This has been a frustrating month of ups and downs, losing the same 2-4 pounds over and over again. But on the plus side, I have not allowed it to discourage me to the point of abandoning my efforts.
In the past I really would've fallen victim to the "What's the point?! Eat everything!" mentality. But from experience I know what comes with that. Being even further from my goals, feeling defeated and angry with myself, hating food and my body and my lack of willpower.
There definitely have been points so far these past few weeks where I've thought about just throwing my hands up in the air and eating junk food and not tracking... but the thought of hating myself stops me.
I'm tired of hating myself. I want to like myself. And even if the weight isn't doing the obedient linear thing, I want to at least feel proud of my efforts. I am sick of punishing myself with food, under the guise of making myself feel better. I know where that road leads: It leads to me in front of the mirror, just hating what I'm seeing. It's such a negative place and I don't want to go there.
So for now that is what is motivating me to get beyond this zig zag period. I imagine post-binge, me hating myself and I don't want that.
Plus reading people post about their journeys and where they ended up helps me envision a day when I can say: Oh yes, I've been there and now look at me! 100 pounds down!
That's what I want!!
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People who keep going eventually succeed. People who don't, never succeed.
There may be some practical adjustments in details needed along the way, but you're on the success track. Keep up the goodness!
Oh, man. That's tough. I hope you found some other happy macros? Soldier on, best wishes!
Thank you. It's these stories of eventual success that keep me going.
Thank you. I am holding on to those beliefs for dear life!
Yes exactly. Knowing that it's vicious has been reminding me not to go down that path. Let's both stay strong!
Glad to see I'm not in it alone. This IS a long-term thing, and we know how to get back on that horse. Good luck! Keep going!
And in a year's time, I hope to join you in that same distress!
@lorrpb You didn't see that period in front of the 4! Four tenths of a pound this month.
Yes, I know there's no obedient linear thing... I was being tongue in cheek
Just keep going! You've got this!!
Yes! Thank you! You're right - after 6 weeks with no change, I also had to re-assess what I had been eating and how accurately I had been logging. It's such a good reminder to keep using the tools correctly. So glad your scale is moving again -- I will draw inspiration from it.