Your biggest fat secret.

In middle school I used to tell my friends I wasn't hungry during lunch, and stay away from home as long as I could after school because it was full of food and I needed to lose weight. When I got too hungry, I'd finally come home, make myself a whole box of mac and cheese with hotdogs and then do the dishes and clean the kitchen so no one knew I had already eaten. My mom would come home from work - "Oh thanks, you did the dishes! What would you like for dinner?" "Anything, I'm starving."

And during college, while I was battling severe depression, brain fog, and all the other fun thyroid symptoms, I also worked at a coffee shop. I would have 9 shots of coffee a day- one 4 shot vanilla soy latte and one 5. I also used to drink a ton of Dr. Pepper due to the free soda while you work policy. I gained 40 lbs in 4 months. The amount of calories I drank at that time still horrifies me years later.

Cisnerosl wrote: »

I used to sneak into employee refrigerators and steal people's food... Often times would just grab handfuls of their food and shove in my mouth : (

LOL!!!

I shouldn't be laughing, but this is too funny. xD

Cisnerosl wrote: »

I used to sneak into employee refrigerators and steal people's food... Often times would just grab handfuls of their food and shove in my mouth : (

I never did this but more than once I seriously considered it. Especially when I worked with some thin women who routinely ordered loads of Chinese takeout, ate 3-4 bites then left it untouched in the fridge for a month...on that second day, knowing they were never going to eat any more of it, I would look into the fridge when grabbing my water or soda and think about those unwanted, unloved yet still-yummy bits of cold cashew chicken and feel the urge to snag it!

JeriAnne84 wrote: »

Reading this thread gave me ideas to the point where I'm sitting here like "damn that sounds good, why didn't I think of that?" Then I have to reel myself back in. lol

Pahahaha yes, I'm feeling this too.

As another BED person trying to get out of the habit, I have some truly horrifying stories...! In addition, I have IBS, so over-eating can lead to sudden urgent need to go to the loo. Which isn't always convenient. Nightmare.

I used to quite frequently cave in to Domino's or Pizza Hut's "Two for Tuesday" offers, and buy two large pizzas, garlic bread, wedges, and cookies or cookie dough with ice cream, and eat it all, by myself, in one sitting. As a 140lb girl. And when I used to get Chinese or Japanese takeout, it'd always come with 4 sets of chopsticks because I'd ordered so much.
A lot of the time with takeaways when I was living with other people, I'd pretend not to be in my room, but be hiding in there with all my food. I'd make sure my lights were off so they wouldn't see the light under my door and know I was in >.< it seems completely insane now, but i just didn't want them to see how much I was eating...

A favourite binge (or rather, part of a binge) has always been 2 cans of salt & vinegar pringles with 2 tubs of philadelphia cheese. Another weirder combination is tuc biscuits (like salted crackers) with chocolate fudge frosting out of the can. Ohhh my days. But cake is a good one. I don't even particularly like cake, but sometimes I would buy a cake from a supermarket and just eat it all myself.

At school there was a system of packed lunches for people who had clubs during the lunch break and didn't have time for the hot meal, and sometimes I used to sign up to have a packed lunch, but also have the hot meal. And sometimes I'd have dinner at school, or at least toast from the boarding house or sixth form common room, and then go home and let my mum make a huge dinner because she didn't think I'd had anything to eat. I also used to totally live off lucozade from a vending machine at school - it's a miracle I'm not diabetic.

So, as a result of poor life-choices, I've just had to buy new clothes, as nothing I own fits me any more bah humbug! Thank goodness for January Sale clearances...

melimomTARDIS wrote: »

I used to wear one brand/style of jeans (I had 4 pairs) one brand/style of bra and underwear (a bajillion pairs of the same style) when the undies were discontinued I was legitimately upset.

Swimsuits- I wore my maternity swimsuit after having kids, and between pregnancies.

Clothes in general- took all damn day to find something that fit well/looked nice. So looking for a new swimsuit might be an all day endevor that ends in NOTHING bought.

Side note- as a thin person, I can find something in no time at all. When I bought a new swimsuit last year, I tried on two, and they BOTH fit. So then I got to pick based on color. NICE.

I wore the same style of Lane Bryant/Cacique panties from like, 1997 to 2013. They were the smallest ones and literally falling off my bum so I HAD to go and buy new underwear and I was so freaked out because I'd never even considered buying anything else. Then I realized I could have been wearing a couple of styles at Victoria's Secret for YEARS, and wear M in the ones I get there. Now though I have like 20 different cuts/brands of underwear. It's so weird.

I lost ALL of my clothing in a tornado in 2011 when I was still around a size 22. I seriously was more upset about losing flattering jeans and tops than about losing my HOME and keepsakes & mementos. Now I can just go and buy clothes wherever and maybe need to try 2-3 items before I find a nice fit. It used to sometimes take all day.

It is so weird. Cool but so weird.