Black Team Week 14!!!!

ksproston

i'll have to watch my trucker mouth then!

i wanted to share something really cool with everyone, i have been accepted as a research assistant for a professor at NYU, when I am currently going to YorkU in Toronto...(funny how they are both York's, at least I think it is). I am going to be researching the how our sexuality is socialized through pornography and the normalization of violence and effects on relationships. only bad part is...my university may not accept this as an actual independent study just because the professor isn't from york! ridiculous! i'm still gonna do it, i feel honoured!

yayyyyyyyy

i am also doing c25k, w1d3! yayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy!

Congratulations! What an honor!

ksproston

Ticker alert!

AmandaJ

Kati, oh my gosh, are you at your goal! You are doing awesome!

ksproston

I am for today. I'm a "weigh everyday" girl, so I know that it may only last a day, but for today I'M ENJOYING it!

Thanks so much!

arewethereyet

I am for today. I'm a "weigh everyday" girl, so I know that it may only last a day, but for today I'M ENJOYING it!

Thanks so much!

oohwah, oowah!! that is my disco yell!!

Yeah Kati for her goal!!! You inspire me!

:smooched: Jeannie

foxyforce

I am for today. I'm a "weigh everyday" girl, so I know that it may only last a day, but for today I'M ENJOYING it!

Thanks so much!

weight fluctuations will always happen, way to achieve your goal

SatelliteCrush80

Ticker alert!

Yay Kati! Congrats on making your goal!! :bigsmile:

Tri_Dad

Way to go Kati! Congrats on hitting the goal. that is AWESOME!!!!!!!:drinker: :flowerforyou:

familygirl37167

Ticker alert!

great job isn't it a great feeling?

ksproston

Thank you guys! Your support means so much.

I've got so many things to be proud of and thankful for.

72lori

Great job Kati!

72lori

Our vacations, people, do not have to equal weight gain. that is bull****-- anybody who tries to tell you differently has no flippin' clue. either we're different people today than we started this journey, or we're not-- I'm thrilled to know I am. it has been an amazing journey with all of you.

don't stop changing, growing, getting better emotionally, physically, mentally, spiritually. If we stop trying to be better, we may as well die-- don't stop, don't give up, never, ever, ever, ever--

I read this from Marla early this AM. Been thinking ever since.

Been wondering how much of a changed person I am.

I admit, I let vacation win, but sort of like letting your kid win at a game, I think in the back of my head I knew what I was doing. It was time away from the norm, time to let lose, time to enjoy. So I did but not without beating myself up the whole time telling myself how bad it was.

In the past I would have indulged even more, not cared what I ate. Certainly not stressed the whole time over my food choices. Granted I made bad ones, but at least I thought about them. That counts for something, right?

I also realize I have a long way to go to truly be changed. I am not past eating things I shouldn't, things that still make me feel bad. I am not past eating too much, the whole time knowing it's wrong and how I'll pay later.

There was a time, when I first started this journey, I did not do those things. I did not cheat, I did not cave. What gives? What did I let slip away?

Is it the newness is gone? Is it that I've grown tired of it day in and day out?

I'm not totally upset over what I allowed myself to do on vacation. I sort of figure if a few times a year, I go away, let myself have fun, gain a few pounds and get it right back off- no harm done. I did it fully knowing what I was doing, so I pay the price. The price is on the scale, the price is my pants feel tighter, the price is knowing that I should have been stronger, been more faithful to my goals. The price is feeling like crap from eating poorly and not getting enough exercise.

What I am mostly upset with myself about is not being able to pull it back together. Right now, I am not together. I need to figure out how to get there. Quick. I have days I think I'm mentally back and then I do so crappy eating I know I'm not.

So Marla. I am a changed person, but I realize I have a lot more changing to go to get to where I really need to be in order to make this a forever for the rest of my life thing. Thanks for making me think!

AmandaJ

Where oh where is all the black team tonight??

Marla64

Lori-- that's what it's all about, my friend-- lifting each other up-- that's what teammates do--

Check the ticker my friends-- as of right now, which is 12:56 a.m. I am 3.5 pounds lighter than when I left. And that's a night time weigh in-- I had to change the ticker, and I'll weigh again in the morning and see if there's anymore.

I'm glad I could make you think-- it's all I've had time to do this week, which has been incredible. I had a lot of time to think and pray, and contemplate and get things in perspective-- met some incredible people, saw some incredible things-- cried a lot. But good tears--

At some point recently I'd complained about Caleb on one side of my pulling my hair, and Joshie on the other picking at my mole-- I couldn't wait to get home for both! So, it's been a good week to remind me of a lot of things I'd allowed myself to forget and to realize a lot of things I'd been too blind to see-- so all in all, good stuff.

On the language front-- I have to laugh-- the momma who scolds you all for *kitten* used bull**** in a a post and nobody said boo-- hahahahaha-- too funny.

good night my friends-- :smooched:

72lori

Awesome work on the ticker Marla! I bet it's even better this morning! Vacation agrees with you.

Thinking time is always great. So often we get so wrapped up in our daily lives that we forget what really matters. Last night my 12 year old came into the room and was talking to me. I put down my laptop, looked him in the eye when we talked, before long the 11 year old joined us and we all 3 sat and chatted and talked for over an hour. It was wonderful.

I realized that many times I talk to the kids when I'm busy. I'm folding laundry, I'm running around the house, I'm cooking, I'm on the computer doing nothing or with 4 of them another one interupts. I rarely just sit down and give them 100% of my attention. It's not that I don't pay attention to them, but it's shared attention wih something else. That needs to change.

The older the kids get the more they need to know I am there for them and that they can talk to me. I don't want them to remember me as the parent who was too busy for them most of time. Ahh, another goal to add to the list. Another way to improve myself.

72lori

This is how bad it is:

I had a splitting headache all day yesterday. Hubs went to Dallas for the week. I ordered pizza. I was scarfing down mine and my 9 year old says, "Mommy, why aren't you eating healthy anymore?"

Seriously busted! From the mouth of babes came the slap in my face I may have needed.

arewethereyet

KATI see my AV... that was for you my friend

"Weigh Everyday Girl!!"

:flowerforyou:

familygirl37167

Ok Black team,

I need some help!!!! I dont know whats going on,

First off yesterday about 3:00 I was starving so I indulged not a little alot, I was so mad at myself, I was even worked up enough about it I was sick literally.

You all know I hit goal weight back in July, so my thing was to lose an extra 5 pounds that way if I wanted to have a eat what I want afternoon I could and enjoy it a little bit.

Well, I got down to 148, and goal weight was 150 so I had 2 pounds to play with, so this morning I got on the scale and gained to 150 exactly. Why am I upset with myself? I have not went over my goal weight which is what I said I didnt want to do? I dont know I am confused, I have not went on maintance yet because I am scared, I will fail....I know ya'll are saying "Tamara, you have come this far you know what you are doing!!" But its harder then that.

I dont know why I was starving yesterday and it seems to hit me in the afternoon and I am eating pretty much all day, what I am suppost to of course. Nothing has changed the rountine is still the same the foods are still the same, maybe my body is tired of the same ole food I eat everyday of my life.

Well hope so one has some words of encouragement, I am NOT gonna fail at this, I have come to far.

I am exteremely thirsty, I have already drank 6 cups of water and its only 8 am. Some of my weight maybe water weight but still my scale says 150 when it used to say 148. Sad sad sad..


Or am I just having a pity party for myself?????

Nonibug

Just have time to log my food and say hi to everyone! I'll try to get back later on
Miss you all!

jimswmn

I've been missing in action because my grandson was here. Okay so technically the g baby and his mom and dad but you get my drift. They are back home again so I have no excuses.:grumble:

Good job on the losses, kids back to school, vacations, new exercises,etc!

arewethereyet

Great day at the gym!!

Have a good day Black Team:glasses:

AmandaJ

Just got back from a 33 minute walk / run, didn't let my heartrate get under 75%, mostly in the high 80%s, low 90%s. . I so wanted to go longer but 5 year old in stroller was crying. She has new seizure medicine and obviously she is not used to it. Anyway, what I got in was wonderful!

Need to have willpower, three birthday parties this week-end. My sisters, my nephews and my daughter. Three different cakes and I am trying to not eat sugar. Oh, this will be hard!

Have a wonderful week-end my dear friends!!:flowerforyou:

renae77

Hey everyone! Dropping in to see what's going on. My daughter and I spent the morning swimming and we were in the pool for about 3 1/2 hours today. It was nice to relax and enjoy the day. Catch you all later!

foxyforce

On the language front-- I have to laugh-- the momma who scolds you all for *kitten* used bull**** in a a post and nobody said boo-- hahahahaha-- too funny.

good night my friends-- :smooched:

i totally noticed, but like...posts and posts later! so i figured it was an old joke that i was just too slow to get lol

Girlmom282109

So I am not offically back from vacation yet but after 2 weeks of eating all the crap that hubbys parents served us I only gained 3 pounds. YAY!!!! I will WILL WILL be back to it tuesday morning. Hope everyone is doing great!!!

AmandaJ

Hey Sam! :flowerforyou:

familygirl37167

Ok people I am back on the wagon full fleged today promise, My stomach is tore up from the floor up, dont even know if I am gonna make it at work this morning, I dont even want food thats how bad I have eaten the last 2 days.

I am NOT doing this to myself anymore!!!! Hope everyone has a great day, I am gonna attempt to go to work.

arewethereyet

Ok people I am back on the wagon full fleged today promise, My stomach is tore up from the floor up, dont even know if I am gonna make it at work this morning, I dont even want food thats how bad I have eaten the last 2 days.

I am NOT doing this to myself anymore!!!! Hope everyone has a great day, I am gonna attempt to go to work.

Tamara, we learn one mistake at a time, unfortunately!

Thanks to a well time McDs cheeseburger and fries I will NEVER eat one again. Starving? Eat grass before I would eat their burger:laugh:

Hope you feel better quickly!!

:flowerforyou: Jeannie

arewethereyet

So I am not offically back from vacation yet but after 2 weeks of eating all the crap that hubbys parents served us I only gained 3 pounds. YAY!!!! I will WILL WILL be back to it tuesday morning. Hope everyone is doing great!!!

Hey Sam!! Hope you had a great time!!

arewethereyet

I've been missing in action because my grandson was here. Okay so technically the g baby and his mom and dad but you get my drift. They are back home again so I have no excuses.:grumble:

Good job on the losses, kids back to school, vacations, new exercises,etc!

Lucky you! Ahhh. sigh.....a grandbaby. It isnt like I want any one of my kids to have a baby right now............I just want a grandbaby. :laugh: :laugh: