So here it is, all the honesty I can muster

I suppose that this is by far one of the most difficult things I have ever written. This is honesty that I have never spoken (or typed) out loud.

I am lazy. Lazy that makes me fat.


My boyfriend (bless his generous heart) bought me a gym membership because that was the only thing on my list 3 years ago. I have gone 4-5 since getting the membership. The gym intimidates and enrages me. I have NEVER had to work at anything as hard as I have had to work at losing weight. When I am at the gym and see the size 2 girl RUNNING (or whatever you do on the elliptical) and laughing and talking with her BFF while I am WALKING on the treadmill with the angle cranked, huffing and puffing, and feeling like a sweaty disgusting mess and concerned that my shorts keep riding up because of chub rub; I kinda want to kill that girl. Maybe not kill so much as terribly maim or injure her.

I know that sounded really harsh, but I promise I am not a sociopath. I really just resent people who can eat whatever they want, or exercise because they "think it's fun" and aren't afraid to tell you so (on either accounts).

You've done the hard bit. You've acknowledged your issue and you're set to start working on it.

I was you - lazy, I was once quoted saying "I don't like to sweat, so I can't exercise". Now I'm one of those people you'd want to at least maim, because I DO enjoy exercise. Do I enjoy it every time I set out for it? Hell no, but once you get the habit you're well on your way to establishing a good routine and once you've done that I promise you you'll start enjoying it. We're chemically programmed to enjoy exercise, we release hormones and other nice stuff after exercise - you just have to push past the starting bit where it makes you want to cry, choke, puke and die. Possibly all one after the other.

You are going to do this. Because you're ready. Keep pushing Add me if you need a cheerleader :flowerforyou:

You've done a brave thing by being honest. I think a lot of us can relate. I know I can. I have been very lazy for the last 15 years. I just kept gaining and gaining and not doing anything about it.

Six weeks ago a friend of mine told me about someone she knows who is 33 and had a heart attack. He ended up needing bypass surgery. It was because of his lifestyle. 33 is my age. It's not like I haven't known I'm ridiculously unhealthy but for some reason this story was what made me decide to do something about it.

I started slowly. I highly recommend the Leslie Sansone walking DVDs or the Biggest Loser Power Walk. I'm too intimidated to go to the gym. I am much more comfortable working out at home. The first time I did the DVDs I couldn't get through it all. But eventually it got easier. I'm only 6 weeks in but I can tell a difference in how I look and feel.

I started counting calories and that was a huge reality check when it came to my food choices. I quit eating fast food. It's like a drug to me.

You can do this. Lean on us for support. Take it slow and be kind to yourself. I believe in you.

Great post! Putting it down for all to see is taking the first step.

Find something that you like to do thats active. I have always loved to dance... Solo dance parties when no one was home - Score! I then found Jazzercise. I heart Jazzercise SO MUCH. The instructors are normal people.. the classes have a range of people in their 20's to this lady who I think is about 80. They modify based on your ability... and its FUN. I thoroghly enjoy myself and look forward to my workout.

I was going to do the whole gym thing... and bought a groupon for a free 2 month pass... and I went once. I was intimidated and lost and overwhelmed and just out of my element. It wasn't fun and I didnt make the time for it.

I find myself making time for Jazzercise. Ohh.. I can stop by and do the express class on my way home... If I do this today - then I can go to jazzercise tomorrow.

I think if you find something thats fun... you will make the time to do it.

And I have found - the more you exercise - the better you end up eating. Because you know how hard you just worked to burn off that 600 calories - and do you really want to spoil it with a piece of pizza? At least thats my experience.

Well hello beautiful you!!!
Boy does your story hit home!

My father has been in AA for 35 years and he likes to quote part of the big book (I'm not exactly quoting it) but it's something to the effect of ...very rarely has someone failed when they've been completely honest with themselves. (Something like that)

It's sometimes a daily or minute by minute battle to continue to take an honest inventory of ourselves but your post is a beautiful step. Congratulations!!!

Best of luck and love,
Sal

I have been like you all of my life, up until about a year or so ago. I've been heavy my whole life, since I was a kid. Seriously, that girl on the elliptical worked up to where she was, I'm sure, just like the other ladies said. Now, I'm that girl on that elliptical, so to speak! Lol. I don't eat perfectly, by any means, but I eat healthy about 80% of the time, sometimes more or less. I'm sure people are tired of hearing my say it, but zumba is totally what saved me. I love it. I've always loved to dance, and hated to exercise. Zumba is the one thing that I can do almost every day. Lately, I've been alternating between zumba, treadmill, and/or just playing with my kids, and trying to get off my butt as much as possible. You really do burn a lot of calories just being on your feet throughout the day. I try to find little things to do around the house on the days I don't work out. I believe you can read my profile, I put some helpful tips on there, as well as my "story." Also, you can view my before and after pics. You can add me, if you like for motivation. Good luck! And don't get down on yourself, even if you fall, pick yourself up and start again!!! This weight loss thing is not unachievable!!!! You CAN do it! All of you! Trust me, if I can, then you certainly can! :happy:

You are not alone in re-vamping your life. Check out the FLY lady website, Dave Ramsey .com. and of course MFP....all have given me the motivation to get things in order. Good Luck!

One day at a time........ Dont give up. You can do it. It is going to take a while to make any progress, but keep trying. Even if you mess up and eat everything that you should not eat. At the next meal or snack make the healthy choice and move on. What is done is done. Im right there with you. All you can do is just go back to what you know you should eat. Dont say "whats the use"!! You know you are worth it! I will be here to help if you want to lean on each other. It is not going to be fun or easy. But worth it.