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“The so-called ‘psychotically depressed’ person who tries to kill herself doesn’t do so out of quote ‘hopelessness’ or any abstract conviction that life’s assets and debits do not square. And surely not because death seems suddenly appealing. The person in whom Its invisible agony reaches a certain unendurable level will kill herself the same way a trapped person will eventually jump from the window of a burning high-rise. Make no mistake about people who leap from burning windows. Their terror of falling from a great height is still just as great as it would be for you or me standing speculatively at the same window just checking out the view; i.e. the fear of falling remains a constant. The variable here is the other terror, the fire’s flames: when the flames get close enough, falling to death becomes the slightly less terrible of two terrors. It’s not desiring the fall; it’s terror of the flames. And yet nobody down on the sidewalk, looking up and yelling ‘Don’t!’ and ‘Hang on!’, can understand the jump. Not really. You’d have to have personally been trapped and felt flames to really understand a terror way beyond falling.” ― David Foster Wallace

To everyone that is like me....know you are not alone. There are people that understand your struggle.
To everyone this is not like me.....Please do your best to educate yourself on depression, there are people that need you.

I meant to respond to this sooner but I don't post often (more in January than in the 6 months I've been on mfp). Know that you aren't alone either. Depression is a lonely, painful place. I, too, have struggled against it. I lost my sister to it eighteen months ago. Take care of you...

This quote really resonates. It is one of the best analogies I've seen. Thanks for posting this.

@gemwolf110 You can do this! Good luck, I bet you do great!

@rachel0778 I love that you are going to talk to the original doggy day care place, yet you are still looking at other options. Plus two hours of Derby! Sounds like a win for you.

@pudgy1977 Great job on Monday! Was Tuesday just as good?

@melaniedscott We love hearing from you, glad you can find time occasionally to come check in. I am sorry that you lost your sister to this evil disease. My oldest suffers with depression as well. She is on so many different medications and sometimes it seems to barely work for her. I try my hardest to be there for her. It is hard to do across the country, but she knows I am there. I also suffer from depression. I am fortunate though that it isn’t severe, and usually only lasts a day to a few weeks at a time.

@janetay01 Yesterday was even worse than Monday. I was depressed, still am depressed, plus I ate 4 meals. The scale yesterday morning went back up. Today it is back down. Part of me wants to give up on this journey, go crawl back under the covers in my bed and eat junk food and binge watch lousy TV shows. We both can do this though, I Just need to focus on my whys.

So I am having a yucky week, feeling down and blah. Today, feeling the way I do, I would normally have stayed home from work, and did the binge on junk food and bad TV. Instead I am at work, trying not to go crazy on my calories, and determined to try and make this work. I could stay in bed, but then I would feel even worse than I do now. Plus I made a goal to not miss work unless I absolutely have to. Trying to remember my Why’s and my New Year Word. Persistence. I am not going to throw away 45 pounds for a brief moment in time of binging on bad food. Thank you guys for listening and being here.

I had a lot of bad (for me) food Saturday and while my weight has gone back to where I was originally, I still look about 6 months pregnant.

Good Morning! This is my first attempt at MFP. I was a lifetime member at Weight Watchers and it worked - but my husband joined MFP a year ago and lost the weight he wanted. I decided to try MFP because of financial restraints. My 1st week ended yesterday and I've lost 3 lbs. I'm not depriving myself of anything but it truly is amazing when you start paying attention to the calories you are putting in your mouth and you realize that you do not need the double burger, a single is fine as well as the small fry vs. the medium. I have 26 more pounds to go until I'm at the weight I was when my husband and I got married. I'm doing this for me, #1! But I'm also motivated by my kids and husband. My oldest daughter is 22 and will be getting married in the next year, my middle daughter is graduating high school this year and going to college, and my youngest is 2 1/2 and has more energy than I remember when my older kids were younger. Lol! My husband also has MS and as it progresses, I need to be in my best shape to take care of him when the time comes. I also want to go back to college in the fall and earn my Bachelor's. Thank you for starting this group! I need motivation and friends!!!

@gemwolf110 The waiting game is the worst! I hope they get back to you soon. Did they give a timeline?

@jdelaroy I'm so jealous you have a local place to adult skate, I hope you have a great time!

@laceyslabaugh Welcome! Glad to have you at MFP!

@pudgy1977 Sorry to hear you're not feeling well. I hope tomorrow is better!

Got my personal training done this morning and now I'm trying to recover in enough time to make it to derby tonight! I don't know if I'll make it the entire time (I'm clearly overtraining but I seriously have no idea where to cut back) but I'm going to go for as long as I can knowing I have the weekend to recover.

I can't wait for Friday night. I've got absolutely nothing planned so I can chill at home, watch trashy TV, and drink wine

I haven't been weighing myself, but I feel like I'm back to my pre-holiday weight. I think I'll weigh myself after the 6 week PT session just to check in. I haven't been in a good headspace for the scale lately and I'm afraid seeing a higher number will make me feel discouraged when I'm doing so well in my habits. I just have to remind myself to keep trucking along and the weight will follow.

Happy Thursday!

Rachel - well done, you are seriously hitting it hard on the exercise. Enjoy your evening with nothing planned - I love those times!

@pudgy1977 - sorry, you are feeling rough - hope today has been better for you.

@laceyslabaugh - welcome! I hear you about the energy of your 2 1/2 year old. My little boy turned 2 in December and has seemingly unlimited supplies of energy for everything!

Jen - glad you are feeling better. Good for you for keeping going and remembering your word for the year.
Enjoy the skating

@gemwolf110 - hope they don't keep you waiting too long on the job, sounds like you did great though so fingers crossed for a good outcome!

So glad it is Friday - still lots on at work but I've managed to clear a bit this morning from home. I'm in the office 4 days next week though so it may be a short lived victory! Busy weekend coming up - play date and swimming tomorrow then afternoon tea with my aunt and uncle on Sunday - we must try and keep sunday morning quiet and just play in the house with Alistair. Hope Friday is good to you all and have great weekends!

Hello everyone! I would love to join your group! I recently started with myfitnesspal after 3 years.

Unfortunately, I gained 10kgs in between and now weigh 70 kgs. My goal weight is 57 kgs. I also have hormonal issues which makes it even tougher. Hope to succeed in this journey together!

@janetay01 Sounds like a fun, but busy weekend. Hope things mellow out a little. I miss your daily check ins. Have you had much luck on the quilt? We need a progress pic.

@Rachel0778 You are always so busy, your weekend sounds great. Yes I have noticed the crickets too, and it makes me a little sad. This is my favorite thread. After I looked up the festival and much thinking I decided not to go. First the kids were going to grandmas, so I would be by myself. It was all about chocolate tasting. Now this sounds like a lot of fun, but not conducive to reaching my goals. I took a pass. I did gym time, lots of reading, and a little roller skating for the weekend. I have a problem though, I keep over balancing when I am on the wheels because I am so top heavy. How the heck, do I fix that?

@suriti Welcome, Feel free to post whenever you would like. We will try to help keep you motivated and cheer you on.

I had a great weekend. Came close to all my goals. Lost 3 pounds. I knew I was hanging on to the pounds for no good reason. I am so close to making it to my next goal. I would like to reach by Valentines day. But if not, I will be okay with reaching it by the end of the month.

So...my weekend did not go as expected. On Saturday, I had to go into work in the morning and then the evening ended up being a party with my derby team. I legitimately ate and drank 3400 calories....yeah...

The next day our friends called us up to meet them for a drink...which turned into an entire day of hanging out and eating garbage food.

My stomach hates me, I am disappointed with my choices, and I am completely exhausted for the week ahead and not at all refreshed. I feel like I have lost my ability to say no and do self care. I am just running around like a crazy person with no end in sight. How do I get my balance back???

@jdelaroy I'm glad you're still posting with me I fall all the time so I've sadly got no tips for staying upright

@bluepoppies777 Sorry to hear about your friend's Mom How did the weekend go?

Welcome @suriti and @Miz_T! Keep posting

Rachel - our posts crossed! So sorry to hear that the weekend did not go as planned. I struggled with the self care element in the latter half of last year - too busy looking after everyone else to do anything for me (and indeed my words for this year are self care). I found that I got to a tipping point where I just wasn't satisfied with the balance any more and I had to take some action. For me, it was about sitting down and having a fairly hard conversation with myself about what I wanted and what was going to have to give. And reminding myself of what my true deep down motivators are for this journey. Not saying it was easy - but try to find some time for yourself and work out what is worth keeping and what isn't!

I have lost 10 pounds in a week on this journey which is a great amount but stepping on the scale today on the 13th day ( week two), I gained two pounds?!?? How. I've been working out 5 days a week and eating grilled chicken, veggies, and almond milk occasionally. I measure everything down to condiments and log everything in. The scale made me feel defeated like I'm doing something wrong. Anyone else have this problem in their journey and any tips to kick start the weight loss again?

Thank you @jdelaroy it's hard especially when it's the beginning of your journey and you want to see results. Can anyone give me advice as to what caloric intake I should be eating and if 1200 calories is the right amount? I weigh 220 as of today I am 5,2 and want to lose 40-50 pounds. I exercise 5 times a week for 2-3 hours burning between 450-600 calories (  watch tracker). I eat chicken and veggies, no processed foods and try to stay under 75 carbs a day. Thank you in advance!!!