Need to Lose 100 LBS -Robins Thread !

@ushkii - glad you are feeling healthier, keep it up and you'll get there.

@cblue315 Sunday Share - My name is Lori, I am a wife, mother of 2 grown sons, an interior designer. I own my own store, I specialize in custom made window treatments.
Three years ago I weighed in a 297. This morning was 186. Joined MFP in June of last year.

what you typed was AWESOME! I am at 250 presently, and because I had done Jenny Craig way back in 2010, and I KNOW what 187 feels like, I can so relate. I never lost the weight in my head and my heart though, so here I am back to where I started. (Kind of, back then I had started at 265 lbs) The journey is so familar though and it makes me feel so guilty about wasting all that money on a program that spoonfed great results but didn't really teach me a damn thing. Doing this journey is hard, and emotionally messy.
I have been reading "The Best Life Diet" by Bob Greene.
Also another great book is "One Bowl-A Guide To Eating for Body and Spirit" by Don Gerrard.

Hello All,
Today is a day of realization for me. I am working toward my goals. Truly working at it. Maybe not every minute of every day but always going toward my goals not away.
One thing I believe to be remarkable among us, we all are doing what we can, when we can, where we can, the way we can. We are all quite accepting of each other's journeys. So often in groups of peers in my past I have not encountered this. Most of my life this has not been the case.
I am so grateful to feel a part of this remarkable group. Thank you to all for your open sharing, consoling, curiosity and mostly support.
Love to all,
Lori

Hello everyone Id like to join you all!

Hi Everyone,
it's been a crazy week again for myself. not having a job has made me realize that I never remember what day it is. anyways it's finals week with school for my classes so I'm busy with that and my son wants to go to college so I've been busy helping him with that. Which is kind of nice but I don't have to take off from work to help him I can devote more time to showing him what to do. I found out today that I actually made it to the interviewing process for the job I applied for called Love Your Melon working in a non-profit that deals with helping kids who have cancer. I have to make a homemade gift before the interview is part of the process but I don't know for what age level or for a boy or a girl so it's been a little bit of a challenge to think of something to make. I decided on a homemade journal with an original Holly exclusive poem on the first page of the journal. I'm also behind in reading post I'm really just trying to figure out how to get a schedule in place sorry guys I'm sure you're all doing really well with your weight loss and I've been praying for everybody on this thread every night.

@RobinsEgg - You, my friend are in need of some big {{{{{{HUGS}}}}}}. You have inspired me in so very many ways. Know that you would indeed be missed.

Wednesday Wish ... that @RobinsEgg/Ellen knows how much she does mean to me and how her posts are what kept me going on this thread. I think we share an emotional ......(can't recall the word, having a 'senior moment') ... but it is a perception that is best summed up by what you said ... "no one would really miss me. That I was such a failure at keeping my weight off - that I was a bad example ...." I call it "the estrangement phenomena" because I often feel a lack of connectivity to other people myself. And, I think it comes from past trauma.

So ... I will take this moment to thank everyone who posts on here, even if there is no direct 'talk' to me ... and even if I don't make a direct 'talk' to you ... your posts help me to keep on with this and provide a sense of community that I can partake in. Cause otherwise, I am one solitary lady.
Niki

Good morning everyone.

Happy Earth Day!

Each year, Earth Day -- April 22 -- marks the anniversary of what many consider the birth of the modern environmental movement in 1970.
The height of hippie and flower-child culture in the United States, 1970 brought the death of Jimi Hendrix, the last Beatles album, and Simon & Garfunkel’s “Bridge Over Troubled Water”. Protest was the order of the day, but saving the planet was not the cause. War raged in Vietnam, and students nationwide increasingly opposed it.
At the time, Americans were slurping leaded gas through massive V8 sedans. Industry belched out smoke and sludge with little fear of legal consequences or bad press. Air pollution was commonly accepted as the smell of prosperity. “Environment” was a word that appeared more often in spelling bees than on the evening news. Although mainstream America remained oblivious to environmental concerns, the stage had been set for change by the publication of Rachel Carson's New York Times bestseller Silent Spring in 1962. The book represented a watershed moment for the modern environmental movement, selling more than 500,000 copies in 24 countries and, up until that moment, more than any other person, Ms. Carson raised public awareness and concern for living organisms, the environment and public health.
Earth Day 1970 capitalized on the emerging consciousness, channeling the energy of the anti-war protest movement and putting environmental concerns front and center.
The Idea
The idea came to Earth Day founder Gaylord Nelson, then a U.S. Senator from Wisconsin, after witnessing the ravages of the 1969 massive oil spill in Santa Barbara, California. Inspired by the student anti-war movement, he realized that if he could infuse that energy with an emerging public consciousness about air and water pollution, it would force environmental protection onto the national political agenda. Senator Nelson announced the idea for a “national teach-in on the environment” to the national media; persuaded Pete McCloskey, a conservation-minded Republican Congressman, to serve as his co-chair; and recruited Denis Hayes as national coordinator. Hayes built a national staff of 85 to promote events across the land.
As a result, on the 22nd of April, 20 million Americans took to the streets, parks, and auditoriums to demonstrate for a healthy, sustainable environment in massive coast-to-coast rallies. Thousands of colleges and universities organized protests against the deterioration of the environment. Groups that had been fighting against oil spills, polluting factories and power plants, raw sewage, toxic dumps, pesticides, freeways, the loss of wilderness, and the extinction of wildlife suddenly realized they shared common values.
Earth Day 1970 achieved a rare political alignment, enlisting support from Republicans and Democrats, rich and poor, city slickers and farmers, tycoons and labor leaders. The first Earth Day led to the creation of the United States Environmental Protection Agency and the passage of the Clean Air, Clean Water, and Endangered Species Acts. "It was a gamble," Gaylord recalled, "but it worked."
As 1990 approached, a group of environmental leaders asked Denis Hayes to organize another big campaign. This time, Earth Day went global, mobilizing 200 million people in 141 countries and lifting environmental issues onto the world stage. Earth Day 1990 gave a huge boost to recycling efforts worldwide and helped pave the way for the 1992 United Nations Earth Summit in Rio de Janeiro. It also prompted President Bill Clinton to award Senator Nelson the Presidential Medal of Freedom (1995) -- the highest honor given to civilians in the United States -- for his role as Earth Day founder.
Earth Day Today
As the millennium approached, Hayes agreed to spearhead another campaign, this time focused on global warming and a push for clean energy. With 5,000 environmental groups in a record 184 countries reaching out to hundreds of millions of people, Earth Day 2000 combined the big-picture feistiness of the first Earth Day with the international grassroots activism of Earth Day 1990. It used the Internet to organize activists, but also featured a talking drum chain that traveled from village to village in Gabon, Africa, and hundreds of thousands of people gathered on the National Mall in Washington, DC. Earth Day 2000 sent world leaders the loud and clear message that citizens around the world wanted quick and decisive action on clean energy.
Much like 1970, Earth Day 2010 came at a time of great challenge for the environmental community. Climate change deniers, well-funded oil lobbyists, reticent politicians, a disinterested public, and a divided environmental community all contributed to a strong narrative that overshadowed the cause of progress and change. In spite of the challenge, for its 40th anniversary, Earth Day Network reestablished Earth Day as a powerful focal point around which people could demonstrate their commitment. Earth Day Network brought 225,000 people to the National Mall for a Climate Rally, amassed 40 million environmental service actions toward its 2012 goal of A Billion Acts of Green®, launched an international, 1-million tree planting initiative with Avatar director James Cameron and tripled its online base to over 900,000 community members.
The fight for a clean environment continues in a climate of increasing urgency, as the ravages of climate change become more manifest every day. We invite you to be a part of Earth Day and help write many more victories and successes into our history. Discover energy you didn't even know you had. Feel it rumble through the grassroots under your feet and the technology at your fingertips. Channel it into building a clean, healthy, diverse world for generations to come.

When you feel dog tired at night, it may be because you've growled all day long. ~Author Unknown

Tom

Uggg jumped back in and the next day started domino style stomach bug in our house. Everyone else is mostly recovered I'm still suffering a bit. I've been logging everyday though (easy when crackers, bananas, toast and gingerale are your diet) and getting angry messages from mfp about my calories levels. I was supposed to start a fitness challenge at the y with some friends but I'm not sure if I'll make it tonight. Hopefully I can sign up late.

@Niki Thanks for the nudge.

@RobinsEgg I am soo glad you are staying!!! I know what slim feels like....and I so wish to feel that again. I was 179 waaaay back in 2010, then my husband started getting sick. So I forgot about me, and tended to him, and my teenager. It is tough to be normal, when everthing you are feeling is so not normal. Nothing like caring for your mate, when his body has decided to go into a amonia-induced coma, and you are trying to be all carefree for your sons sake. I jumped from 265 to 179 BACK to 250 presently. But, hey life is always going to be enflux, always changing. Isn't it understandable that your body would follow suit? So just by being present, and not putting your journey on the back burner mentally, YOU ARE SUCCEEDING girlie. I get on myself, then realize that I am a sane, powerful, positive woman. That has been my reward in these last couple years of caregiver madness. I am not on drugs to shut away the pain. I am not a regular at a bar down the street. (my favorite one.. lol) So Miss RobinsEgg, chin up....we love ya. You can't leave, we love your imput, and I know when I read the many posts I realize one other thing. We all have our lives and we are doing the best we can. It's a reality check and it puts me in a certain mental order. And all is right in the world.

I'm so tired today, I am waffling about working out but I WILL make myself get out of my chair, away from my desk, and go work out at lunch. I WILL feel much better after I have done so. I WILL lift myself out of the funk. MY WILL is stronger than the temptation to sluff off.

MY WILL is the only will that matters, when it comes to taking care of myself.

Thursday Share ... results for this week on my April Challenge of more veggies/less fruit ...
last week ... 20 fruit and 24 veggies
this week ... 15 fruit and 24 veggies
this week goal was less fruit by 1 a day. All the fruit I ate was fresh, the veggies were mostly fresh or blanched.

Goal for this week ... 2 fruits/4 veggies a day with a potato or yam as one of the veggies at least 2 times this week.
Follow through
Niki

PS ... welcome to everyone new to this thread. I hope you stop by again often. This is a great place to share your efforts/issues/successes/hopes and dreams.

@Mountmary/Barb ... you are welcome. We are in this together, all of us.

Happy Thursday
I'm behind again so I don't know the whole situation yet but Robinsegg I am glad you chose to stay. Also MN is very close for a visit. Being Thursday truth here it goes this no job journey has me doing bad weight wise due to my poor choices. I am eating horrible, not exercising or drinking water as much. It is time to kick myself in the @ss and get on track. I have had an exciting day and somewhat depressing but I am starting the journal after this post so it will be uphill. I want to share the poem I created. I don't do that rhyming stuff when I right just from the heart. Also for my son he truly was hard headed in high school so he graduated with a 1.7 GPA and now he is reaping what he sowed. He is looking at a technical college for auto mechanics or drafting. He doesn't want to apply because of his GPA but I told him it is better to apply and not get in than not to apply at all. Anyways the poem is below

Everyday is a new day with emotions that can change like a roller coaster ride at an amusement park but no matter what emotion your ride is giving you everyone knows that your determined. Just as the roller coaster slows down to stop, so does your current day unwind. As you unwind many things run through your mind touching on every emotion all at one time. In the morning your new roller coaster ride begins and everyone knows your the strongest person in the world.
Your strength has changed so many people's lives for the positive each and every day. You may not know the people you help but your determination can't be ignored. Always remember how great you are, that your laugh and smile brighten up the room and that your carefree spirit can't help but be adored.