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Shakashakara wrote: »I’ve been a medical dumpster fire the past year. Lots of weird but unrelated appts and even a surgery for things that no one else seems to deal with.
Today I see a dr for lower abdominal pain I have had since July. I have had several trips to the ER, ultrasounds, etc, and they don’t tell me anything consistent. I’ve been trying to get an answer/solution for months while dealing with growing, near-constant pain.
I got my hopes up that the guy I see today will have an answer, but realistically I’m just staring down a long road of more tests and procedures.
It is really affecting how I feel about myself. I am embarrassed of my situation, I feel old and frail and wimpy. ( @KosmosKitten America, amirite) Every time I have to miss work or spend a day laying in bed, I feel my value spiral.
Ugh. Just venting. Most people in my real life don’t know any of this.
I’m sorry you’ve been going through this. 😔1 -
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Shakashakara wrote: »I’ve been a medical dumpster fire the past year. Lots of weird but unrelated appts and even a surgery for things that no one else seems to deal with.
Today I see a dr for lower abdominal pain I have had since July. I have had several trips to the ER, ultrasounds, etc, and they don’t tell me anything consistent. I’ve been trying to get an answer/solution for months while dealing with growing, near-constant pain.
I got my hopes up that the guy I see today will have an answer, but realistically I’m just staring down a long road of more tests and procedures.
It is really affecting how I feel about myself. I am embarrassed of my situation, I feel old and frail and wimpy. ( @KosmosKitten America, amirite) Every time I have to miss work or spend a day laying in bed, I feel my value spiral.
Ugh. Just venting. Most people in my real life don’t know any of this.
I hope you get some answers today 🙂1 -
Shakashakara wrote: »I’ve been a medical dumpster fire the past year. Lots of weird but unrelated appts and even a surgery for things that no one else seems to deal with.
Today I see a dr for lower abdominal pain I have had since July. I have had several trips to the ER, ultrasounds, etc, and they don’t tell me anything consistent. I’ve been trying to get an answer/solution for months while dealing with growing, near-constant pain.
I got my hopes up that the guy I see today will have an answer, but realistically I’m just staring down a long road of more tests and procedures.
It is really affecting how I feel about myself. I am embarrassed of my situation, I feel old and frail and wimpy. ( @KosmosKitten America, amirite) Every time I have to miss work or spend a day laying in bed, I feel my value spiral.
Ugh. Just venting. Most people in my real life don’t know any of this.
Good luck and feel better!!1 -
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I just got back from the doctor. I have balance problems but figure I shouldn't be having them when I sit down and I'd been falling asleep on the toilet (I know why) but tilting over and injuring myself so figured it was time to see someone.
A tetanus shot, some blood work that needed to be done anyway, a referral for physical therapy, and a quickie exam later, they also want to do an mri just in case.
My response was, "Do I need to prep for that? Do I need to rewatch House?" (The MRI of Dooooooooooom for anyone who watched that show.
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I know I didn't REALLY injure my skull when I fell in the bathroom...twice...because I figure it would have knocked some sense into me.
Weird that I suddenly got a little nervous tho. Maybe I'm afraid I'll get claustrophobic.4 -
Shakashakara wrote: »I’ve been a medical dumpster fire the past year. Lots of weird but unrelated appts and even a surgery for things that no one else seems to deal with.
Today I see a dr for lower abdominal pain I have had since July. I have had several trips to the ER, ultrasounds, etc, and they don’t tell me anything consistent. I’ve been trying to get an answer/solution for months while dealing with growing, near-constant pain.
I got my hopes up that the guy I see today will have an answer, but realistically I’m just staring down a long road of more tests and procedures.
It is really affecting how I feel about myself. I am embarrassed of my situation, I feel old and frail and wimpy. ( @KosmosKitten America, amirite) Every time I have to miss work or spend a day laying in bed, I feel my value spiral.
Ugh. Just venting. Most people in my real life don’t know any of this.
Ah yes, America and its wonky ingrained cultural values. Always a delight.
We're all hoping you get answers soon, even if the answer is more akin to a clue and the eventual reveal must snowball (with several other clues) for you to find relief. Medical science is interesting, but much like any other science, it's always playing "catch up" to modern discoveries (which are ever-changing and fluid).
Do your best to take care of yourself and don't beat yourself up too much for having a lie-in when needed. You aren't any less valuable because of it. Do what's best for you to get up and going again, whenever that is. And of course, it's a plus if you can tell your brain to shut it and stop whispering dark thoughts and words, but I do understand that it is very, very hard to do.
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“Exciting new things”? Sounds scary.4
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honey_honey_12 wrote: »
^^ My sentiments, exactly.3 -
Wondering what's wrong with the exciting old things? Hope nothing good disappears.
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KosmosKitten wrote: »
Mostly the latter.0 -
slimgirljo15 wrote: »
I'm sure there will be a number of growing pains. Hopefully not a decade worth! 😂1 -
KickassAmazon76 wrote: »slimgirljo15 wrote: »
I'm sure there will be a number of growing pains. Hopefully not a decade worth! 😂
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eatpolerepeat wrote: »_sw33tp3a_11 wrote: »
I hope they do this 😂
Yes! 😂0 -
_sw33tp3a_11 wrote: »
Oh that wouldn’t scare me. lol. I know mfp has its issues but I’ll kinda miss the clunky old girl if they change it too much.4 -
I was so jealous that the gf got a week and a half off but she had to go back today 🤪😛😝
I should really take a vacation.1 -
Jeffit_170 wrote: »eatpolerepeat wrote: »_sw33tp3a_11 wrote: »
I hope they do this 😂
Yes! 😂
Me too! Bet the disagree-ers would hide a little bit.
Wondering how long MFP will be shut down today. Sounds like a good movie day for me.3 -
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I hope the features this forum gets are all related to pizza5
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I still don't really fit in anywhere.. or into any groups of people. Kind of bums me out, honestly. It just leaves me feeling... "other" for lack of better terminology.1
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Working at home today, which is not necessarily a good thing. Puts me way too close to my fridge and pantry. 😑0
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KosmosKitten wrote: »I still don't really fit in anywhere.. or into any groups of people. Kind of bums me out, honestly. It just leaves me feeling... "other" for lack of better terminology.
You are not alone in your "other"ness.
I never really feel like I fit in. Even with social gatherings full of people I love and care for... I always feel like I'm on the outside trying to say / do the right thing. It's crazy, because other people don't see that about me, but it is so very real.
Getting an invite to a gathering fills me with dread. I don't want to go, to see people, to feel that way. And at the same time, I don't like feeling lonely.
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KickassAmazon76 wrote: »KosmosKitten wrote: »I still don't really fit in anywhere.. or into any groups of people. Kind of bums me out, honestly. It just leaves me feeling... "other" for lack of better terminology.
You are not alone in your "other"ness.
I never really feel like I fit in. Even with social gatherings full of people I love and care for... I always feel like I'm on the outside trying to say / do the right thing. It's crazy, because other people don't see that about me, but it is so very real.
Getting an invite to a gathering fills me with dread. I don't want to go, to see people, to feel that way. And at the same time, I don't like feeling lonely.
Interesting thought. Perhaps the fact that "WE" don't fit in is exactly the opposite. Perhaps we do and every one else doesn't. I think the trap of society is just a modern day slavery the elite wants us in. Wake up work your job pay your bills you must conform or you won't fit in. We've gotten so far from real freedom that we can't recognize it anymore. So ladies do you and trust in yourself we do fit in just not with that group. Totally get the lonely thing I'm with ya, just waiting for my people to wake up and notice.3 -
KickassAmazon76 wrote: »KosmosKitten wrote: »I still don't really fit in anywhere.. or into any groups of people. Kind of bums me out, honestly. It just leaves me feeling... "other" for lack of better terminology.
You are not alone in your "other"ness.
I never really feel like I fit in. Even with social gatherings full of people I love and care for... I always feel like I'm on the outside trying to say / do the right thing. It's crazy, because other people don't see that about me, but it is so very real.
Getting an invite to a gathering fills me with dread. I don't want to go, to see people, to feel that way. And at the same time, I don't like feeling lonely.
Are you sure you and I aren't the same person? Oh, wait.. I can't lift like an absolute champ. 😂
You've described it (and me by association) pretty well. And usually, if I force myself to go to the gatherings, I have a good time (most of the time), but it leaves me feeling really, really drained. Like my "people battery" has run out of juice. Alone time replenishes the "juice", but I feel like I require a lot more of it (alone time) than maybe most people I know?
I know that has to do with being introverted, but still.. kinda sucks when you want to be personable, reach out and do things with people, but feel that the very core of your being rejects that idea entirely. It does lead you to feeling a bit like a freak, honestly.2 -
It's interesting you say this. My oldest is 16 and she is neurodivergent. She hasn't been officially diagnosed (in progress), but we believe she has both ADHD and is autistic / has Tourettes.
She has uncontrollable tics, which often cause her to jump, cringe, hit herself, or almost hit herself. Sometimes these are accompanied by sounds, clicks or pops.
If I were in her shoes, i would have felt that I had to do everything in my power to suppress them.
Must. Assimilate. Right?
But for her, when I talk about getting her help to manage / control / minimze the tics, she gets upset with me because "this is who I am. Why should I have to change? To make other people feel more comfortable? Nah, they just need to realize there is nothing wrong with me. I'm just different and different isn't bad."
Note: I don't think she is broken, or needs fixing, or even needs to suppress her stims. I just want her to have as smooth a life as possible.
I wish I was as comfortable in my skin as she seems to be in hers. I am so proud of her.
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