Motivation, Success and Frustration Sharing!

@HGSmith0920 glad everything worked out ok at work.

@Evamutt How was your pasta? What brand is it? Congrats on the new stove.

Rachel Baking cookies with grandma. I remember it fondly. I wish she was still around.

So I didn't make it to the gym all weekend. I did however spend a great deal of time in the yard. I pulled the biggest weeds I have ever seen in my life. They looked like elephant ears. I had to get the shovel out and dig them up. Some of the roots were probably 3-3 1/2 " thick. Sweated like a pig. then I dug up this tall zebra grass that I planted years ago. Had to have my son help with that. all in all my flower beds look great and I don't feel quite so guilty as I really worked hard and my whole body felt it so I know I burned some calories. Hubby was roofing a house all weekend and girls were gone so my eating wasn't to bad. except for the bowl of peanut butter ice cream I had for breakfast yesterday.

Today was not such a good day. I think I shared here but back in January, hubby woke up with high heart rate...125 & was in hospital for a week. I won't go into too much detail but it came down for about 3 weeks then went back up to 115. Dr going to do procedure on him in July & if that doesn't work, a pacemaker, which he said will work. It's an electrical problem. So he hasn't felt like his normal self thru all this but felt "ok" & accepting his new norm for now. This morning it was 155! He still felt "ok". Dr told him to double his meds for now & see what happens. All this to say I hung out with him most of the day in case....This morning I took my big guy(dog) on bike run, then walked the rest then went on a bike ride by myself because I didn't want to go to zumba class so I can be around hubby. This afternoon I brought him with me to pick up some kittens from the county shelter & deliver them to my friend to foster. Being home this much gave me an appetite. I just finished the other pack of that pasta I bought. I finally figured out what it reminds me of...Ramen noodles. I put the rest of the ground turkey spaghetti sauce on them I made & I'm full. I did loose another pound today after 3 weeks but I'm still going down, not up, however slow. Through all of hubby's medical issues, I do feel at peace most of the time. I can't help thinking about him dying. We just don't know the future. It makes me feel sad that the last 3 years have been good, since he has an anger/ reactivity issue & he really started working on it ,so our lives have been fairly content together & we may not have more time together in this state. We are both believers, so that makes a tremendous difference for us in life/death matters. He really loves life & enjoys so many things. He built a new computer for himself recently, he does wood working & he knows how to fix just about anything. He's pretty much a home body & I like to go out & do things almost every day & he also has a good relationship with our 4 children now too. I'm very grateful the Lord has been working in both of us & our children have learned to respect/love him. It's good for them too, not to have resentment. I'm glad this day is coming to an end tho. I'm so worn out from the emotion & the heat. time to sit on couch & watch TV with my dogs. Hope everyone has a good night

Good morning @rpolevoy11 Congrats on coming back! We are a wonderful group here! Create some goals and have fun!

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@ngolden3320 Gardening absolutely counts as physical activity! Way to go!

@Evamutt I am so sorry to hear that your husband's heart issue has gotten worse. I hope the medication starts working and that you will have many more years together. I am glad you were able to repair your relationship so that you have no regrets

@jdelaroy You're rocking the summer race season, way to go! I could choose a healthier option, but tradition is tradition and it wouldn't be quite the same. Her cookies are infamous. I just bite the bullet the 3-4 times a year I visit.

So I had a bit of a NSV yesterday. The photos from our last derby bout came out and I barely recognized myself. I seriously have body dismorphia because I think that I am this giant person, when in fact I looked downright slender in these photos! (I posted an example on my MFP page so that you can see what I mean). It's incredible how much perception can differ from reality.

Practice last night was a lot of fun since we are shooting our promo video so we got to feel like rock stars (fog machine, big lights, multiple cameras and all!). I can't wait to see how it turns out. Tonight I have my pole dancing class which I'm really looking forward to since I haven't been able to go for weeks! This is turning out to be a really fantastic week.

Thank you all for the well wishes for my hubby, He's setting up a video call with Dr to see if he might skip the procedure & go straight to the pace maker. We tried to walk this morning, after half block he had to turn around.
It rained a little this morning but I took most of my dogs to the dog park anyway. Hubby said he's not going to check his HR much, it makes him anxious & there's not much to do about it at this point, so I don't know when to stick around or when to go do my "regular" things. going to play it by ear

@Evamutt I sure hope they dont have to do any major surgery! That would be terrible! Hopefully it's just the pacemaker procedure and that it's much less invasive. All the best to you both and you are both still in my prayers!

@clicketykeys 13 hours on your feet?! WOW! I am in awe of your stamina and patience for kids

@HGSmith0920 I'm glad your SO is able to be so active at work to keep his body moving, although I'm sure he must be in a lot of pain!

@Evamutt I can totally understand not wanting to go to things, especially if it means skipping your favorite class. Is there another class you can take tomorrow in it's place, or maybe do some Zumba at home? I like the steamer veggies too, I usually only buy them when they're on sale but they are great for a convenience grab on the way to work!

I was a machine last night! I did the laundry, did the dishes, took the dog for a walk, and cooked a double batch of my thin mint brownies for the bake sale all before pole class! Pole class was rough though. I just couldn't get a good grip and was sliding everywhere and felt like a complete failure. The instructor was great at giving me different things to try but I was so frustrated with myself. I guess that's what I get for taking a month off during derby season! Hopefully next week will be better. Today my day is filled with meetings, wish me luck on making it through with a positive attitude!

@rachel0778 I know what you mean about tradition. Somethings are worth changing. I loved your derby pic! I hope the meeting went well last night.

@clicketykeys. No alarm, I have a Fitbit that keeps track of activity in an hour. So when I am at work I write my steps down every hour to make sure I get the minimum steps. I usually do squats when I check my steps. I just go to the restroom and do 20-40. 11-13 hours on your feet in a day? Crazy!

@evamutt I can understand him not wanting to check it, but sure can be stressful. I wish you both luck.

@evamutt It sounds like you know what you want. No reason you can’t skip your lunch with the girls this time. Hope you get a good night’s rest.

@rachel0778 Wow, you were a machine. You can come to my house and be a machine. LOL good luck at your meetings. You will feel so much better at your next class. Hang tough.

@hgsmith My BF and I lose track of time when we are together as well. It seems like the time just disappears. I am sorry your cat was being a butt.

I am still not doing good, only thing I have done faithfully the last few weeks is my squats. (Now over.) I think I am going to try and keep doing some though. I like the definition it is giving me. TMI Alert. The BF smacked my *kitten* this am, and he hurt his hand. He said something along the lines that those squats were working and he sure could feel the difference. I also squeezed the air out of him.

Today, I am focusing on figuring out a schedule that I can live with that will work with my new work schedule (I hate it.) Happy Thursday folks!

@clicketykeys That's an insane amount of steps! When I worked at a deli and would walk after work I would usually hit about 18k. But 30k is a bit much for me! Lol. I've been at the bank for about a month and a half. I really do enjoy it. It's just annoying having to relearn everything. But today had been going really well! But too busy, not to to slow and I think I've done everything right so far. Lol

I have to share.... so hubby's HR has been 155 for a few days, so according to him, early this morning while asleep, he woke to a warm radiating sensation going across his chest. He said he knew it was the Lord. So he goes in for his routine ekg this morning, the Dr calls him back before he even arrived home & told him his heart is completely normal, HR 60 and he's out of A fib (which he had since 2001!! I do hope the Lord keeps him like this for a while, or the rest of his life would even be better!! Also I went ahead out to lunch with my friends today. I had a good salad with turkey breast & it was all good.