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JenniferCayabyab

Hi there! 33 year old female, 5'5" and 255 lbs. Honestly haven't thought much of my weight in years and was under the blissfull ignorance I was still the same 230 I was at my doctor's appointment last summer 😆 Not that 230 is "ideal" for my height, but I digress. The only reasons I realized I gained was all of my pants are getting a little tight, and last night at work I was walking on one of our bulk floor scales and happened to look up at the display and was somewhat shocked I had gained so much in only 6 months. I know a lot of reasons why I've gained but this post will already be long so I'll spare those details lol.

I have struggled horribly with mental health for years and last year finally saw huge breakthrough and have been in a great place finally! It's still a journey itself, always will be, but I am very proud of the progress I've made. One thing I never really noticed creep up on me is I let my physical appearance completely go, as well as hygiene for a couple of years. I've gotten my hygiene back on track but my teeth took a ton of damage, so last years goal was to fix my smile. I have a few fillings left in February but besides that I accomplished that goal.

This year I want to focus on taking care of my body again and start the process of shedding off all the weight I've gained over the years. I don't persay feel like I look "horrible". I have confidence in myself and know my size doesn't determine my worth, but I still feel like you can be confident wherever you're at while still thinking you look better in a smaller size. To me it's kinda like picking a color to wear, I look good in almost anything, but feel like I look best in blues, purples, or blacks. My ultimate goal is 215 (the weight I was before having any kids). I'm in no huge rush, it took my 12 years to get to this weight so it's gonna take time to lose it. I already know I'm super guilty of snacking on unhealthy things when I'm bored so that's going to be a big lifestyle change I need to adopt to find something else to do. I'm hoping keeping a record of everything I put in my mouth makes me more mindful of how much it actually is. I used to have a really physical job,but took another position that's much less physical in August so I'm needing to also find a way to fit some sort of exercise into my life. I go in for blood work next month, but last summer everything looked great, the only weight related health issue I have is high blood pressure so hopeful that I can get that under control as well!

For everyone still here thanks for reading my novella 🤣🤣 I've always been a long winded person 🥴🥴