What's on your mind?

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  • ReenieHJ
    ReenieHJ Posts: 9,724 Member
    The way our minds keep looping to places where we used to belong but don't anymore. Why can't I concentrate on the here and now and let the past go?
    Maybe because it felt too d@mn good to let it go and I keep comparing it to now. :s
  • Sofiapilla
    Sofiapilla Posts: 284 Member
    jjpptt2 wrote: »
    I realized over the last few days that I have become far to accepting of being far too lazy. The pendulum of self acceptance vs self improvement has swung too far.

    This is a great way of describing it.
  • jjpptt2
    jjpptt2 Posts: 5,650 Member
    Biases, especially those around gender and sexuality.
  • OpheliaCooter
    OpheliaCooter Posts: 1,635 Member
    I’ve been a medical dumpster fire the past year. Lots of weird but unrelated appts and even a surgery for things that no one else seems to deal with.

    Today I see a dr for lower abdominal pain I have had since July. I have had several trips to the ER, ultrasounds, etc, and they don’t tell me anything consistent. I’ve been trying to get an answer/solution for months while dealing with growing, near-constant pain.

    I got my hopes up that the guy I see today will have an answer, but realistically I’m just staring down a long road of more tests and procedures.

    It is really affecting how I feel about myself. I am embarrassed of my situation, I feel old and frail and wimpy. ( @KosmosKitten America, amirite) Every time I have to miss work or spend a day laying in bed, I feel my value spiral.

    Ugh. Just venting. Most people in my real life don’t know any of this.

    I’m sorry you’ve been going through this. 😔
  • OpheliaCooter
    OpheliaCooter Posts: 1,635 Member
    ReenieHJ wrote: »
    The way our minds keep looping to places where we used to belong but don't anymore. Why can't I concentrate on the here and now and let the past go?
    Maybe because it felt too d@mn good to let it go and I keep comparing it to now. :s

    Story of my life!
  • Ironwoman1111
    Ironwoman1111 Posts: 3,913 Member
    Food
  • slimgirljo15
    slimgirljo15 Posts: 269,456 Member
    I’ve been a medical dumpster fire the past year. Lots of weird but unrelated appts and even a surgery for things that no one else seems to deal with.

    Today I see a dr for lower abdominal pain I have had since July. I have had several trips to the ER, ultrasounds, etc, and they don’t tell me anything consistent. I’ve been trying to get an answer/solution for months while dealing with growing, near-constant pain.

    I got my hopes up that the guy I see today will have an answer, but realistically I’m just staring down a long road of more tests and procedures.

    It is really affecting how I feel about myself. I am embarrassed of my situation, I feel old and frail and wimpy. ( @KosmosKitten America, amirite) Every time I have to miss work or spend a day laying in bed, I feel my value spiral.

    Ugh. Just venting. Most people in my real life don’t know any of this.

    I hope you get some answers today 🙂
  • ReenieHJ
    ReenieHJ Posts: 9,724 Member
    I’ve been a medical dumpster fire the past year. Lots of weird but unrelated appts and even a surgery for things that no one else seems to deal with.

    Today I see a dr for lower abdominal pain I have had since July. I have had several trips to the ER, ultrasounds, etc, and they don’t tell me anything consistent. I’ve been trying to get an answer/solution for months while dealing with growing, near-constant pain.

    I got my hopes up that the guy I see today will have an answer, but realistically I’m just staring down a long road of more tests and procedures.

    It is really affecting how I feel about myself. I am embarrassed of my situation, I feel old and frail and wimpy. ( @KosmosKitten America, amirite) Every time I have to miss work or spend a day laying in bed, I feel my value spiral.

    Ugh. Just venting. Most people in my real life don’t know any of this.

    Good luck and feel better!!
  • KosmosKitten
    KosmosKitten Posts: 10,476 Member
    jjpptt2 wrote: »
    Biases, especially those around gender and sexuality.

    The overt ones, the covert ones or the subconscious ones ingrained in people from a young age that they may not even recognize or realize? Or all of the above?
  • glassyo
    glassyo Posts: 7,742 Member
    I just got back from the doctor. I have balance problems but figure I shouldn't be having them when I sit down and I'd been falling asleep on the toilet (I know why) but tilting over and injuring myself so figured it was time to see someone.

    A tetanus shot, some blood work that needed to be done anyway, a referral for physical therapy, and a quickie exam later, they also want to do an mri just in case.

    My response was, "Do I need to prep for that? Do I need to rewatch House?" (The MRI of Dooooooooooom for anyone who watched that show. :))

    I know I didn't REALLY injure my skull when I fell in the bathroom...twice...because I figure it would have knocked some sense into me.

    Weird that I suddenly got a little nervous tho. Maybe I'm afraid I'll get claustrophobic.
  • KosmosKitten
    KosmosKitten Posts: 10,476 Member
    I’ve been a medical dumpster fire the past year. Lots of weird but unrelated appts and even a surgery for things that no one else seems to deal with.

    Today I see a dr for lower abdominal pain I have had since July. I have had several trips to the ER, ultrasounds, etc, and they don’t tell me anything consistent. I’ve been trying to get an answer/solution for months while dealing with growing, near-constant pain.

    I got my hopes up that the guy I see today will have an answer, but realistically I’m just staring down a long road of more tests and procedures.

    It is really affecting how I feel about myself. I am embarrassed of my situation, I feel old and frail and wimpy. ( @KosmosKitten America, amirite) Every time I have to miss work or spend a day laying in bed, I feel my value spiral.

    Ugh. Just venting. Most people in my real life don’t know any of this.

    Ah yes, America and its wonky ingrained cultural values. Always a delight.

    We're all hoping you get answers soon, even if the answer is more akin to a clue and the eventual reveal must snowball (with several other clues) for you to find relief. Medical science is interesting, but much like any other science, it's always playing "catch up" to modern discoveries (which are ever-changing and fluid).

    Do your best to take care of yourself and don't beat yourself up too much for having a lie-in when needed. You aren't any less valuable because of it. Do what's best for you to get up and going again, whenever that is. And of course, it's a plus if you can tell your brain to shut it and stop whispering dark thoughts and words, but I do understand that it is very, very hard to do. :heart:
  • MelG7777
    MelG7777 Posts: 14,232 Member
    “Exciting new things”? Sounds scary.
  • honey_honey_12
    honey_honey_12 Posts: 14,773 Member
    MelG7777 wrote: »
    “Exciting new things”? Sounds scary.

    Can hardly wait, lol 🙄🤣
  • KosmosKitten
    KosmosKitten Posts: 10,476 Member
    MelG7777 wrote: »
    “Exciting new things”? Sounds scary.

    Can hardly wait, lol 🙄🤣

    ^^ My sentiments, exactly.
  • ReenieHJ
    ReenieHJ Posts: 9,724 Member
    Wondering what's wrong with the exciting old things? Hope nothing good disappears. :(
  • slimgirljo15
    slimgirljo15 Posts: 269,456 Member
    ReenieHJ wrote: »
    Wondering what's wrong with the exciting old things? Hope nothing good disappears. :(

    I was thinking that too.. hope nothing goes wrong with the stuff that actually works 😆
  • jjpptt2
    jjpptt2 Posts: 5,650 Member
    jjpptt2 wrote: »
    Biases, especially those around gender and sexuality.

    The overt ones, the covert ones or the subconscious ones ingrained in people from a young age that they may not even recognize or realize? Or all of the above?

    Mostly the latter.
  • KickassAmazon76
    KickassAmazon76 Posts: 4,678 Member
    ReenieHJ wrote: »
    Wondering what's wrong with the exciting old things? Hope nothing good disappears. :(

    I was thinking that too.. hope nothing goes wrong with the stuff that actually works 😆

    I'm sure there will be a number of growing pains. Hopefully not a decade worth! 😂
  • slimgirljo15
    slimgirljo15 Posts: 269,456 Member
    ReenieHJ wrote: »
    Wondering what's wrong with the exciting old things? Hope nothing good disappears. :(

    I was thinking that too.. hope nothing goes wrong with the stuff that actually works 😆

    I'm sure there will be a number of growing pains. Hopefully not a decade worth! 😂

    🤣😂
  • Jeffit_170
    Jeffit_170 Posts: 148 Member
    MelG7777 wrote: »
    “Exciting new things”? Sounds scary.

    It's only scary if they start showing who reacts to your post 😉

    I hope they do this 😂

    Yes! 😂
  • MelG7777
    MelG7777 Posts: 14,232 Member
    MelG7777 wrote: »
    “Exciting new things”? Sounds scary.

    It's only scary if they start showing who reacts to your post 😉

    Oh that wouldn’t scare me. lol. I know mfp has its issues but I’ll kinda miss the clunky old girl if they change it too much.
  • OpheliaCooter
    OpheliaCooter Posts: 1,635 Member
    I was so jealous that the gf got a week and a half off but she had to go back today 🤪😛😝

    I should really take a vacation.
  • ReenieHJ
    ReenieHJ Posts: 9,724 Member
    edited November 2021
    Jeffit_170 wrote: »
    MelG7777 wrote: »
    “Exciting new things”? Sounds scary.

    It's only scary if they start showing who reacts to your post 😉

    I hope they do this 😂

    Yes! 😂

    Me too! Bet the disagree-ers would hide a little bit.

    Wondering how long MFP will be shut down today. Sounds like a good movie day for me.
  • bellababy9031
    bellababy9031 Posts: 287 Member
    edited November 2021
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    Utah.....

    Get me two (2)!!!
  • KosmosKitten
    KosmosKitten Posts: 10,476 Member
    edited November 2021
    I still don't really fit in anywhere.. or into any groups of people. Kind of bums me out, honestly. It just leaves me feeling... "other" for lack of better terminology.