you, it doesn't mean it's serious or incurable. I know I felt like I was going mad at times. Most recent example is I miscarried in May. 9 weeks later, I still felt "off". Went to doctor and asked for antibiotics. He tried to give me antihistamines. I won (I'd learned the hard way to trust myself on this). Three days later, I went into labour again and "birthed" a large piece of placenta. I'm lucky I wasn't in A&E with an infection. All of this rambling is to say I hear you, and you're not mad or faking it (been made to feel that way, too). It's probably something perfectly treatable, and there *is* hope for the future. Keep looking for the right doctor who will listen, and in the meantime be gentle with yourself and take antidepressants if you don't already, they help hold you up when things are tough, and I'm grateful for them. Hugs.

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