OMG I bought a string bikini!!

MireyGal76 · March 2013

This may seem like a "whatever" moment for a lot of people, but it is huge for me.

When I was in school, I was mocked. A lot. For being tall (6'1") fat (I wasn't) stupid (I wasn't) unpopular (I was) and geeky (I was). I was nicknamed sasquatch, and told that noone would ever date me.

I lived that identity and have fought with it for over twenty years.

I have never been overweight, maybe at most 20 pounds, but in my HEAD, I saw obese.

People have probably seen me around here, strutting my abs, and they may have thought I was so full of myself. Heck, look, here she goes posting another thread. But I'm here to say that I have slaughtered myself so many times for how I look, that those thoughts are so inaccurate they're unbelievable.

It is because of this site, that I am FINALLY learning to see me... for me...

Now, enough of that bs... (as in... I'm dropping that topic, and walking away from that past for good)..

I have always wanted a string bikini. Why? I don't know. Maybe because it represents the consummate of sexy? Or maybe because I thought I could never have one.... regardless I wanted one. And I would try them on, and hate them, and actually get emotionally upset, and leave.

Today I did it again. I tried on a string, and got emotional and hated it. So I sent a pic to a friend... and when I looked at the pic... it didn't look bad. So I tried a different pose... and that pic didn't look bad. And then all of a sudden.. what I was seeing in the mirror matched what I saw in the camera.

I wasn't seeing ME for ME... I was seeing me through the filter of all those mean things said to me.

So here you go, folks.. here is my new bikini... but more than that... HERE IS MY VICTORY OVER THOSE 20 YEAR OLD DEMONS!

RRRRRRRAAAAAAAWWWWWWWRRRRR!!!

theskinnylist · March 2013

Holy **** you've got a rockin body. Those abs!

ABS ABS ABS ABS ABS ABS ABS!!!!!!!!!!!

MommaKit79 · March 2013

AWESOME!!! You are absolutely AWESOME!!!! STRUT IT GIRLIE!!!!

BrettPGH · March 2013

This is inspirational, good on you, and HOT DAMN WOMAN!!

pastryari · March 2013

YAAAAAY. Own it, doll! :drinker:

bookworm_847 · March 2013

Wow, you look great! And good for you for the confidence to get that... I'm too shy and self-conscious to get a bikini like that. Like you, something like that symbolizes sexy to me, but it also screams confidence and being able to love one's self. So congrats!

ACepero79 · March 2013

Rock that 'kini this summer and show off those abs!

SoViLicious · March 2013

YES!

_crafty_ · March 2013

You are my effing hero :flowerforyou:

silvergurl518 · March 2013

jesus H, sandy. why do you have to have a model's body and a heart of gold?!?!??! I LOVE YOU!!!!! you look so freaking awesome and screw the haters! haters gonna hate. i was teased and mocked mercilessly growing up too (for a variety of reasons: flat as a pancake, high pitched voice, a nose i hadn't grown into, and kids caught onto my OCD and mimicked my compulsions--sigh). but we are not what the haters see! you are amazing and go rock that bikini!

Jacwhite22 · March 2013

You are awesome. And the suit looks great.

_Wonder_Woman_ · March 2013

Like I said... YOU make that Bikini look good!!!! YOU!!!!

I can relate to the begining of your post on soooooooooooooo many levels. My problem while growing up, was that I was way to skinny. Something I COULD NOT control. Then I had kids and BOOM, did things change.

You look gorgeous!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! That is all