Overcoming an Eating Disorder...

Currently trying to self recover from bulimia.. to me it doesn't seem too hard, right now. I have no major stressers in my life and it is a lot easier to resist binging with all the support on here (Even though I have only had one successful day so far..). I am just worried when I start school back up how I will be able to handle it. I know it is hard, but you can make it. I added you.

I am here too. Glad to know we aren't alone!

Just thought I would check in and see how everyone is doing? Anyone still out there?

While I don't have an eating disorder, I can vouch for www.therecoverygroup.org as a DEFINITE help for people who want to break the chains of addiction. I am an alcoholic, and that website has DEFINITELY helped me work through the 12 steps with my sponsor by giving me additional insight that is not readily available in the two books of AA (The Big Book - Alcoholics Anonymous, and the 12 and 12 - The 12 steps and the 12 traditions).

Changing thought patterns can be difficult without help. Psychologists and psychiatrists can only help to the point that you are bluntly honest with them, and THAT is hard! I know, because I went to a psychologist to be treated for depression, and only told him what I thought was pertinent.

I think that you will find alot of helpful people on this site, but some may not understand the cycle of addiction, and view it as just lacking willpower. If you check out the recoverygroup, look at some of the stories posted there. You will see some of yourself in each of their stories. I did too, and all I had to do was substitute the term 'eating disorder' with the term 'alcohol'.

It wasn't until I started working with a sponsor, though, that I realized that I needed to be BRUTALLY honest with myself, and with him, if I was to succeed. I have been, and I continue to be, for I get a 24 hour reprieve from my addiction contingent on the maintenance of my spiritual condition. Thus, that rigorous honesty is a daily necessity, as is trusting in God.

Six months ago you would not have heard me say that statement, ESPECIALLY the last part, as I WAS an atheist who despised the very idea of a god of any sort. God, however, believed in me, and He loved (and still loves) me enough to put the people in my life at just the right time to bring me to HIM Not only did He remove my desire to drink, but he completely lifted my depression, just in time to save me from myself.

Please, anyone who is suffering from addiction, feel free to add me as a friend, and I will help you in any way I can.

I started my first diet at 13. I am now 36. By aged 18, at 5'11, I was 5 stones (70Ibs) and given 24 hours to live.
It has been a constant battle since with restricting, laxative abuse (kidney failure 3 times and heart failure), self induced vomiting and exercise obsessions. I have phases where I manage to stop and don't even check the scales, and where my weight has risen to 140Ibs +.

I am back to being a bit obsessed by the scale (started with a new relationship with a naturally skinny man), and having issues with vomiting in the evenings if I feel too full or bloated.

I am trying really hard to get a grip and just find a healthy balance, and just maintain the sort of weight I am. There are quite a few on here, still totally caught up in their strivings to lose and lose and to starve. I don't want that. I need people who understand the scale obsession, exercise obsession, a generally obsessive personality and binge eating issues.

At my worst I was living on half a rice cake a day.