Beautiful Blue Team WEEK 4

The past couple of days have been wonderful!!!! I stopped at Kohl's last night to pick up a new backpack and while I was there I thought why not try on a pair of jeans. I went down a pant size!!! I now fit into a 9 !!!!! I also picked up a new water bottle while I was there - pretty in pink. I have already drank one full bottle which is 32 ounces. Which is amazing because I never drink that much water. So I am all smiles today!!

I hope that everyone is having a wonderful day too!!!

Congrats on the going down a size! :drinker: How much is that water bottle? I need to get me a water bottle so I don't have to keep using the plastic ones I throw away.

WOOOHOOO! Go Blues!!!!

Rach ~ AWESOME! And I feel your pain with those shins. :sad:

Chrissy ~ You are looking SO GOOD in that new pic!!!

Jacqueline ~ Fantastic! Isn't that exciting?!

So, I got brave and pulled out some pre-pregnancy clothing last night. My size 16 Capris fit! They were a tad bit snug in the thighs but hey, they zipped and I could sit in them without fear of ripping them to shreds! I started this out in a size 20 and I just gave those pants to my Mom. I'm hoping to inspire her to lose weight with me by giving her my fat clothes. :laugh: For some reason, though, the regular size 16 pants I had won't go past my thighs. I think I might have bought them in the Juniors department and I definitely have a woman's body now that I've given birth. :sick:

Jess - I so admire your strength....you could give up but it seems that your seizures help push you harder to be stronger and healthier - hope the day gets better but know you inspire me!

I woke up crying this morning, so it's going to be a rough day, I just need to keep my focus on why I'm losing the weight.

Here's why I'm so sad... I'll try to keep it short... My mom was my best friend. She overdosed on 6/10/04 and fought in the hospital ICU (after she realized it was a mistake) until 7/6/04 when she died. I used to be so angry with her for leaving us at such a young age but that anger has turned into just missing her so much it hurts. To understand, you have to realize she was abused sexually and mentally her ENTIRE life. She was one of the strongest women I've ever known. My dad threatened her that day, and she figured, 'either go home and he'll beat me to death, or take these pills and take my own life'. Obviously, she was wrong. She could have come to my husband and I and we would have protected her, but when you're in that much despair, it's hard to see that, I suppose.

This time of year is always rough on me. The memories come flooding back and this year will be 5 years that she's been gone. I still remember that day we found her after she had taken the pills like it was yesterday. I remember the look of panic in her face, I remember my sister thinking she was going to be ok, and my reminding her that mom was not out of the woods by any means. I remember my dad trying to go into the hospital room and it was the first time I stood up to him and told him exactly what I thought of him... ugh. Even now, tears streaming down my face as I type this.

Anyway, just wanted to share. We all have to remember our mental health is just as important as our physical health, and we need to be thankful for small victories

So I got home from work and all of a sudden felt extremely lonely and upset. This is the first weekend I"ll really be 'alone'. Last weekend I was unpacking so I kept busy, but I realize that because of this relationship I now have no one I can call up and go hang out with. :frown: Not to mention, most of my volkswagen buddies are in Ocean City for 'Dubs at the Beach'. *sigh* At least I went and did 30min of my legs and back routine, though my shins hurt reeeeally bad and I've been stretching my calves out like crazy. I think I'm gonna shower, get some dinner and go to bed early. :yawn: