What are you losing weight for?

I turned 30 back in August feeling terrible about myself. I wasted my young adult years being fat...not "overweight," not "a little chunky," not "carrying a few extra pounds." F-A-T. I can admit it now, I was in denial about it then. Being that size absolutely demolished my self-esteem, and I had basically no social life, and very little success with women. Not because of my size, but because of my lack of confidence. Eventually I met a girl and got married, but it was a bad relationship and I basically stuck with it because I didn't think my fat self could do any better. Then she met another guy and that was the end of that.

So, I'm 30, fat, divorced, and somewhat depressed, and I finally decided I've had enough. I can't fix everything in my life, but I can fix this. I don't know if getting in shape will actually restore my confidence and self-esteem but nothing else has worked. I tried changing from the inside out and it got me nowhere. So this time I'm going to change from the outside in. Maybe if I like who I am on the outside I can be more comfortable with the me on the inside.

I suppose, too, that part of it is wanting to look good for the next Ms. Right when/if I do find her. But that's low on the priority list. It's about me. I spent 8 years sacrificing my needs to keep the ex happy. Now it's time to make sacrifices and go through struggles that will benefit me, and me alone.

Also, I had a friend whose father died of Type II diabetes a couple years ago. He was only 55 or so. He never got his weight under control and it literally killed him. Don't want to go down that same route.

My reasons were purely selfish, I did it for "ME".. After losing all that extra fat I look great, I feel great and life is great!

Oh dear, hope I'm not going to end up sounding like the feeble, pathetic one on this.
Here goes...
4 years ago I found out my husband of 21 years had been cheating on me. I stopped eating and lost shed loads of weight in a short time. ( I was about 14lb heavier than I should have been.) Having done so I began to retake some control over my life and did so largely by losing more weight, but on my terms. Now I am slightly lowere than my BMI but I feel so much more confident about my body and my future that I want to stay this way.
I am separating from the aforementioned husband as soon as we can sell the house etc., and when my new life starts I want to get a new relationship and continue as a new me.
I guess I just need to feel good about myself again.

1. To feel good better about myself and get healthier.
2. To look amazing on my 30th birthday!
3. To be able to fit into the perfect wedding dress.
4. To get to a helathy weight before I get pregnant down the road.
5. To not have health issues related to weight later on in life.
6. To keep up with my future kids.
7. To be able to buy and wear clothes that are cute (yes a little vanity but lets be real here.lol)
8. To look good naked! lol

for me.

1. I stepped on the scale 2 weeks after the last Thanksgiving and was the biggest I have been in my entire life.

2. My family is skinny. I am easily 35 pounds heavier than the next heaviest sibling, even with the weight lost so far. My sister, despite having 4 kids, has been the same weight since she was in high school. So there was no excuse for me being overweight.

3. Due to my years of army service, I have a slight back disability which becomes worse the more weight I gain. I got tired of walking only a few blocks to have my back killing me. My back pain is essentially gone after losing the weight I have so far.

4. I am generally into playing lots of sports and being good at it. I want to get back into it. Not many fat guys playing basketball and soccer.

5. I want to get to a size 34 waist. A lot easier to shop for nice pants when you are a size 34-36 vs a size 38-40.

6. I want my son to grow up with a father who is just as active as he is.

7. Stress management. Its hard enough to manage stress when you are not overweight.

Me, Myself and I!:happy:

I want to feel better for myself. To boost my confidence, and make me feel more comfortable about my body.

Myself: my health and wellbeing

Cruise in May 2013
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To wear sexy clothes