I AM FAT BECAUSE.......

I really have no idea why. I've always been a clean eater, with a very manual job

I love food, all of it. I REALLY love beer, mostly all of it. I love drinking a lot of beer and getting food to sober me up at 2:00 am. Oh yeah, and I love to sleep until noon instead of working out.

1) I'm an emotional eater: If I'm stressed out or sad because I feel that my future is not so good, I eat. If I'm stressed out about something that is 'good', I don't eat.

2) Portion control. I generally eat healthy food, and I tend to over eat healthy foods!

I used to be fat because I ate too much an exercised too little. Now I eat just enough and exercise daily!

although I eat very healthily, I have a major problem with portion control, not to mention a weakness for wine!

I eat "fairly healthily" now and I share your weakness for wine. It makes good food taste better!

I think it is a combination of several factors. 10 Yrs ago I had to have an emergency total hysterectomy at the old age of 34 , I was not educated on the effects it would have on my body...but it was not a choice...Taking HRT was a choice, but at the time I needed to start the HRT , there was alot of news about it increasing the risk of breast cancer , so my Dr actually told me NOT to take it.
I was 5'5" and 125 lbs when I had surgery.
I never "exercised" but was active..I went dancing every week, swimming , biking, and my job was very physical.
About 6 months later my first grandson was born, I met my future husband ..

Within a yr I had moved in with my future husband, and I started gaining weight. He does not dance , swim , or go biking. He really is very inactive , and his habits became my habits. He also refuses to have any kind of chicken in the house, so where I was eating chicken and beans and rice before , now I was cooking beef almost everynight plus he loves southern fried foods , so I was cooking unhealthy CRAP .
One year after my first grandson was born , my daughter gave birth to another boy, and he had major birth defects. He died 10 months later , I was not handling it well..although , I NEVER understood HOW my Dr expected me to handle it..he prescribed xanax, ambian, and anti-depressants...I gained probaly 20 lbs and never even cared.
Needless to say, you are supposed to cry and be sad when a loved one , especially a baby dies.

Between that , and my husband , my Dad passed, and some other family tragedy, I was on anti depressants and the other meds for 6 yrs. Then my cat tripped me going down the stairs , and I fell down, I have two discs that ruptured , so the drs added vicodin to the toxic cocktail I was already taking. Vicodin really messed me up , I gained 55 lbs in 4 yrs after starting that MEDICATION.

We had moved from Texas, to Malaysia, then to Russia...I slipped in Russia and broke my ankle, so I was really up *kitten* creek cause crutches DO NOT work on ice. I was finally sent back to Texas for medical leave in the FALL of 2011..In February of this yr , I decided enough was enough. I detoxed off the meds on my own , at home..with the help of my daughters help..hubby did not want me going to rehab cause it might be BAD for HIS career. Yep he is a selfish fool, we are working on that. Or he is.
I have a digestive disease , and just in Sept , had to take some pain meds..I hated it , but this pain is not something tylenol or motrin will take care of. I have been taking anti biotics since Sept 17 and they were making me so nauseated..I cold not keep them down..My weakness, is Dr pepper, Lord , I wish they had never invented this stuff..and sweet tea..they are like my crack.
Fried okra, shrimp...and mashed potatos..lol..I can go without sweet foods, but savory foods are my problem. I was trained by a CIA teacher to cook , and that might be my downfall..:)
Another thing is some people who are skinny , see theirselves as fat everytime they look in the mirror...I am opposite, I never saw the fat till someone would take my photo..so I just avoided being photographed..stuck my head in the sand..and of course I felt horrible , amazing how just 20 lbs will alter your health ..

So it was not one thing that made me fat but several factors, and I still did not writer them ALL ...some I am still processing in my own head, and am not ready to even speak about them.:(

I have made several changes , I have been working out with a trainer , 5 times a week at Golds Gym. When I shop for food , I dont buy ANYTHING with a box top OR that has a COUPON..the coupons give you garbage to feed your body for free or almost free..not saving anything there..in the long run. I hate it too, cause I was an extreme couponer before the show ever came along.
I do not eat anything from a mix, or a box, if I cannot make it I dont want it...I dont eat FAKE foods..that is stuff sold as food, that is made from FOOD LIKE substances...the only food I take that comes in a package is a protein shake and the occasional dr pepper. Last week was different cause I had people cooking here and I ate what they ate..but it made me even sicker. I eat kale or spinach and beans almost EVERY day...I still love french fries , I told my trainer thats my recovery food:) but I do limit them to once maybe twice a week and I never order a large. I am not a huge meat eater, blame it on my Dad who took me hunting and tried to get me to gut a deer when I was 6 yrs old...I cannot stomach deer or lamb at all , and if it is runny , nope wont eat that either..I would make a wonderful vegitarian ..but my hubs says my talent would be wasted .

For some reason , my sense of smell has increased dramatically , in the past 10 yrs..and if it smells nasty < I am NOT eating it.
My weakness before I started eating whole foods, was raspberry ANYTHING....until I read how they make artificial raspberry flavoring..It comes from the ingredient castorium , which is gathered from the ANAL GLAND of the beaver...no more raspberry flavoring for me. I eat raspBERRYS but not anything made with artificial raspberry flavor.
Then the PINK SLIME made the news , now I do not eat ANY meat from Krogers, and no lunch meat that is anything remotly formed.
Ha , it drives my daughter and grandkids CRAZY...I do not ever eat at McDonalds, and will not take the kids there either..oor Burger King, Taco Bell, ...They miss the old me..lol.
Ok I wrote a book..sorry.

because I settled for a 2nd rate version of me because I was afraid of constantly failing which reinforced a constant negative self image. I didnt really believe that I deserved better, and when I did do well and achieve....I sabotaged my progress. I DESERVE BETTER FOR MYSELF.

BUMP to That!!!!!

Because I didn't think I was worthy of success or happiness. Being an emotional eater is a slippery slope...but I now know how fabulous I am, despite what size I am. I now want my outside to reflect the healthy beautiful person that is inside.

I thought that I had to eat twice as much as a normal person during my pregnancy...Gained so much excess weight!! After I had my daughter I THOUGHT that it would all go away. Turned out there was only an 15 pound difference!! All that I gained was mostly fat and I have been fighting to get it off for the past two years...

Because I didn't realise that caring about myself meant caring about my body.

Because I didn't realise that even what is considered a reasonable amount of excess fat can set your body up to malfunction.

Because I didn't have all the tools needed to get myself back in shape

Because it took me a long time to work through the idea of bad/good food

I now have a handle on it all..and I feel great!

I love sex and had two babies.
o.O