Motivation, Success and Frustration Sharing!

@anitahigginbotham welcome. Great job so far. Just keep at it and check in. I have been gone from this thread due to life and I have missed all my friends. They really do help

@kayluvv sugar detox. Need to try that. How is it working

Just left the gym. So far I am living to talk about it. I let you know tomorrow. 3 months away is KILLING me. But it feels so good.

Howdy, all! Won't say much, I've to too much to do this morning but wanted to say hi. Everyone seems to be doing so great! @ngolden3320--way to go! back on the horse...really glad to see you! New ladies, welcome (@anitahigginbotham, @kayluvv, @gymprincess1234, @clicketykeys-if I haven't already said it, @BalletGirl1001, @Wolfger).

I've been on a see-food diet lately but I think I've got it under control. I readjusted to losing 1/2 a pound a week about a week ago because I was just hungry all the time. I think it is probably my gerd acting up. I need to cut out the coffee for a while, but this time of the year that's not good for anyone. Job is crazy...I've got more than 100 on-line courses that need to be reviewed, updated and copied for our next fiscal year and I can't seem to get the reviewers to actually review (okay, about half of them) and I'm copying over something in the neighborhood of 1200 classroom tracking areas. Crazy. I allocate a week to each of our 10-ish groups and do my location (most of the on-lines) piecemeal. Yesterday I was testing an old module that was acting up--it was a really complicated branching module where there are about fifteen or twenty possible outcomes--and it asks you for your name...after about 4 tests, I started entering Princess, Princess, Princess and deliberately choosing the wrong paths to make the 'supervisor' reprimand me...it is sort of a reverse anime joke for me and was super funny. I guess you take your amusement where you can find it. We were supposed to go to a movie on the lawn at our public library last night and I really kicked kitten when I got home to get dinner done (I cooked out...turkey burgers, grilled portabellas and asparagus and corn on the cob) so we wouldn't be rushing...and my husband was all "Oh, I'm tired. I suppose we should go..." We didn't go. Instead I spent two -three hours prepping the pics and creating proof sheets for that wedding I photographed a month ago (yes! not done yet). I've got to knock this kitten out. That's the plan for tonight.

Really looking forward to a 3-day weekend...

Rachel0778 wrote: »

You kill me!

So funny!

I binged yesterday. Happy I lasted a whole month without doing it, and that I logged every single calorie, but boy, I feel physically so bad today, so bloated and tired. At least my acid reflux and gastritis didn't set off.

@HGSmith0920 I'm back on it already. I was very well aware that I was binging. I get these 'episodes' of extreme cravings for just eating whatever and how much I want. It is one day and then it's back to my normal 1350kcal/day and losing 1kg/week.

I do snack on junk food on weekly basis, cause I still manage to easily stick to my allowed calories, it must be my body screaming from time to time for more calories , cause my weight loss is close to 7 months and 50lbs now. haha

Hope everyone is having a good week end. This morning was our annual block sale, actually several blocks. We didn't have anything to sell, but our youngest son & family came & sold bacon wrapped hot dogs, they were from Costco. I had 2 & logged it a few min ago & they are 170cal EACH just for the hot dog alone, plus the bun & bacon & small bag of cheetos...I almost ate the whole days calories! I wouldn't have had any if I knew ahead of time they were that much, also if I didn't smell them grilling, oh well. all my dogs got to go for walk & a few hung out front with us. My grand dtr, Jocelyn, who will be 4 had fun too. We're all tired now & it's only after one. I planned to pick up my best friend, who lives across town & doesn't have a car to come over. I'm waiting for her to get back to me, but if she doesn't get back soon, I'm going to be way too tired to go out to get her.

Well, I had to share, my friend didn't come over, she was having a "lazy day" , good thing because I took dogs for another walk while all the yard salers were cleaning up & there was a stove for sale down the street! It's the same kind I was saving up for at Sears, which went for $460 but I got this one for $180! It's not fancy, it's basic but that's all I wanted. Our stove was just getting grundgy looking, it needed new igniter in oven & it was black. All our appliances are white & so is our new stove! Me & hubby put it in. Looking forward to baking something lol

@HGSmith0920 - Does your gym have treadmills? He could come along and take a slow walk while you do a harder workout. (Then again, maybe he'd prefer to stay home and chill, lol!)

@Evamutt - Grats on the oven and the pasta! Let us know how you like it

Today is my last 11-hr day before I have three days OFF. Sooo ready for a break. Especially my poor widdle feets

I didn't even want to come on the boards and post this morning. I spent the last 3 days eating my weight in cookies and I just feel sluggish and gross. I wish I was the kind of person who could bake cookies with their Grandma and then only have a few instead of a few dozen. I'm glad I spent the weekend with my Grandma and I love it when we bake cookies together because it brings back so many great memories of when I was little so I don't regret it at all, but man do I feel it today! I also hate that my brain immediately goes to the negative that I'm going to immediately gain all the weight back plus some and that I won't be able to get myself back on track. I hate it when I get into that negative feedback loop.

Plus this weekend I have a bachelorette party and my SO's birthday so I know I've got a challenging weekend ahead. Sigh. I hope everyone else is starting their week in a stronger place than I am!

@HGSmith0920 glad everything worked out ok at work.

@Evamutt How was your pasta? What brand is it? Congrats on the new stove.

Rachel Baking cookies with grandma. I remember it fondly. I wish she was still around.

So I didn't make it to the gym all weekend. I did however spend a great deal of time in the yard. I pulled the biggest weeds I have ever seen in my life. They looked like elephant ears. I had to get the shovel out and dig them up. Some of the roots were probably 3-3 1/2 " thick. Sweated like a pig. then I dug up this tall zebra grass that I planted years ago. Had to have my son help with that. all in all my flower beds look great and I don't feel quite so guilty as I really worked hard and my whole body felt it so I know I burned some calories. Hubby was roofing a house all weekend and girls were gone so my eating wasn't to bad. except for the bowl of peanut butter ice cream I had for breakfast yesterday.

Today was not such a good day. I think I shared here but back in January, hubby woke up with high heart rate...125 & was in hospital for a week. I won't go into too much detail but it came down for about 3 weeks then went back up to 115. Dr going to do procedure on him in July & if that doesn't work, a pacemaker, which he said will work. It's an electrical problem. So he hasn't felt like his normal self thru all this but felt "ok" & accepting his new norm for now. This morning it was 155! He still felt "ok". Dr told him to double his meds for now & see what happens. All this to say I hung out with him most of the day in case....This morning I took my big guy(dog) on bike run, then walked the rest then went on a bike ride by myself because I didn't want to go to zumba class so I can be around hubby. This afternoon I brought him with me to pick up some kittens from the county shelter & deliver them to my friend to foster. Being home this much gave me an appetite. I just finished the other pack of that pasta I bought. I finally figured out what it reminds me of...Ramen noodles. I put the rest of the ground turkey spaghetti sauce on them I made & I'm full. I did loose another pound today after 3 weeks but I'm still going down, not up, however slow. Through all of hubby's medical issues, I do feel at peace most of the time. I can't help thinking about him dying. We just don't know the future. It makes me feel sad that the last 3 years have been good, since he has an anger/ reactivity issue & he really started working on it ,so our lives have been fairly content together & we may not have more time together in this state. We are both believers, so that makes a tremendous difference for us in life/death matters. He really loves life & enjoys so many things. He built a new computer for himself recently, he does wood working & he knows how to fix just about anything. He's pretty much a home body & I like to go out & do things almost every day & he also has a good relationship with our 4 children now too. I'm very grateful the Lord has been working in both of us & our children have learned to respect/love him. It's good for them too, not to have resentment. I'm glad this day is coming to an end tho. I'm so worn out from the emotion & the heat. time to sit on couch & watch TV with my dogs. Hope everyone has a good night

Good morning @rpolevoy11 Congrats on coming back! We are a wonderful group here! Create some goals and have fun!

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@ngolden3320 Gardening absolutely counts as physical activity! Way to go!

@Evamutt I am so sorry to hear that your husband's heart issue has gotten worse. I hope the medication starts working and that you will have many more years together. I am glad you were able to repair your relationship so that you have no regrets

@jdelaroy You're rocking the summer race season, way to go! I could choose a healthier option, but tradition is tradition and it wouldn't be quite the same. Her cookies are infamous. I just bite the bullet the 3-4 times a year I visit.

So I had a bit of a NSV yesterday. The photos from our last derby bout came out and I barely recognized myself. I seriously have body dismorphia because I think that I am this giant person, when in fact I looked downright slender in these photos! (I posted an example on my MFP page so that you can see what I mean). It's incredible how much perception can differ from reality.

Practice last night was a lot of fun since we are shooting our promo video so we got to feel like rock stars (fog machine, big lights, multiple cameras and all!). I can't wait to see how it turns out. Tonight I have my pole dancing class which I'm really looking forward to since I haven't been able to go for weeks! This is turning out to be a really fantastic week.

Thank you all for the well wishes for my hubby, He's setting up a video call with Dr to see if he might skip the procedure & go straight to the pace maker. We tried to walk this morning, after half block he had to turn around.
It rained a little this morning but I took most of my dogs to the dog park anyway. Hubby said he's not going to check his HR much, it makes him anxious & there's not much to do about it at this point, so I don't know when to stick around or when to go do my "regular" things. going to play it by ear