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sparklyglitterbomb
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I was on here about 5 years ago and lost 80 pounds.
Then a lot happened and reverted back to my unhealthy coping mechanism: food and cocktails.
I can feel it. My body is tired, I get out of breath, and the mental pain of my "failure" is adding up faster than I can say.
The last couple years have been spent rehabbing my knee and doing more internal work. I am in a healthy relationship with a man who is so supportive, I almost can't believe how lucky I am.
So last night I weighed myself. Then I cried. Then I took measurements this morning and saw how they compared to where I was after losing 80 lbs and cried again.
I want to feel better. I want to not loath looking in a mirror. I want to like how I look in clothes again. Most importantly, I want to go camping and hiking with my boyfriend this next summer. He is in ridiculously good shape, and I don't want to slow him down. I want to go on trips and not worry about fitting into plane seat.
Logging back on, I saw that many of my "friends" from back then have not logged on in years.. so maybe find some new ones as I embark on this journey again.
Anyway - best of success to everyone. I know there will be a flood of newbies here on January 1 and I wish all of us success in this. (and patience - it's not a short trip)
Then a lot happened and reverted back to my unhealthy coping mechanism: food and cocktails.
I can feel it. My body is tired, I get out of breath, and the mental pain of my "failure" is adding up faster than I can say.
The last couple years have been spent rehabbing my knee and doing more internal work. I am in a healthy relationship with a man who is so supportive, I almost can't believe how lucky I am.
So last night I weighed myself. Then I cried. Then I took measurements this morning and saw how they compared to where I was after losing 80 lbs and cried again.
I want to feel better. I want to not loath looking in a mirror. I want to like how I look in clothes again. Most importantly, I want to go camping and hiking with my boyfriend this next summer. He is in ridiculously good shape, and I don't want to slow him down. I want to go on trips and not worry about fitting into plane seat.
Logging back on, I saw that many of my "friends" from back then have not logged on in years.. so maybe find some new ones as I embark on this journey again.
Anyway - best of success to everyone. I know there will be a flood of newbies here on January 1 and I wish all of us success in this. (and patience - it's not a short trip)
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Hi. My name is Diana. I completely understand. I lost 60 ponds in 2020 and have now gained back 65. I need to get rid of over 100 pounds. I used to hike with my sons, walk 5k’s, and was starting to feel more confident in clothing. But, now I huff and puff doing a flight of stairs. So, I’m starting over…a fresh, brand new start.1
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Welcome back, you can do this.0
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Welcome. I’m new to this program but not to losing and gaining weight. Like you I have gained back every ounce I lost and more. It so easy to fall back into old ways. Food is my friend. The only one that doesn’t judge me. I turn to food for a abundance of reasons.
But I’m to the point where I feel absolutely lost. I look in the mirror and despise who I’ve become. Overweight, no energy, exhausted, I have no clothes that fit. I’m ready to make a change. Let’s support eachother and get this done.0
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