laurosaurusrex wrote: »
Ugh yes! 4 years ago I lost 30 pounds (went from 150 to 120). I was this beacon of health. But it got so obsessive and I crashed hard. Over the past 2 years, I put on 50 pounds (now 170) and have still been working through feelings of just utter shame and disappointment. I'm only 2 weeks back in the saddle, but I know I did it before (not as much weight), so I know I can do it again.
Really focusing on the words I choose when I talk to myself because for so long, it's just been negative. I'm trying to be different this time so I can make it a life long change with sustainable efforts.
Honestly, the hardest part was / is dealing with that complete shift in identities. I went from being SO healthy to being SO unhealthy. I could see and feel how people would treat me differently. "She really let herself go" is ALL I could hear.
I'm doing something about it now, so I know I'm heading in the right direction. Still sucks knowing I did this to myself !
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