I miss the way I used to eat....And I feel worse now then I

I understand, bc I am an emotional eater as well. However, think of this (it might not help, but I'm taking a shot) do you ever just go out and buy things without checking if you can afford them or researching online for the best price? Also, do you make sure you have time to do things and make your schedule work around other things like work, sleep, etc? Those things are probably easier because you have been doing them longer. It can be stressful to have to log or check first but you do the same sort of thing in your everyday life in other areas. DOn't knw if that makes sense

I'm not surprised. You've been stuck in "diet" mode and now that you are out of it (having reached your goal) you don't have the discipline to eat in moderation. The all or nothing mentality is what drags so many people down I think. It still drags me down, but that's one of the main things I'm trying to change this go around.

You probably feel like crap partially b/c you've deprived yourself of a lot nutrients in the past 3 months.

May I ask if you are eating at maintenance? For you it should (I think) be over 2000 calories, more like 2400

And I work out outrageously already. I wake up every morning and run for 30-40 minutes, do an an workout, then work on my arms. That's how I lost all this weight. I just...I'm stuck

Yes you almost definitely need more food. I don't know for sure b/c I don't know what you eat. But you did say 4 oz of fish and a salad??????? I'd go crazy eating that and even I'm not eating as much as I probably should right now.

Weight loss is not a cure for whats deeply rooted on the inside, but its a start. Just think you've accomplished a weight goal you can concor anything. I've been depressed before and I know first hand what its like. I suggest journaling, and talking a trusted friend or adult. Someone that will not seek to hurt, but tell you the truth out of love. And someone that will guide you in the right direction. You can friend or message me if you like to

I lost 75 lbs in 3 months (many years ago). I was scared to eat my favourite foods because I knew I'd fall back into old habits. And when I did eat some, they didn't taste the same or give me the same "high" as they used to. However, I know for me, it's the increase in exercise that really helps my weight (not that a proper diet doesn't add to it as well).

You seemed to have your self image confused with your size. You are you, no matter what weight you're at. It sounds to me like you're trying to be happy. You thought losing weight would make you happy, and it didn't. So maybe try something else. Happiness comes from the inside out, not the outside in. There's something good in you that makes you happy, but sometimes it's really hard to find. For some people, it's jogging. For others it's volunteering. For me, it's working with kids. It can be tough to find that happiness, but it is worth the arduous, sometimes painful, journey. Keep trying! (And the journey is always better when you're living a healthy lifestyle ) You're worth all the hard work!

Not sure what to tell you, OP. However, I do agree with everyone who said you might want to seek help for depression. That's up to you, if it seems like it would help.
You said something about your body reacting poorly to junk food. Is that in any amount, or just if you binge on it? I don't know how much you're eating, but maybe you need to up your calorie intake. Also, if you cut a food group out of your diet (carbs, fat, etc.), that might be messing with you. I also agree with whoever said to try consuming more healthy fats. Your brain needs those.
And this is going to sound crazy, but maybe you need some more sugar in your diet? I went off sugar once, for about a week. I was fine during, didn't really notice any changes, but afterwards it seems my body tried to get back at me for not consuming any. And I don't know about you, but trying to stick to mfp's calorie guidelines made me kinda batty. I had to make sure I exercised enough, just so I could have the calories to eat back. When I didn't get 500 extra to eat back, I was in THE worst mood. I've gone days without food,(but not without sugary drinks) and not been that pissed off.

So... try to make sure you're eating enough. If you can manage some junk food, eat it. I'm serious. Just don't binge. If you do binge, don't beat yourself up about it. Just go for a loooooong walk. Not burn the food off, but to help it settle. Sitting still after a binge has always just made me feel indigested and gross for an extended period of time. And that made me feel fat, which made me feel guilty, etc.

And good job on losing the weight!

You seem like a really nice guy. I want to say give yourself a break-you are so young and it can be a confusing time as it is, let alone dealing with a new image.
I agree, calculating everything I eat seems to take the joy out of eating. However, our eating habits got off course and now we are using this as a tool to get back in balance. Journaling is another tool. Hopefully, we get to the point where we can eat sensibly and find other interests that make us happy. Happiness is not a constant. Find small things to be grateful for and build on that. For example, you are young and have so much to look forward to accomplishing. Volunteering might be an option or join a meetup group with a common interest like running, etc.
I wish you the best.

I munged out on 600cals worth of chocolate last night.. I wont deny myself my chocolate.. but then I burnt 600cals on the exercise bike.

Eat your lollies! Just if you down a whole packet, read the amount of calories were in that then work it off!

**Added note
You'll learn with time, with this method, the lollies/chocolate wasn't worth the amount of effort to work it off. If you induldge, but work it off everytime, you'll soon associate bad foods with hard work lol

Three months is not much time to make a "lifestyle" change. Sure, it's a good start, but I'm sure it's not complete habit for you yet. Once you have started maintaining, you should get to the point where you don't have to "count" calories. You should know your limits, what you can eat each day and not gain weight. Now, if you start eating pizza, fried foods, and sweets every single day, you will not only deprive yourself of nutrition, but you will just pack it all back on.

I have only lost 18 pounds so far. I have been doing this off and on for over a year (I fell off the wagon for about 7 months). When I first started, I would pre-log everything to make sure I would never go over my calories. I felt like I could not eat anything until I knew exactly how many calories were in that food. Now, I am starting to get to the point where I can log at the end of the day (even when eating new food) and still be within my goal.