Have you ever been a victim of Child abuse?????

yoherbs421 wrote: »

I too know the feeling of hiding with said heartbeat. You need to talk with someone in person about this. You can pretty much ask anybody who to talk to for help. Help is always there, non-judgmental, waiting for you to reach out. Please don't keep it bottled up. Please do talk with someone.

CynthiasChoice wrote: »

I can't even begin to tell you how sorry I am that this happened to you. You are valuable and your recovery needs to start now, not later.

There are non-profit organizations you can turn to if money is the issue stopping you from talking with a counselor. Catholic Charities comes to mind, and I'm sure there are many others. Family and friends often do not have the patience to bear with you as you struggle through this. You don't say how old you are, but if you're still in school, a school counselor could help you find someone to talk to. Your family doctor might also be surprisingly helpful. Even someplace like Planned Parenthood has professional counselors who would know how to direct you in finding the right person to talk to.

It's so important right now for you to find the right guidance. Your family and friends may mean well, but your reliance on them is making you feel worse. When they reject your concerns and your pain, they make you feel abandoned all over again.

While you're looking for a counselor, something that might help immediately is meditation. I find the "Calm" app useful for guided meditation. Changing your thought patterns will be crucial in your recovery, and meditation is a great place to start learning how to do that. If you're a believer, reciting Psalm 23 can make you feel more at peace, and there are a many hymns that you might learn to sing. It Is Well With My Soul is a good one to start with. Singing has healed many wounds in my life.

I wish you peace and a purposeful life.

jodiwhite78 wrote: »

I was born into an abusive family. The earliest memory I have as a 3 year old girl? My mom and brother are sitting on the couch holding on to each other and they're crying. They're scared. I'm pacing back and forth in front of them confused. Too young to understand what's going on. My "father", if you want to call him that is yelling. He's very angry and he's punching holes into the wall. That's my very first memory. That was my environment during my most important years of brain development. And because of that I went on to abusive relationships for more than 1/2 my life. I'm 39 years old now and I'm still suffering. Depression, anxiety, bad coping mechanisms, I battle them daily. I'm on anti depressants because when I don't take them I become suicidal. What helps me is to surround myself with healthy minded people. I've had to cut ties with people I love because they were abusive to me. Once I started surrounding myself with healthy people things started to get better. Very slowly. Like 10 years slowly. And I still have my bad days. But now I have more good than bad. I'm so sorry your in pain. I wish I could give you a hug and tell you it will all be okay. It will be okay. Each and everyday it'll get better. But the pain never goes away...you just learn how to deal with it and how to love yourself.
The first step is to admit that you need help. Whether it's medication, counseling or both. Second step, get the help. Let me tell you it took everything I had to get help. But know that you are worth it. Life doesn't have to be like this for you. God bless

Geona2011 wrote: »

Yes and i am very sorry that this happened to you. The first thing I learned is to forgive. Forgive yourself, you did NOTHING WRONG! No matter what you heard, how you felt, nothing was your fault!! Then forgive that person(s), because not doing so still gives them POWER over you.
As for the memories, that is hard, i know. There are still times that I think of things & can feel that hate rising up, i have to remind myself that it gives that devil power & I pray, i hug my children & i am happy that I broke cycle that my mom could not. I can barely sleep at night because I can hear every movement & i am ready to fight. A lot of times i stay awake until morning & then when my husband wakes, i know i can sleep well. My kids stayed in my room as babies because i made a vow to be ready to fight for their safety. My son was so independent quickly but my girl still likes to be close to momma. I have many hang ups but i refuse to be ignorant nor will i ever look away! My husband is 100% supportive in my healing & he has been so good to us.
And yes, get counseling, find a group to talk with, but most of all, do not give in to the sadness & claim your right to be happy & move on.
No it never goes away, BUT it doesn't have to smother you either. Good luck & don't give up on yourself. Fight for your right to live a happy & productive life! Prayers to you.

jodiwhite78 wrote: »

I was born into an abusive family. The earliest memory I have as a 3 year old girl? My mom and brother are sitting on the couch holding on to each other and they're crying. They're scared. I'm pacing back and forth in front of them confused. Too young to understand what's going on. My "father", if you want to call him that is yelling. He's very angry and he's punching holes into the wall. That's my very first memory. That was my environment during my most important years of brain development. And because of that I went on to abusive relationships for more than 1/2 my life. I'm 39 years old now and I'm still suffering. Depression, anxiety, bad coping mechanisms, I battle them daily. I'm on anti depressants because when I don't take them I become suicidal. What helps me is to surround myself with healthy minded people. I've had to cut ties with people I love because they were abusive to me. Once I started surrounding myself with healthy people things started to get better. Very slowly. Like 10 years slowly. And I still have my bad days. But now I have more good than bad. I'm so sorry your in pain. I wish I could give you a hug and tell you it will all be okay. It will be okay. Each and everyday it'll get better. But the pain never goes away...you just learn how to deal with it and how to love yourself.
The first step is to admit that you need help. Whether it's medication, counseling or both. Second step, get the help. Let me tell you it took everything I had to get help. But know that you are worth it. Life doesn't have to be like this for you. God bless

DannyYMi54321 wrote: »

Yes, I was - physical abuse, slapping, shoving, grabbing, punching. Emotional abuse, being called names, told I was worthless, called the perjorative word for gay that starts with an F, molested, fondled, made to strip down, raped, and also made to watch his own deviant acts. Domestic violence, guns, knives, brutal control by fear. I was 16 the last time he abused me sexually, 24 the last time he hit me, punched me in the jaw.

Father of the year, eh? Nice way to treat your only son.