I just have to accept that I will always be fat

Fist off whatever you try it has to be something you can do forever. this 5:2 thing is so not that. 500 calories you be will be lucky to not collapse.

Start with a small and manageable plan even a 1/2 lbs a week target and give yourself time to reach your goal. The change will be much easier to actually achieve. And by the time you reach your goal you will just be in the habit of eating a manageable calorie in take.

Feel free to friend me I want to see you succeed.

Try this for 2 wks: add "Sugar" as one of the macros you track daily. See what you are logging.

Many people find success by changing their macro nutrients--whether or not it is with 5:2 plan or some other plan. For example, aside from the yogurt (and including the yogurt if it was flavored) your food choices were high carbs--especially sugars. Many people, including myself, have found that eating more natural unprocessed fats (dairy, flesh, nuts, avocado--NOT chips etc) maintains that satiated feeling longer.

I'm going to second this. If I eat too many carbs, especially sugar, I have mad cravings and feel low energy even with relatively high calorie intake. If I focus on making carbs no more than ~40% of my calories, and getting at least 100g of protein I feel content eating a lot less. I sometimes have to force myself to eat those last few calories so I'm not too low.

Also, in the past I've done some super restrictive diets with low calories. That also made me go on almost uncontrollable binges later. I think that it was my body's way of saying "What the heck are you doing to me!?" Maybe the 5/2 is affecting you that way?

ETA: I just saw what you said about just trying to be happy. I've also found that just taking a break from counting calories, and just trying to make an effort to respect my body, has changed my mindset in way that's helping me meet my goals. I'm now motivated to eat better and exercise because I want to take care of my body and see what kinds of awesome things it can do, which will also affect any secondary goals I have about improving my appearance. I did this for ~ 6 months and while I didn't lose any weight I thinking getting my head in the right space is important for long term success. Some people can jump right into things which is great, but some people, like me, have a more complicated past with food so a little more reflection is needed. So maybe another approach is to focus on the choices you make over the course of the day as a whole without obsessing over each calories. Instead ask yourself broader questions: Am I eating enough protein to help me stave off hunger pains that happen when I don't actually need to eat, am I drinking enough water that I'm not confusing thirst for hunger, etc. Then at some point in the future, if you so choose, you can set some more specific goals.

Don't accept that ever. I battled my weight on and off since I hit puberty. My willpower is awesome and I was always able to get weight off...but the wrong way which resulted in it coming right back on and then some. I got to the point that I realized to do this forever it has to be done a different way than I've ever done before. And I have succeeded since 2009 now. Well I started in 2007 but have been at a healthy weight since 2009.

Don't give up. Just look at it differently. It's not about "diet"..it's about finding balance. And fueling your body.

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Just take it one small step at a time. Have a few bites and get up and walk around or instead of granola have corn flakes. Never give up on yourself.