What was your "That's It!" Moment?

Wow, reading a lot of these is a little inspiring.

I have been a "big girl" my entire life and had decided to just deal with it. I like me as a person and felt that if somebody wanted to stop themselves from knowing me just because of my weight, well their loss. I have an amazing boyfriend who loves me for me and is happy if I'm happy, but I almost feel like (and probably did at one point) I doubled his weight. A couple of years ago, I went on a roommates trip to Knott's and couldn't fit into some of the rides and most of them that I did squeeze into were uncomfortable. I love roller-coasters and this was dissapointing but not enough to kick me into gear. For the better half of my adult life so far, I had always told myself that I would NEVER NEVER let my weight get to or over 300. I had maintaing 275 for the last 8 years or so. February 2011 I went to the doctor with some concerns that led me to think that I may be diabetic. I got on the scale and it read 301!!! I fortunately squeezed by the type 2 bracket but my doctor said that I am waiving it in the face and need to do something about it. About 2 weeks or so later I found MFP and joined a weightloss group for support. I am now down nearly 40lbs and have 85 to go and I am determined to have it done early next year so when I look at my future wedding photos, I don't have to spend the night crying either.

I realized that I was contemplating was to avoid having sex with my boyfriend because I didn't want him to see me naked, even though we've lived together and have been intimate for 3 years. It was like I had developed this crushing awareness that I was blobby and jiggly, and I didn't want him to see me like that. I didn't even want to see myself like that. It wasn't a "waaah waaah woe is me" kind of low self-esteem moments. But a moment of serious clarity and self-awareness.

There have been some good motivators since then, but I think that's what really set this whole thing in motion.

My moment was at Christmas just gone - I ate rubbish the whole time and felt miserable. I had headaches, bending over was difficult because I was getting a headrush every time and my stomach felt huge! I'd already found MFP by that point but was half-heartedly doing it. After Christmas I started taking it far more seriously and lost 10 pounds in a few months.

I stalled for a month after this and had the realisation that I was using stress, boredom and tiredness as excuses to eat. I guess thatw as my other "that's it" moment Since then I've realised that I was just feeling sorry for myself and have kicked that in the butt. I still have my off days but it's going much better now!

My moment was when I went with a friend to try on a wedding dress. She kept urging me to try it on and I searched the rack and noticed they didn't have my size. Like as in, the dress didn't come in "my size".

I also noticed that day, I didn't know what "my size" ACTUALLY was.
I have not bought pants in an actual size in 2 years.

I buy XLS or XXLS in leggings and tights and skirts/dresses. I buy elastic waist shorts etc.
So I have NO idea what size I would even be if I went to put on pants or a top.


I also don't want to be a fat bride and I weigh more than my fiance and that's crap- so I started MFP right after that!