My success so far.

T4Y94

So proud of you friend! You got this, you have made it this far and you have so many cheering you on! 🙋‍♀️💙

NecessaryChange

Nightfly01 wrote: »

Thank you so much. I believe that I have an emptiness that manifests itself in food as well as drug use. Can’t ever get enough. I too want to live and enjoy life. Thanks so much

And you absolutely will! Keep at it and stay strong man!

NecessaryChange

@mmnv79 Thanks for the heads up, I'll need to check that out. And I'll do my best to remember to check in every now and then!

NC_Girl

Hi Rich! Thinking of you this morning and hoping that you are still seeing great progress!

NecessaryChange

NC_Girl wrote: »

Hi Rich! Thinking of you this morning and hoping that you are still seeing great progress!

Thanks so much, I'm actually trying to fix the aftermath of seeing that nutritionist. I ended up justifying the low calories and it made me ravenous.. had my first ever binge eating episode and got so angry and frustrated about completely losing control.. having cravings dominate my will.. that I spiraled for the month and gained almost 10lbs. Even more, I'm kicking myself because it pushes the surgery back and I doubt he'll want to move forward knowing I had such a nasty slip up. I honestly just want this all to be over already. It's so stressful 😅 but I've still got a ways to go and I can't put it off. I've wasted enough of my life and I don't wanna give up either. Not too healthy, I know. But it's all I know how to do 😝

ufindjewels

Wow! Amazing progress!

NC_Girl

NecessaryChange wrote: »

NC_Girl wrote: »

Hi Rich! Thinking of you this morning and hoping that you are still seeing great progress!

Thanks so much, I'm actually trying to fix the aftermath of seeing that nutritionist. I ended up justifying the low calories and it made me ravenous.. had my first ever binge eating episode and got so angry and frustrated about completely losing control.. having cravings dominate my will.. that I spiraled for the month and gained almost 10lbs. Even more, I'm kicking myself because it pushes the surgery back and I doubt he'll want to move forward knowing I had such a nasty slip up. I honestly just want this all to be over already. It's so stressful 😅 but I've still got a ways to go and I can't put it off. I've wasted enough of my life and I don't wanna give up either. Not too healthy, I know. But it's all I know how to do 😝

Don't give up on yourself. I failed from Nov 2020 through Feb 2021. I too gained 10 pounds. I was angry at myself but I refused to give in to my emotions. I've got back on track and lost that 10 pounds and 5 more. I actually think I needed to trick my body..... And once I started back up it came off fast. Please try. I think that you will be pleasantly surprised at how well you fall back into place. I will be sending strength, courage and happy vibes to you.... I know that you can do this Rich! ❤️

Sailor555

I'm so happy for you and impressed & inspired by your story. If I may be so bold, my take on at least part of why you've achieved success is that you found the strength to LOVE yourself enough to overcome sabotaging self-hatred. It's a cycle I know well, and I think most of the folks in these forums as well.

You've had amazing success as a result, and there may still be some setbacks. I hope not, but it's possible. When/if they come, KEEP ON LOVING YOURSELF. We all fall down. We all blame ourselves. But I think the love you were able to access deep within you is what saved you the first time, and it will save you again. Forgive yourself and move on.

You've got friends and supporters here and we're all with you. So impressed with your journey! Keep on loving yourself and you will succeed long-term. Thanks for your inspiration!

NecessaryChange

Ok. Time for a little update. I stepped on the scale a few weeks back and the total gain was around 40lbs putting me back up to 308lbs. Weighed in last week at 296 so we're back on track. I had a consult with my surgeon on the 12th and we decided it was a good time to go for my first loose skin removal procedure I've been waiting for their scheduler to be back in the office and were setting the date for the earliest day in October that he has open. I'm super psyched for this. It's going to change my entire world. Thank you to anyone and everyone who has read my post(s) and decided to support me either in the comments or even silently. I appreciate all the help and support I've been getting since I decided to step out into the forums and social media world. Both procedures will be 25-30k.. a steep price but worth every penny. I feel so much guilt for having my family foot the bill so I decided to drain my savings and pay for half of the first procedure. I am hoping to set up a GoFundMe, just to get my story out there and maybe have some generous souls help me take some of the burden off of my family. Needless to say. My family isn't exactly thrilled with that idea. They have a negative view of gofundme, but I think it's important and I need to at least try, right? I'll be working towards my GED during the recovery period after surgery since I won't be moving all that much. And once I'm all healed I'll be going for the test and for my drivers license. After that it's off to community College, and eventually I hope to be an architect. My dream was always to design and build my own dream house from scratch with my own hands. I can't wait to finally start my life. It's a truly exciting time.

JBanx256

Amazing progress Rich!

NC_Girl

Rich, so glad to hear from you and excited for you. I will look forward to hearing your next update. Keep going! You've got this!

MaltedTea

@NecessaryChange You're a good egg, indeed! All the best to you in recovery and your studies and in LIFE 🙌🏿

Thanks for continuing to share your updates with us.

NecessaryChange

MaltedTea wrote: »

@NecessaryChange You're a good egg, indeed! All the best to you in recovery and your studies and in LIFE 🙌🏿

Thanks for continuing to share your updates with us.

Thanks! That's so kind of you to say 😊 wishing you luck on your journey as well! Have an amazing week!

LeeH31

Throwing out a thought here, for you to discuss with your endocrinologist. Leptin deficiency or leptin receptor deficiency. Imbalance of grhelin. Hope that is helpful. You're doing great, even if it doesn't feel like it sometimes.

soldiergrl_101

NecessaryChange wrote: »

It took me a year and a half just to do the introduce yourself post, which I did this morning. I thought maybe I should put this here as it fits a bit better. My name is Rich, I'm 29. I spent probably close to 13 years hiding away in my house. Too ashamed to show my face. Scared whoever saw me would snap a pic.. make me a joke.. or worse.. embarass my family or blame them for how I turned out.. the truth is I had a tough childhood in the way that I had a few mentally taxing medical and learning/schooling issues bombard me at once. I didn't handle it well, mostly because I couldn't. But I have always been a fat kid, that wasn't the cause of my obesity. My problem was that I am NEVER full. Nothing is satiating no matter what restrictions I put in place what macros I tried to eat at, or how many small/frequent or larger/separated meals I had throughtout the day.. one thing never changed. My body feels like I'm starving. Not just hunger or craving.. but like I haven't had a piece of food in days. It's extremely odd. I had too many excuses and reasons to quit. I let fear and my quite crippling depression and negative thoughts rule me for over a decade.. but I wanted nothing more than to fit in.. be like everyone else. I want to work, drive, laugh.. I want to live, like everyone else. So one early *kitten* morning from binging youtube with pizza rolls to distract myself.. I made the decision that I was finally going to make that dream a reality.. that choice had come to me countless times.. they always ended in failure and even more weight gain. Maybe I didn't try hard enough or didn't really mean it, but this time was different. Since then (August 1st 2019), I have lost ~230 lbs. I'm very proud of what I have done so far. But it's so hard with this constant hunger looming over me. I hope this can inspire someone, or maybe you can relate to one part of the short story or another.. but I'm just getting started.. I have a lifetime to make up for and a lifetime of consistency and progress to strive towards. I can finally say that now I'm finally living.. and not just existing. Thank you for reading. And good luck on all of your goals and wellness journies.

I was the same way...it sounds weird but Oregano Oil Extract killed all my hunger pains and cravings among many other things it helped with. If you look up Candida most people that are overwight have a Candidia problem and its the Candidia that craves the sweets and the food since they live off sugar. Oregano Oil Extract kills them or keeps them at bay, you can research it. But the point is try it, it litterally helped so much, 4 weeks later it took care of the candidia and now i dont even need to take it any more.

solieco1

Rich, I am CHEERING! You are conquering so many demons and taking charge of your life and somehow I feel so proud of you even though I don't know you. As a mom to twin young men who are finding their way, I'm so happy for you! Keep going, expect it to not be linear. There WILL be ups and downs and that's ok. Much Love from Colorado

NC_Girl

solieco1 wrote: »

Rich, I am CHEERING! You are conquering so many demons and taking charge of your life and somehow I feel so proud of you even though I don't know you. As a mom to twin young men who are finding their way, I'm so happy for you! Keep going, expect it to not be linear. There WILL be ups and downs and that's ok. Much Love from Colorado

I found I felt the same way! I'm so proud of this young man. He's doing great and I love seeing him progress.

oakster69

Great results, you are killing it. Very proud for you.

NecessaryChange

LeeH31 wrote: »

Throwing out a thought here, for you to discuss with your endocrinologist. Leptin deficiency or leptin receptor deficiency. Imbalance of grhelin. Hope that is helpful. You're doing great, even if it doesn't feel like it sometimes.

Thanks, I actually had talked to my endocrinologist and she had said letting and Grehlin issues are still very new. There are no real tests or even treatments for them as of yet since they're still in the trial phases of things for figuring them out. I'm hoping eventually I'll be able to get some idea of what drives my hunger to these extremes lol. Thanks again!

NecessaryChange

Alright. So it's been a little while, I just turned 30 2 days ago.. and my present to myself is my first round of loose skin removal surgery which is on October 11th. Just a few days to go.. it's absolutely crazy to think I'm to this point. I've had a lot of issue this year and I'm not quite where I wanted to be for this surgery. However I find it to be completely necessary. The physical and mental drain from my loose skin, the confidence issues, and the inability to see progress or even do things people my size can normally do, is quite taxing. I'm looking forward to having this loose skin off. It may very well be that I'll need another round of removal in a year or so.. but for now I'm going to have the arms legs chest back and stomach taken care of. I'm draining my savings along with my Unified gift for Minors which I never touched, as well as my money set aside in an account for schooling. It'll be taxed heavily for this use.. however I'm just not comfortable letting my family pay for it on their own after I've caused so much trouble and brought this on myself. So hopefully I'll be able to cover at least half of both procedures. I plan to set up a gofundme for my second surgery, when I do I'll post that for anyone thats interested. I don't expect anything, I would just like to put it out there to take some burden off of my family if possible. Thank you for anyone and everyone reading and following along. I appreciate all your support and kind words. It means the world to me!

NecessaryChange

Wanted anyone following to know right away. Surgery was successful. I had my diastasis recti repaired, my stomach and abdomin thinned out and packed flat, same as on myback... as well as my pubic area!(sorry if it's TMI, but it's arguably one of the most IMPORTANT and delicate areas...) and upper thighs.. I'm so excited!! As excited as moderately monotone man can be anyways haha. I hope everyone had a wonderful night. I'm honestly scared for tomorrow when they get me up and if they have. Me look in a mirror. The only emotion I have had for 30 years when applies to myself was disappointment.. you all have been so kind and supportive and have helped me slowly sneak in a "good job, but don't get complacent" here and there lol. A little bit of a backhand but nothing too negative I don't think, right? 😅.. Thank you all so so much.. when I originally posted this I was so ready to become a meme or the new fat guy on the rascal joke, yknow? I was so scared.. But you all showed me there is some kindness and a safe supportive community.. from the bottom of my heart, thank you so much. We'll see how this healing goes.. see how my finances are doing, of course. And then try to get the ball rolling on the second procedure to take care of the rest! I will try my best to update, and if anyone would like I could send some photos before and after. Nothing raunchy, of course. I have some saved, but the social media consultant for my Surgeons office never got back to me on their IG so I could tag, or on pictures or what I can and can't post. So I'm winging it with my own haha.

albamarie61

Rich, I am new to your thread but read through every post. You are an amazing young man and I am happy to hear your first surgery was successful. Your journey, as so many have already said, is truly inspiring. For me, I have a young nephew who has a similar situation in his life and I am worried for him. Your post gives me hope that one day he can get out of his very, very sheltered life. Looking forward to hearing more updates from you as you rest and recover in the next few weeks.

Fitlife_Girl

I'm super new to this posting. You inspired me while reading your story Rich. Thank you for sharing!

corinasue1143

So glad the surgery went well. Hope the recovery goes well, too! Sounds like they did a lot, so it may take a little while. Take good care of yourself!

RozzintheNorth

Happy belated Birthday and congratulations on the successful surgery! It's amazing to read in real time someone making such positive changes and I love the accountability you have. Thank you for sharing.

notakumquat

I also struggle with hunger. I am never satisfied and always want more, even when I was in pain from eating too much. I had a large setback recently of about 50 pounds, but I'm working it back off and I'm back on track. I've had a few bad days recently as far as eating too much junk, but your story has given me the motivation to keep going, at least for today!

Congratulations on all the progress; you're doing amazing things!

bekim123

New to the thread as well. Great progress, keep at it. Hang in there, I've had many setbacks along the way and "getting back on the horse" is all you can do. You can't change the past, but you control the future...and it sounds like you're on the right track. This is a very supportive community and I find reading these success stories keeps me motivated.

jenreeder35

Congratulations, proud of you!

NC_Girl

Rich.... Hoping you heal quickly and don't get discouraged if this takes a while before you feel back to yourself, as before surgery. Keep in mind all that your body has gone through. Be patient with recovery and congratulations! I'm very proud of you and just want to say - You got this, Rich!!!!! Looking forward to seeing new pictures after you are healed!

Deanner03

I hope you have a good recovery. Be kind to yourself, and don't worry if you're not totally happy with the results at first. Things take time to heal and the inflammation will take a while.