JUST FOR TODAY... One day at a time .. Daily Commitment for 2023!

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  • SherryRueter
    SherryRueter Posts: 3,177 Member
    Just for today...
    I am only eating the food that is in my food log.
  • SherryRueter
    SherryRueter Posts: 3,177 Member
    .... Man, I didn't think this would be so mentally challenging!
    Just for today.... which now at 1:18pm means, I will be drinking water for a LONG time (seemingly long.... a few hours) because I ate lunch. And the next meal is dinner at 6:30pm.
  • pridesabtch
    pridesabtch Posts: 2,445 Member
    SherryRueter wrote: »
    .... Man, I didn't think this would be so mentally challenging!
    Just for today.... which now at 1:18pm means, I will be drinking water for a LONG time (seemingly long.... a few hours) because I ate lunch. And the next meal is dinner at 6:30pm.

    Tomorrow put a late afternoon snack in your meal plan. Prepare for it and you can more easily stay on task.
  • SherryRueter
    SherryRueter Posts: 3,177 Member

    @pridesabtch It sounds like the perfect night to go to Bible study! You need God to refocus your mindset. Just for today...just get the hard stuff done, just for today, do the things you need to do regardless of "feeling like it". Building the habit of discipline. You've got this! I say this all JUST as much for ME as I do for you. Maybe even more for me. Because its the habit of discipline that I need.
  • azulvioleta6
    azulvioleta6 Posts: 4,195 Member
    I worked 20 hours this weekend, had a crazy day at work yesterday and have been fighting a migraine. I feel better-ish today, so back to it!

    DAY 9: February 7; JFT I will:
    1. Track all food
    2. 10,000 steps
    3. 8 C liquid
    4. 5 freggies
    5. Swim at least half a mile
    6. Finish planting seeds in indoor greenhouse
    7. Food prep…soup, turkey burgers
  • pridesabtch
    pridesabtch Posts: 2,445 Member
    pridesabtch wrote: »

    JFT Tuesday
    - Up at 6:15 :(
    - Shower/Cleanup/shave :neutral: mostly
    - Gyno :smiley:
    - Work :smiley:
    - Meetings :smiley:
    - Library at 3:30 to give V money for tutoring
    - Home :smiley:
    - Nap :smiley:
    - laundry :(
    - Bible study :(
    - dinner :smiley:
    - bed :neutral: eventually

    Go little done yesterday. Went to the gyno and all looked good.

    I barely made it to work today. Brushed my teeth and threw on a ball cap.

    Not very professional, but all of my meetings are on-line today. Tonight I'm scheduled to go to trivia. Because I play on a team I will likely go, but I'm totally in no mood. Maybe I'll feel better after work.

    JFT Wednesday
    - Gym :(
    - Work by 8:00 :smiley:
    - Meetings
    - More meetings
    - Home by 4:45
    - Shower
    - Trivia
    - Home by 10:00
    - Bed by 11:00

  • clicketykeys
    clicketykeys Posts: 6,568 Member
    edited February 2023
    JFT Tuesday
    1. THINK PINK. Draft email follow-up for superintendent. Check on coverage requirements.
    2. Online facilitation - JFT. Update class website. Duolingo. Weather drill. Reply to emails. Collect writing contest entries and forms. Check on prof dev option?
    3. Pit Crew - Scattergories.
    4. Planning - MEETING! (Almost forgot!) Review/revise lesson plans. Reading (Spare). Update Goodreads! Call to set up testing for ADHD. NEED TO WORK ON SCRIPTS! ChatGPT update; Source v Search Engine; Taxes scripts. SHOOT POETRY VIDEO. Finish taxes script!
    5. English class - Sentence structure / Speedwrite 6 / Act 2 reading / Hero-Villain choices. (Weekly SWE = CLOSER)
    6. Lifting.
    7. Check on books and dishes. Continue organizing office and setting aside space for books.
    8. Evening: Livestream. Dinner: Salad. Drink more water. No, more. Keep the pitcher in the fridge full. You're not actually hungry. Make some tea. Drink more water! Update JFT.
    9. Bedtime: Gratitude journal. Update IG. Therapy exercises: crunches, push-ups, squats, ankle lifts, box jumps, plank. Meds. Floss, rinse, brush teeth.
    10. Upcoming: Set up digital portfolio. Get elastic for shoes & take to shoe repair. Saturday YMCA/workshop. Park walk? Sun no RC; museum / podcast. Take Natalie, pick up bookcase? When to work on Clois & Stuffy? Need to purchase and install doors. Where is my list of core values? YIKES. Roadhouse video Thurs before therapy; lunch @ indian restaurant; pick up meds; C appt.

    Scale goals
    End of 2017: 174.6
    End of 2018: 189.2
    End of 2019: 196.4
    End of 2020: 187.4
    End of 2021: 194.4
    End of 2022: 201.2
    Today: 200.4

    Long-term goals/progress

    1. Professional / read current research. 2. Professional / present at conferences. 3. Professional / publish scholarly articles. 4. Professional / observe student needs and develop supports. 5. Professional / complete a doctorate. 6. Personal / retire comfortably. 7. Personal / renovate house. 8. Community / local progress. 9. Community / time with friends & family. 10. Medical/fitness.

    1. Research: Five paragraph essay. How student attitudes affect standardized test results; student surveys.

    2. Presenting: Promote YT channel. Invite guests. Record mini-lessons.

    3. Publishing: Read one journal article weekly; respond in a blog post. Clois for CWG. S&F for YT channel. Goodreads purchase list for McKay’s. Weekly blog series: Weekly Wishes (Monday) and Weekly Wins (Friday).

    4. Observed student needs: Changing words between parts of speech (vocabulary/grammar). Synthesizing info from multiple sources, drawing conclusions (RI/W). EFFECTIVE transitions (W). Every day v everyday; any one v anyone (grammar). Sub/obj pronouns & structure (grammar). Poss v pl nouns (grammar). Short nonfic from Lat Amer/Africa/Asia (World Lit). ALA conference registration by March.

    5. Doctorate: Research programs, requirements, resources, cost, timeline.

    6. Retirement: Update name on JSSB acct. Check investments. Theater CV. Entertainment experience. Duolingo/Lang8.

    7. House: Floor joists. Siding. Gutters. Floors.

    8. Local progress: Library. Theater. PC2V. City/county govt. Community kitchen. She Should Run vision statement. Ugly Christmas sweater. Push for diversity. Turn left!

    9. Friends & extended family: Organize photos. Write postcards. Call weekly! Look for activities to do with friends. Purchase doll with long hair; practice French braid. Dance: tap, salsa, samba.

    10. Immediate family: 20m room cleaning daily. When room is clean, nap together. Zoo? Drive white car together; practice solo driving. Load books in crate for McKay's. Work on staying home solo when dark. When is annual checkup? When is next therapy appt? Discuss regressive behaviors & becoming nonverbal when upset.

    11. Medical: YMCA classes. Lift @ lunch. Maintain @ 155 w defined muscle tone. At 189, 1pr black 1pr white leggings; purple All-Stars. 179, 2 Svaha Rachel dresses. 169 suit - Indochino? 159 swing dance lessons. Talk to PCP about feet (cannot do calf raises, pushups, planks, mountain climbers, etc.) Also back and shoulder pain. Why can’t I sleep better? Is ADHD a possible factor? Dentist April 19 11a. Therapy Feb 9 10A; Cora OBG 245P. How to respond to regressive behavior? Obgyn Mar 15 11a.

    12. Just for fun: Start sketching dragon on a pile of books, offering one to the armored knight, & banner that reads "Treasure should not be hoarded / It should be shared."

    WFTY: Priorities. Weight is trending down pretty steadily, and that feels good. And teaching is going absolutely GREAT. I feel like Beyoncé in the classroom... only with a much smaller audience!
    2020 WFTY: Progress. 2021 WFTY: Persistence. 2022 WFTY: Focus.

    Others I like: Community, Connection, Values (list), ?Patience, Cultivate, Explore, Compassion/Empathy, Rest, Brilliance/Radiance, Hope, Tactics, Joy, Solidarity, Renewal, Camaraderie, Shield
  • mytime6630
    mytime6630 Posts: 4,250 Member
    jft, weD
    1. LOG ALL FOOD
    2. CONCENTRATE ON WATER

    Thats it for today .. keeping it simple as for health goals. Busy day again .. I've missed reading back, but will try and get on here tonite!

    Weighins
    SW: Jan 1st 207.6
    SW: Feb 1: 202.4 (Down 5.2#)
    **********************
    Weekly weigh-in... I will weigh myself every Sunday. I choose that day because it will help me over the weekends, which is usually my worse time.
    Sunday, Jan 1: 207.8 starting weight
    Jan 8: 204.6 -3 pounds. Had a OK week.. did ok about 5 days. My 1st goal is to be under 200 by feb 1st
    Jan 15: 203.8 (Total-4#)--- This was my weight on friday, before my son came, so I am going to record that weight. My weight this morning was actually 206 .. but that was from eating way too much the past 3 days. So I am using my lower weight rather than this higher rate.. goes to show though how much our scale can go up in a few day! Hopefully it will go back down as quickly as it went up!
    Jan 29: 205.0 .. not going in the right direction, but,, I need to look at where I started. Down almost 2.8 for the month.... and count that as a win. Even thought this month the scale has been up and down all month.. my own fault!
    **********************
    My 4 Step Plan for goal setting success
    Where do I want to be at the end of the year: Weight 175 -- goal weight for my height
    To help me achieve my goal I will write down what I eat each day, and concentrate on drinking more water.
    This week I will log all my food, and drink more water to help me achieve my primary goal. I will practice positive self-talk throughout the month of february
    Next week I will plan my evening snacks to help me achieve my primary goal, and eat only what I have planned.
    Next month I will l plan meals 5x a week to help me achieve my primary goal.
    *********************
    A little about me:
    My name is Joan, I will be 72 years old this summer. I am very tall, 5'11", and hope to lose 25-30 pounds. I have 2 grown children, have been married to my husband for 46 years; love to garden, love to walk and exercise, and love to sew.
    My weight history:
    SW Year 2017: 220-217
    SW Year 2018: 195.5
    SW Year 2019 : 206 -- met my goal weight of 178 on December, 2019
    SW Year 2020: 182.6 -- gained 15 pounds through the pandemic
    SW Year 2021: 195
    SW Year 2022: 190 - reached 182 in August. But weight on a slow increase the rest of
    SW Year 2023: 207.8
    Weight Goals:
    SW, Jan 1st, 2023: 207.8
    1st goal weight: 199 - reach this by March
    2nd goal weight: 180 - reach this by July
    Ultimate goal weight: 170-175 - reach this by October
    Monthly Goals:
    Feb: 202 --- actual weight was 202.4, so not too far off.
    March: 198
    April: 194 (Hubby and my 46 wedding anniversary)
    May: 190
    June: 186
    July: 182 (my birthday)
    August: 178
    Sept: 174
    October: 170--- Ultimate goal weight
    November: learn to maintain 170
    December: learn to maintain 170
    Personal Goals
    26. To have a better relationship with food. To not think I have to be perfect, and to realize that if I have a bad day .. that is OK. Get right back on track. To give it 80/20 --- meaning if I can stay on track 80% of the time, that is OK. It does not have to be 100%
    27. To keep exercising, and do more strength training
    28. To learn how to plan meals and snacks better.
    29. To listen to podcasts and watch youtubers.. improve my way of thinking about food
    30. To sew at least 20 lap quilts for nursing homes; make at least 25 fidget quilts; make 100 more bears for hospital.
    6 . To declutter our house.. keep only what I use!
    My word of the year for 2023: Transformation. I want to "transform" my thoughts about food to have a healthier attitude for food .. it is nourishment, not just enjoyment, and transform my body in get in the best shape I can... to strength so as to avoid injuries.

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  • azulvioleta6
    azulvioleta6 Posts: 4,195 Member
    edited February 2023
    azulvioleta6 wrote: »
    DAY 9: February 7; JFT I will:
    1. Track all food :)
    2. 10,000 steps :) 10,333
    3. 8 C liquid :)
    4. 5 freggies :)
    5. Swim at least half a mile :smiley: swam a whole mile--aquatic center in new town is AMAZING!
    6. Finish planting seeds in indoor greenhouse :smile:
    8. Food prep…soup, turkey burgers :)
    DAY 10: February 8; JFT I will:
    1. Track all food
    2. 10,000 steps
    3. 8 C liquid
    4. 5 freggies
    5. Do gym workout or heavy garden work

  • TerriRichardson112
    TerriRichardson112 Posts: 18,822 Member
    🫶🌱💎🌿🪞🫶🪞🌿💎🌱🫶
    🫶🌱💎 February 2023 💎🌱🫶
    🫶🌱💎🌿🪞🫶🪞🌿💎🌱🫶
    • January. Update
    Focus for January:
    • Recovery time. Avoid added sugar
    • work on strength and flex
    • Adhere to Daily Solid Habits
    Avoid added sugar!
    This worked well. It definitely help the inflammation in my joints.
    Strength/flex:
    Very pleased that %age body muscle has increased, and weight has stayed steady. I always worry when I up my strength workouts.
    Solid HabitsVery happy with these
    February focus:
    📍Be more proactive
    📍Adhere to Solid Habits
    PROACTIVITY - RIGHT THIS MINUTE initiative
    💎💎💎💎💎💎💎
    💎
    Current Solid Habits
    👌🏻👌🏻👌🏻👌🏻👌🏻👌🏻👌🏻
    👌🏻

    🫶 Terri
    David at ‘Raptitude’ suggested using a RIGHT NOW LIST to avoid procrastination. I’ve been trying it out and have adapted it slightly, and it is working.
    📍I have written RTM in big letters on post-its and posted them strategically.
    📍When see one of my notes I will do a small task immediately > 5 times during the day.



  • cschmitz110515
    cschmitz110515 Posts: 3,601 Member
    edited February 2023
    SherryRueter wrote: »
    @pridesabtch It sounds like the perfect night to go to Bible study! You need God to refocus your mindset. Just for today...just get the hard stuff done, just for today, do the things you need to do regardless of "feeling like it". Building the habit of discipline. You've got this! I say this all JUST as much for ME as I do for you. Maybe even more for me. Because its the habit of discipline that I need.

    EXCELLENT post! Thank you!

    emgracewrites wrote: »
    I cleaned out my fridge and now I’m completely overwhelmed by the amount of dirty dishes I have and just generally feel like a lazy slob. How can one person generate so much mess? And there’s no one else I can rely on to clean it up. Most of the time I’m perfectly happy being single but sometimes it’s really lonely.

    Your post made me laugh, because this was me pre-hubby. We married in our 40s, first marriage for both of us. I was a single living alone for many years, and mostly I loved it. I remember years ago a supervisor, who had married young & started a family soon after, commenting to me being single was great, because I could do whatever I wanted, whenever I wanted. I laughed and told him, yes, I could. But I alone was responsible for my laundry, groceries, cooking, car maintenance, etc. And when I was sick, there was no one there to take care of me. He rethought his comment LOL.
  • cschmitz110515
    cschmitz110515 Posts: 3,601 Member
    JFT 2/8 W
    1) Move hourly
    2) Walked dog 4.32 mi :sunglasses: sunny, blue sky, mild temps esp. for time of year & wonderful long walk = happy dog & happy me!
    3) Leftovers for supper (penne sausage bake or hamburger soup) / net calories zero / 72+ oz. water
    4) Wished ex-roomie happy bday on FB / contacted PZ for F evening event / contacted MJSW for tax appt & funeral/visitation notice / washed dishes / digital declutter / clear some papers / another ta-da?
    5) Floss / retainers / pray

    Eating yesterday and some time before that has been crap. Didn't bother to log, but back at it today. On the plus side, dog and I have had wonderful walks this week. One day, we saw 3 deer twice (out and back in woods by road to botanical garden). Taking advantage of above normal temps. Lots of snow has melted since Sat. but we have a weather advisory for 2-4" wet heavy snow tomorrow. Winter is not done yet.

    100 days from now reminder: What I do today gets me where I want to be. [Feb. 1 - May 11]

    About me:
    I'm Carmela
    This is my lifestyle. It's. Not. A. Diet.
    Height 5'4"
    65 yrs old
    Reside in Green Bay, WI, USA

    2023 Goals:
    1) Ultimate goal weight 150#... I'll be satisfied if I can get back down to 160# this year
    • Post weekly weigh-in on MFP for accountability. Saturday a.m. is my "official" weigh-in day, and I track daily on a separate app (for the visual). My digital scale only shows half pound increments & I'm too cheap to buy a fancier scale.
    • Take measurements & log on MFP every month end ~ 1.31.23 ack!
    2) Plan meals most days & prelog meals/snacks whenever possible on MFP
    • Try new recipes now that I have the time
      January: parsnip/potato mash; St. Louis gooey butter cake (Mom's bday)
    3) Exercise 5-6x per week (minimum 4x)
    January 1x6 days, 1x5 days, 2x4 days
    • Walk dog 3-4 miles, treadmill when necessary in winter, weights/my home version of circuit & other x-training
    • Continue PT (physical therapy) exercises to strengthen arthritic knees & hip flexor
    4) MapMyWalk app You Vs. the Year 1,023km challenge started on Jan. 1
    January 48.14 miles
    • In 2022 I logged 500.4 miles, or 805km. Not the full challenge, but with knee issues early in year, I was happy to get this far.
    5) At least 7,500 steps per day
    • I can earn $10 every month on my Medicare Advantage Plan with 10+ days of 7,500 steps :smiley:
    6) Participate in my favorite area races ~ I walk, I do not run
    • Registered for Seroogy's Valentine 5K on 2.4.23 ~ skipped 2023 due to frigid temps with wind chill around 0F... didn't want a repeat of overuse injury from last winter. In 2022, I had to cancel race due to inflammation in knees from overuse & arthritis (medico advised).
    • register for Bellin 10K on 6.10.23 ~ 2022 first time in person since 2019 & not as large of turnout, still 4,000+ participants
    • register for Packers 5K ~ date TBD
    • register for Bellin Women's 5K ~ date TBD (1,000+ for all races in 2022)
    • watch for other events to possibly add
    7) Be considerate and loving to hubby and have fun together
    • Excellent goal previous years, to be continued
    8) Make efforts to keep in touch with parents, siblings and friends (most live in other towns or states)
    • Visit parents 1-2 times each month, phone calls in between ~ they're in mid to late 80s and live 90 miles away
    • Monthly contact with former colleagues/others in town, now that I'm retired
      1.12.23 lunch w/ C
    9) Continue to declutter bedroom, home office, basement, books in living room
    • Made great progress on first floor of house in 2022, keep going
    Word for 2022-23: Tenacity ~ persistent determination; the mental strength to resist opposition, danger or hardship
  • more_freggies76
    more_freggies76 Posts: 3,033 Member
    Hi everyone - back from my trip!

    Hour commitment - I won't eat again until tomorrow.

    I won't weigh until Monday, Feb 13.
  • Snowflake1968
    Snowflake1968 Posts: 6,917 Member
    I’m home. Very tired because I was up for 20.5 hours yesterday after many sleepless nights. We got home and settled about 230am I had to get up and work today at 715.

    I’m off to bed. Will catch up on sleep and start posting goals on Sunday again.
    I gained 4 of the 5lbs I lost in January back on this trip. Too much junk, no exercise and stress.
  • cschmitz110515
    cschmitz110515 Posts: 3,601 Member
    Recap 2/8 W
    1) Move hourly :smiley: 14.4K 32 floors 11/14
    2) Walked dog 4.32 mi :sunglasses: sunny, blue sky, mild temps esp. for time of year & wonderful long walk = happy dog & happy me!
    3) Leftovers for supper (penne sausage bake or hamburger soup) / net calories zero / 72+ oz. water :) better than lately... net cals green 174, sodium -135, fiber excellent, protein & carbs good, calcium low-ish, 72 oz. water
    4) Wished ex-roomie happy bday on FB / contacted PZ for F evening event / contacted MJSW for tax appt & funeral/visitation notice / washed dishes / digital decluttering / cleared some papers / another ta-da? balanced bank accts, updated budget s/s :smiley:
    5) Floss / retainers / pray :smiley: 3x

    JFT 2/9 R
    1) Move hourly / 7,500+ steps
    2) PT exercises
    3) Net calories zero / 72+ oz. water
    4) Put clean dishes away / contact pharmacy / contact WWW / schedule cc pmt / prep bday card for niece / digital declutter / clear some papers / other ta-da's?
    5) Funeral visitation 4-7 if weather/road conditions ok
    6) Floss / retainers / pray

    100 days from now reminder: What I do today gets me where I want to be. [Feb. 1 - May 11]

    About me:
    I'm Carmela
    This is my lifestyle. It's. Not. A. Diet.
    Height 5'4"
    65 yrs old
    Reside in Green Bay, WI, USA

    2023 Goals:
    1) Ultimate goal weight 150#... I'll be satisfied if I can get back down to 160# this year
    • Post weekly weigh-in on MFP for accountability. Saturday a.m. is my "official" weigh-in day, and I track daily on a separate app (for the visual). My digital scale only shows half pound increments & I'm too cheap to buy a fancier scale.
    • Take measurements & log on MFP every month end ~ 1.31.23 ack!
    2) Plan meals most days & prelog meals/snacks whenever possible on MFP
    • Try new recipes now that I have the time
      January: parsnip/potato mash; St. Louis gooey butter cake (Mom's bday)
    3) Exercise 5-6x per week (minimum 4x)
    January 1x6 days, 1x5 days, 2x4 days
    • Walk dog 3-4 miles, treadmill when necessary in winter, weights/my home version of circuit & other x-training
    • Continue PT (physical therapy) exercises to strengthen arthritic knees & hip flexor
    4) MapMyWalk app You Vs. the Year 1,023km challenge started on Jan. 1
    January 48.14 miles
    • In 2022 I logged 500.4 miles, or 805km. Not the full challenge, but with knee issues early in year, I was happy to get this far.
    5) At least 7,500 steps per day
    • I can earn $10 every month on my Medicare Advantage Plan with 10+ days of 7,500 steps :smiley:
    6) Participate in my favorite area races ~ I walk, I do not run
    • Registered for Seroogy's Valentine 5K on 2.4.23 ~ skipped 2023 due to frigid temps with wind chill around 0F... didn't want a repeat of overuse injury from last winter. In 2022, I had to cancel race due to inflammation in knees from overuse & arthritis (medico advised).
    • register for Bellin 10K on 6.10.23 ~ 2022 first time in person since 2019 & not as large of turnout, still 4,000+ participants
    • register for Packers 5K ~ date TBD
    • register for Bellin Women's 5K ~ date TBD (1,000+ for all races in 2022)
    • watch for other events to possibly add
    7) Be considerate and loving to hubby and have fun together
    • Excellent goal previous years, to be continued
    8) Make efforts to keep in touch with parents, siblings and friends (most live in other towns or states)
    • Visit parents 1-2 times each month, phone calls in between ~ they're in mid to late 80s and live 90 miles away
    • Monthly contact with former colleagues/others in town, now that I'm retired
      1.12.23 lunch w/ C
    9) Continue to declutter bedroom, home office, basement, books in living room
    • Made great progress on first floor of house in 2022, keep going
    Word for 2022-23: Tenacity ~ persistent determination; the mental strength to resist opposition, danger or hardship
  • pridesabtch
    pridesabtch Posts: 2,445 Member
    edited February 2023
    pridesabtch wrote: »

    JFT Wednesday
    - Gym :(
    - Work by 8:00 :smiley:
    - Meetings :smiley:
    - More meetings :smiley:
    - Home by 4:45 :smiley:
    - Shower :(
    - Trivia :smiley:
    - Home by 10:00 :smiley:
    - Bed by 11:00 :smiley:

    Yesterday was ok. Sierra called me. She gave me some updates and asked about coming home this weekend. She has ben benched from crew practices because of her nutrition and weight (95lb), so she thought she might come visit (it isn't definite yet, but I'm treating it as if it is). Of course, I said yes. I so want to give her a hug. Part of me is afraid to see her though. I did see a picture the other day, so hopefully I won't be shocked by her frail appearance. I'm sure I'll cry, but I will try to hold it together. Though things are bad for her, she did get some good news about the intensive outpatient therapy program. She gets to start next Tuesday instead of waiting until 2/28. I'll take any little bit of good news I can get at this point.

    Self care has really taken a hit lately. I do good to brush my teeth and make it to work. I had an appointment with my therapist this morning. Well, I joined Tim for an appointment so we could talk about how we are dealing with Sierra. It's been a long time since I've seen Mike. Yes, Tim and I go to the same therapist, sometimes we go separately, sometime together. It works for us. It was nice having someone to help Tim and I talk about our fears and our difficulties. We've been putting off telling Vanessa about Sierra's issues, but Mike agreed that it was time to share. Last thing we want is for Vanessa to be caught off guard when Sierra shows up tomorrow. Vanessa and Sierra aren't close, but a lot of that is that Vanessa thinks Sierra is perfect and can't live up to expectations. We've worked hard over the years not to compare them, but the rivalry still happened. I think it will be hard for V to see her sister struggling. It may even bring them closer. See I'm trying to put a positive spin on this.

    JFT Thursday
    - Up at 6:45 :(
    - Shower :(
    - Therapy at 8:00 :smiley:
    - Work by 9:30 :smiley:
    - Meetings :smiley:
    - Check in with my MFP peeps
    - Work on Presentations for next week
    - Home by 4:00
    - Shower
    - Talk to V
    - Trivia
    - Bed by 11:00
    SherryRueter wrote: »
    @pridesabtch It sounds like the perfect night to go to Bible study! You need God to refocus your mindset. Just for today...just get the hard stuff done, just for today, do the things you need to do regardless of "feeling like it". Building the habit of discipline. You've got this! I say this all JUST as much for ME as I do for you. Maybe even more for me. Because its the habit of discipline that I need.

    Thank you. You are right, but I didn't go, I just felt too vulnerable and emotional. Typically, a Bible study group would be a great place to share, but this group is a little complicated. One member is actually my boss. He wasn't my boss when I joined the group. I don't really want to break down in front of him or for him to see how broken I feel right now. I've also really been struggling with anger towards God. I'm not proud of that, but it's true. I know the bad stuff doesn't come from God, but I needed to be angry with someone other than myself. The guilt I feel over this being a hereditary disease is immense. It weighs on me. As my therapist told me today, "God is a father, he knows when you hurt and wants to help. He won't hold your anger against you." That made me feel a little better.
  • more_freggies76
    more_freggies76 Posts: 3,033 Member
    Hour commitment - Had brunch today because of lunch meeting. Now I won't eat again until after 5 pm. No desserts the rest of the day. Can still have my dose of metamusal.
  • more_freggies76
    more_freggies76 Posts: 3,033 Member
    Hour commitment - I won't eat again until tomorrow. So glad to be back to my own food!
  • emgracewrites
    emgracewrites Posts: 478 Member
    Goals for 2/10
    - yoga
    - Crochet
    - Log all food and water
    - 40 oz of fluids

    Had the same goals for yesterday and didn’t meet any of them. Really need to get my head back in the game.

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