Almost done - From 280lbs to 151 with pictures

At my heaviest I was 294lbs, and I was only 19 years old. Understandably I have very little photo documentation of myself; I hated myself enough without there being lasting imagery of me knocking about.
Over the years I've been through a lot. I went from eating far too much from as early as two, and mostly junk, to eating a spoonful of oatmeal a day, becoming afraid of all food (and most other things. I have mental issues and go through episodes) making all the mistakes like not eating breakfast, eating far too few calories...
My thighs used to bleed where they rubbed together, and I wore stretchy trousers that rubbed away over time at the inner thighs. I'd get worse when I was going thorugh an episode. I'd obsess, hurt myself with exercising and stop eating if I gained an ounce.

Eating well was hard with my mind the way it was, also we lived in a tiny room in shared houses with strangers who would steal, and my agoraphobia made things even worse. I would do pilates and yoga whenever I could in what tiny space I could find that I felt safe in, and tried to just accept myself for who I was, and if I lost weight, all the better. Of course, I hated myself but at least I could pretend.

I'm sorry if I'm inducing tl;dr in you guys. I don't expect this to be read.

Anyway my weight has back-and-forth'ed a little with illness and whatnot, and I have so many issues about it in my head. It's why I joined MFP with very little to lose until I hit my goal; it helps me to calm down now that I just log everything rather than add calories, fats, all nutrients over and over in my head all day long.
I've gathered what photo evidence I have. Mainly to show myself, because I have body dismorphic and I hate everything about myself at regular intervals. This is my proof, brain! LOOK!

Face:


Body (same tshirt, tight fitting in the "before" and pulled in behind me in the "after" so there's two fistfuls of fabric tucked into my trousers in the second, you can actually see where it's baggy and bulging weird at the ribs cause I didn't pull it down enough! :laugh: ):


Now I'm focussing on toning some more. Arms in particular, and losing the subcutaneous fat on my stomach so hopefully the skin'll tighten up. I expect no miracles having been obese from aged 5-22.

Anyway, that's my story so far. Hope I haven't bored anyone too much :embarassed: