Bad moments to Good moments

Hello, Fitness Pals.

I havent been around much over the last couple weeks, and I miss you. I miss spending more time each day taking better care of myself - I miss daily exercise and good eating. I know I'll get back into a good groove at some point. Until then, I will struggle to have runs along the river, time on the yoga mat, and visits to the gym, and I'll struggle to maintain a proper diet. But its okay - to struggle - if we struggle, we are still fighting.

Right now my life is really a big fat mess. My teen has run away because I placed him in a drug rehabilitation program yesterday. Its so painful to witness the choices he makes when he has the talent and ability to be whatever he wants to be in his life. But it is his life, and while I will do everything I can for him, including giving him plenty of tough love, he unfortunately doesn't come with a remote control. My divorce proceedings, over two years running now, are about to go ballistic, and there is a good chance that the attorneys will walk away with most, if not all, of the family assets after trial expenses. It could potentially put us into bankruptcy.

... breathe, Dave, breathe ...

I have recently come to realize its very likely that my life will simply continue to be much harder than it has been in the past - for a long time, probably a very, very long time. I'll keep fighting, but there will likely be many more battles.

But I know I will survive, I will do everything I can for my kids, and they will be okay. My relationships with my loved ones, those who are truly my loved ones, will endure, and we will all adjust to the profound changes that we are going through.

I think the key will be to stay close to the moment. Not get held back by, or cling to, the past. Not get sucked into worrying about the future. From hour to hour of every day there are new ups, and new lows, that come and go. All of these things will pass, and life goes on. Fully experiencing the good things in any given moment - its going to be necessary as I move forward. Also, it will be necessary to experience the bad moments, to pay attention to them, and to my needs at these times. Showing myself kindness.

I really don't know why I am posting this here. This started out as a brief post to my friends list to explain why I haven't been around, but then it grew too big, and it kept coming out, through my finger tips, into the keyboard, and into this space. Maybe I am venting.

Maybe I am looking for potential gems of wisdom from this wonderful community of people on MFP - some things that might help me through the bad moments.

And maybe I am hoping that something in this post might help someone out there who is going through similar difficulties. Divorce is hard. Raising troubled teens is hard. But people do it every day, and it's okay.

Anyway, if you read this, thank you. I hope you have a wonderful weekend, and much happiness. Now, please pass the scotch. :drinker:

Cheers.