I seriously hate life..

Talk to your doctor. You may be suffering from depression.

Awe do you do any form of exersise?

Talk to your doctor. You may be suffering from depression.

^^^^ This

I don't want to say just get back on and tomorrow is a new day, because I know how frustrating that can be. Plus, you flat our said you aren't looking for that.

So what I CAN say and say with confidence is you are NOT alone. There are people that care about you, care about your health and care about you as a person. If right now trying to lose weight is too much stress, let it go for a little bit. Take a break. There is nothing wrong with needing a break.

The people that you are seeing that are eating whatever they want, they might not really. They could watch strictly what they eat when they aren't around other people. Or they could just be one of those lucky b*tches that can eat whatever they want. But, don't worry about them. Don't worry about what they are eating or doing, just worry about yourself. You are more important than to stress about what they are doing.

Also, if you are PMSing and you feel like you can't be satisfied no matter what you eat, eat anyway. Especially right now. If you are feeling depressed you are losing more of your "happy feelings" because you are losing blood, too (yes that is not at all scientifically worded, but I'm just saying this based on how I am). Being depressed is really hard for me when it is my time of month. I get MORE depressed.

You need to focus on yourself right now.

You can feel free to add me if you want.

Take it easy...do something nice for yourself. You can maintain your current weight for awhile if you want - no harm done, you'll give yourself a little break from the deficit while still being careful not to eat an amount where you would regain any of what you already worked so hard to lose. If the gym doesn't make you feel good, choose a low impact exercise and maybe read a good book while you do it. Allow yourself not to feel it's all or nothing.

Had the same conversation with a co worker the other day. She felt the very same way as you do right now. My advice, keep going. The alternative is gaining it all back, which is not an option! Stop thinking about it and just do it. Accept that its your life now and keep on.

I've definitely had days like that where all that goes through your head is that none of this matters and you are just frustrated and HUNGRY. And frustrated. I truly hope things get better for you and that you remember why you started doing this in the first place. At the least, eat on maintenance till 'that time of the month' passes and then re-evaluate.

Best of luck to you.

Maybe you could just bump up to maintenance intake for now, until you are feeling better. Then, when you feel ready, cut your calories back down slowly, that way you will be eating enough to feel full, and not be so hungry and you can focus on other things.

First, not going to tell you to stop whining or just keep going. (I believe in whining as a form of entertainment and a means of retaining some sanity)
I also feel you may be eating less calories than you could be, but without being able to see your diary I can't tell. (1200 calories is not much, but mfp seems to think it's enough for most people) If you're like me (5' 3" 50+ pounds overweight) you might be able to go up to 1600 or so calories, especially since you're going to the gym as well. The only reason I'm bringing up calories at all is because I remember how depressingly difficult it was to try to stick to 1200. I stopped trying. Then lost 10 pounds. I remain baffled.
As for sticking to the whole weight watching thing, I believe in throwing oneself off the wagon every now and again. Also to retain some sanity. Mostly because it's fun.
So, If you WANT to keep going, try taking a weekly weight watching Sabbath (day of rest). Eat whatever. Log nothing. Care not. Then back to the grindstone. There's lots to hate about life, but it could be worse.

you should just give up there is no point in trying

Frankly, we are ALL alone in this. We may have husbands and wives, parents and siblings, extended family and friends, all of whom support us...but after all is said and done, we only have ourselves to count on to to what it takes. No one can lose this weight FOR us.

Sure, it's nice to be encouraged by others who walk this journey, but when the computer gets shut off for the day, all you have is you...so you better be the best YOU that you can be. That means taking care of yourself spiritually and mentally as well as physically. No one is one dimensional...we have to nourish our souls as well as our bodies. If you think you may suffer from depression, then see your doctor. Lots of meds out there can help, many of which can help supress appetite and make your weight loss journey more bearable. Spiritually, you can join a church or, if you're not into religion, then volunteer at the homeless shelter or do something else that makes you feel good about yourself. Take up a new hobby. Go back to school or just take a night course. Pamper yourself...it's OK, you deserve it! Get a massage, facial, mani/pedi....whatever. You need to start making yourself a priority.

What some of the other posters are saying regarding depression could be a concern. It's hard to be physically "there" if you are dealing with your mind. It can take a lot of energy.

Your diary is closed... I know you're just venting but if you want some real advice and not just patronizing platitudes, open it up. Judging from your 6 month loss you're trying to lose 2 lbs a week... Here are some serious questions to consider:

What kind of caloric deficit are you trying establish? Trying to lose super fast for long long periods of time will end up with you struggling against yourself. Did you try eating at maintenance (for your current weight) for a week or two to reset your metabolism before attempting to lose more? It can also be a mental break from the grind of dieting.

Sometimes taking a break from the loss is the best way to proceed. How is your protein intake? are you getting enough dietary fats? Both protein and fat are important to feeling satiety, to help you feel full for longer. If you're eating a lot of carbs, they can in some cases make you feel hungrier as your body burns through them.

Just some thoughts. Great job so far, but try to use your willpower to keep your motivation up. Maybe give this article a read http://www.builtlean.com/2012/10/15/willpower/

Best of luck!

I dont lecture ppl.. Put on ur big girl bloomers and either find motivation and get off your *kitten* and do something about y ur depressed, or sit and mope around. Its ur choice. But to loose 48 lbs, that takes lots of motovation. So u probaly have it in u. Just tap into it.

Hi Krista,
Interestingly, I just read a chapter tonight from the book "Willpower" by Roy Buameister and John Tierney that talked about how self control and glucose levels are related. It talked specifically (in Chapter 3) about PMS and the "luteal" phase, where a woman needs enough calories to make up for a loss of energy that is directed to the female reproductive system. So, along with everything else PMS can bring (mood swings, irrational actions and thoughts, etc....), there is a craving for more food often times--which conflicts with the desire to lose weight. The books suggests that women do not get enough calories during this time. (PMS = Pass me sweets).
Anyway, you may have been using "PMSing" to describe how you are feeling overall--not just certain times. (What would I know--I'm a guy). But I thought it may be helpful to point out that you may be dealing with a need for more glucose at certain times, and more calories just at the time you feel the worst. It also talked about how fruits, nuts and vegetables will provide a more longer lasting and steady energy burn as they are "low glycemic" foods.
Hang in there!
Bill

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seriously, great, interesting response!

everyone gets in that frame of mind once in a while (especially with the "holidays" approaching) --- no one here can do it for you ... Only you can make the decision to continue - I hope you do you have made progress all ready. Remember why you are doing this AND DO IT. Living life is hard quitting is easy --- which will you choose?