A first??? :)

We've been together 22 years, married for 18 and I love him as much now as I ever did. He's my best friend. His laugh can make me smile no matter how foul of a mood I'm in.

I have to have surgery to remove a cyst near my ovary. I'm having a laproscopy, hysterscopy, and Novasure. It's an out patient surgery but will put me out of commission sexually for at least 3 weeks. Hubby is going to Afghanistan in a few months so I originally scheduled it for after he left. He got upset about that and wanted me to reschedule it so he can be here for me. I know my health is more important than him getting some sex before he goes away but just the fact that he didn't even hesitate or care and that he wants to be here to take care of me means soo much. I already know I won't be allowed to do anything at all that day and not again until I'm recovered again. He'll insist on doing everything for me. That's just the way he is.

As if that wasn't enough, we have the most amazing kids ever. Our 14yo has always been 20 years old. He was born 20 years old. Our 11yo is not that mature but he's the sweetest kid ever. 2 years ago we went to visit hubby's grandma who had severe Alzheimer's. The 11yo (then 10) sat with her and held her hand all day while his brother and cousins went off to play. Both the boys are smart, kind, caring, considerate, polite, well behaved, just plain amazing kids.

I love my family more than anything else in the world.

Haha, we're good! I definitely don't think you are a jerk at all!

I have the best friends in the whole wide world, and every day I get to work at manifesting my purpose as a shamanic healer I love being alive even though it's really, really hard!

19Sunday was my 19th wedding anniversary. I can't believe we're almost at 20. On one hand, it seems like it could only be five or six, but on the other hand, I can't imagine being with anyone else. I have been with my husband for almost half my life (next year will be half).

We have had some incredible struggles over the years, and I now that we are up for more. Christmas has been a very tough time the last couple of years. But we are still together.

Our son, adopted after several years of infertility and social workers, is 13 and a half, and becoming a man. He is taller and heavier than me, delighted to have hair growing in all sorts of places. He has not been an easy child to raise. It is probably a good thing that we were not able to have or adopt any more, because he has taken a huge amount of time and dedication to bring up. He is severely ADHD, lots of learning disabilities and other issues, allergies, etc. As a baby he wouldn't sleep for more than 20 minutes unless he was being held, and even then, it was down at 11 or 12, up every two hours for a bottle, and up for good at 5 or 6 with no daytime naps. We have homeschooled from the start and lived on a single income. He is maturing now, but encountering more serious difficulties out there in the world. But he is my kid and I don't know where I would be without him.

I have a great job. I've worked with the same boss for 17 years. He is a family man, a man of God, extremely supportive but also demands my very best. I have a warm home to live in, and a car that runs. My body is getting in better shape every day, and my hubby runs with me every weekend. I love to cook, which is a good thing since because of my various allergies and intolerances, I basically can't eat anything I don't make myself.

I have my faith and my church, and although they keep me busy (yeah, I work full time, homeschool, do all of the cooking from scratch, exercise, and still have time for extra duties at church too -- where does it all come from?) I would be lost without God and faith in my life.

So that's it. I am so grateful for my life and the challenges I have. Somehow it all works out to my advantage in the end.

Pam

Amber, Thank you so much that was very sweet! You are very valued as well! I look forward to seeing your posts every day. I couldn't have made a better friend to help me along this journey!