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  • Captain_Tightpants
    Captain_Tightpants Posts: 2,215 Member
    Have you heard of ACT therapy? It may help you a lot. It's helping me.
  • Edithrenee
    Edithrenee Posts: 546 Member
    Good luck also and hang in there please, when i was 24 i was borderline aneroxic, and i have body dismorphia, but believe me none of this is worth taking your life.

    It can be scary, it can be lonley but you can do this. I still have a problem with going over bored on things I have to keep myself in check. But it is really something that comes from with in! Well and my Lord and savior i have to say has helped me in so many ways.
  • Your dad needs to understand that it is every bit as dangerous as anorexia. He might be part of the problem. Have you called Overeaters Anonymous? It is free and it would give you a safe place to go and listen and talk. They might have some idea about referrals too. There should be a mental health crisis hot line in your area and you should call it. They might be able to find a place for you. SUICIDE IS NOT THE ANSWER! Ever! Try to figure out what your triggers are. That is really hard but if you can identify some of them, it might help. Are you worse on school days or when you are stuck at home? Things like that. Friend me if you want but beware that I will say what I think (in a nice way though). I care and know how much you are hurting.
    Bonnie
  • Helenasnan
    Helenasnan Posts: 30 Member
    dont beat yourself up tomorrow for what happened yesterday! try and figure out what triggers a binge...and call a friend or go for a walk or bike ride when the urge strikes again!
    Good Luck!
  • SammyPacks
    SammyPacks Posts: 697 Member
    wow! That is a pretty big binge... tomorrow is a new day. Just don't keep doing this, and try to maintain yourself for the rest of the week <3
  • jesshasredhair
    jesshasredhair Posts: 46 Member
    As a therapist and former bulimic and binge eater( still compulsive at times), I think there is a danger or at least it's contra indicated to be counting calories. It was a long time before I could even think about dieting and occasionally my black and white thinking will kick up if I've been "bad" which leads to eating worse. The problem is not awareness or food tracking. It's compulsion, which is an addictive cycle.

    My advice: see a specialist in eating disorders, work with a nutritionist (again, a specialist) and get to the root and stabilize yourself. Get the book "intuitive eating". The food is a red herring to what really is going on....

    Please call a crisis hotline if you are feeling desperate.

    Email me if you would like!
  • chelso0o
    chelso0o Posts: 366 Member
    Something that helped me not binge *as much* is getting active and making friends who were active. The more time I spend outside and doing things away from food, the less I think about it.

    A workbook that a lot of people recommended was "The food and feelings workbook". You will have to go through a lot of emotions that you may not want to deal with, but it is worth it. Another thing that may help is antidepressants. If you binge a lot on carbs, it may be because your brain isn't producing enough serotonin. Just some research I've done on my own.... nothing super scientific.
  • I know how you feel. I been there. Dont worry you can still burn those cals over time. YOu will be ok if not better :). Frined me I know how you feel. I suffer from the same thing.
  • DBiddle69
    DBiddle69 Posts: 682 Member
    Remember:

    1) Slow and steady wins the race
    2) This is a lifestyle change not a diet...it will take some time
    3) It takes three months to create a habit....many of us have created bad ones...it will take time to create new ones!
    4) It has taken a lifetime to create who we are today so rules 1-3 need to be remembered everyday!!
  • reneeileen
    reneeileen Posts: 455 Member
    There is a light at the end of the tunnel. I have been binge free for about 5 years. What I can say is what helped me was seeing a counselor. I was able to be referred to a PhD candidate through my school because I wasn't able to afford to pay for counseling on my own. I cannot tell you enough how much it helped. If that is not an option for you, seek out help elsewhere. Perhaps your school's counseling office can help you find a resource that meets your needs and family situation. You may want to speak with your doctor privately, if you haven't already. He/She may be able to offer you some options that would not be open for discussion if your parents were in the exam room.

    Part of my process was reading as much as I could, journaling, and I spent a lot tuning into what I was I feeling and thinking when I would binge. It felt like it would start so fast and my mind would shut down and before I knew it I was a package of cookies and a brick of cheese deep. It took a long time but eventually I was able to identify a strategy to stop in the middle of the binge. Once I could do that, I knew I could succeed.

    It is not easy but you can overcome it.
  • mea9
    mea9 Posts: 561 Member
    just stick to your calorie goal tomorrow, forget about the binge today

    ^^This
    and lots of water.
  • Addiction is a real demon. I give you many props for even attempting to tackle it. Hit your reset button and take on tomorrow.
  • CallmeSbo
    CallmeSbo Posts: 611 Member
    Oh my word, did not even think that was possible.

    All i can say is, we are here for you. Rant all you want. We all here because we have some issues with food. Go to search button, there are some support groups for people that binge. Forgive yourself, its only one day. You have a bright future and many more no binge days ahead of you. **hugs**
  • not sure what time it is where you are now but maybe you could go for a 15-30 minute walk (after binge) to help ease the stomach pains...that's what i sometimes do, and end up feeling better about things too.
    :smile: please don't beat yourself up over this...could you talk to or visit a trusted friend about this problem? if not just to distract you from food and anything on your mind.
    keep positive (as hard as that sounds)...keep busy.
    (just a few ideas you can sift through) :happy: making sure your daily calorie setting is not too low to begin with so it's easier for you to cope with and making it not about losing weight so much but to stay around a certain healthy level?? once you start to get into a good pattern then you can decide what to do??
    :heart:
  • PNWriter
    PNWriter Posts: 223 Member
    Don't be so hard on yourself.
  • nudqt
    nudqt Posts: 98
    Counselling without insurance is a very costly item....but local Overeater's Anonymous groups are free. OA groups are addressing more and more eating disorders.
  • Helloitsdan
    Helloitsdan Posts: 5,564 Member
    Weigh yourself now.
    Weigh yourself tomorrow.

    Move on!

    Benefit from the meabolic boost it will give you over the next week and push through.

    This weekend is my hedonistic weekend!
    Everything goes!

    I've done it before and the strength gains and fat loss that resulted was astounding!

    Go forth young Jedi and prosper!


    Oh yea!

    Dont do that again for about 2 weeks!


    Read this!

    http://www.topfatlosstrainer.com/2009/12/12/cheat-day-for-rapid-fat-loss/
  • Counselling without insurance is a very costly item....but local Overeater's Anonymous groups are free. OA groups are addressing more and more eating disorders.

    What a great idea! I feel silly for now thinking of it. I wish more people would utilize this program.
  • papastu
    papastu Posts: 737 Member
    be positive

    all i can say

    im not good at this
  • I KNOW about going on binges and how crappy and guilty you feel the next day. Been there--done that. Like the others said, just do better the next day. I know anger and frustration would trigger my binge, so find your trigger. When you find yourself in that situation, recognize it for what it is. I was thrown into my binge mode one night last week and grabbed 10 cookies that a family member has left at my house. I ate two without even tasting them! I stopped eating, put the other eight cookies back and fixed me a cup of tea. When I calmed down, I was proud of myself for realizing what was really going on. A saying I read said "you fall down seven times and get up eight!". That is what we all have to do.:smile:
  • Russellb97
    Russellb97 Posts: 1,057 Member
    Just move on and start fresh.

    Depending on your BMR and activity level at the most you could have gained was about 1-1.5lbs of fat, even after 7,383 calories.

    My point is, don't stress it and move on. You will do more damage mentally with guilt, then the food did physically in fat gain.
  • There is help!!! I loved the comment about the Overeater's Anonymous. But honestly, at this point, I would NOT be worrying about what you are or aren't eating. (not that that issue isn't important) I would be focusing on getting help with your depression and suicidal thoughts. Those thoughts/feelings could very likely what is triggering your binges. Depression is HORRIBLE and many times medical help is needed to get it under control. Once that part of you is healthy, then focus on the rest. You have a full plate of things going on, but break it down into bitesize pieces. One minute at a time. One foot in front of the other. Anytime that you are feeling severely depressed, can go to any ER and they will get you to someone to help you with those issues. But you have to be assertive about it and completely honest. ((hugs))
  • Have you heard of ACT therapy? It may help you a lot. It's helping me.

    Hi, thanks for replying! What is ATC therapy?
  • Thank you again everyone.

    My doctor knows everything that is going on and he actually wanted me to go on this and record everything I am eating so he could get an idea of my food intake.

    I forgot about drinking tea at night, I will try that again.

    I'm going to forgive myself for this and try to figure out what triggers me. I realized that when people comment about what I'm eating ( ex. What is that?, That looks good! How do you make those? ) I get stressed easily because I feel like I'm being watched when I eat. I think that this was caused during my anorexic stages. Also, when people offer me food I get extremely stressed due to the same reason, and I believe that is what triggered my binge yesterday.

    Another trigger for me is when my sister eats the same thing I am eating. We are twins and both had anorexia. Our doctor thought that what kept it going for so long was " a competition" between me and her which I also believe is true. She is now A LOT smaller than I am so when she eats what I eat I get very anxious and stressed because I am jealous that she has control over her food intake as I don't, and that she is a complete health nut still and doesn't eat anything unhealthy at all.

    I am going to try to learn how to control these emotions and figure out how I beat this eating disorder.

    Thank you all so much.
  • heybales
    heybales Posts: 18,842 Member
    Sorry for the rant, I just don't know who else to turn too. Can anyone please give me some advice. I've had binge eating disorder for almost a year now. I recovered from anorexia and with that mind set still I feel horrible because what I do to my body.

    Could you be eating too few calories normally, especially with exercise, and body is rebelling and causing you problems?

    Do you net below your BMR constantly?

    Usually hungry?

    Sweet tooth, but keep eating sweet things?

    Salty, same problem?
  • Captain_Tightpants
    Captain_Tightpants Posts: 2,215 Member
    Hi, thanks for replying! What is ATC therapy?

    Acceptance and Commitment therapy.
    http://contextualpsychology.org/act

    With the help of a therapist trained in ACT you learn to be more mindful and in control of your inner language and thoughts. It's a little like mindfullness meditation but more structured.
  • jeclpi
    jeclpi Posts: 28
    Remember - well done you for coming on here and asking for help and support instead of suffering alone. You may have had a bad day, but bad days can always be overcome by refocusing and looking for the positive next day.

    There's lots of useful advice here and people to support, so you keep on plugging away, and just find one really good thing about tomorrow - nothing to do with eating or weight loss - just one thing that makes you feel really happy and thankful to be you. I promise it will help everything else stay in perspective.

    Stay strong and big hugs x
  • bump
  • taso42
    taso42 Posts: 8,980 Member
    First and foremost. It's ok. What happened happened. You're human, and life will go on. Let's focus on how to prevent this in the future. Have you been eating at a very low calorie intake for a while? If so, that can lead to a big blowout. If you eat to your target every day, you may be less likely have a day like this again. If you open your diary we can probably give more targeted advice.
  • 10acity
    10acity Posts: 798 Member
    You must forgive yourself first & foremost. I understand binge days because mine used to be epic. But don't let this horrible feeling escape you. Just because you've forgiven yourself, doesn't mean its time to forget. Maybe print of a copy of mfp food log & put it anywhere you get your food from. Write on that paper how horrible it made you feel when you had this binge. This will serve as a reminder & motivation to fight hard even when you don't feel up to it. Keep fighting hard & I'm sure you'll overcome this.:smile:

    This is great advice.
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